u/ConfusionOk466

So, I am a brand new fan, very brand new, yesterday new and I have a tiny bit of a problem with Epic, I love it but, it does remove the beggar part, where Oddyseus acts like a beggar to observe and plan his revenge as I know. Now does make sense for pacing and time purposes that this whole thing was removed? Yes. But it does a LOT, and I mean a LOT to the pay off part, especially that part where Argos(Oddyseus's hound) recognizes Oddyseus beneath his disguise and dies and it also adds to the part of Oddyseus coming and stringing the bow

This is my first time actually trying to write something and I know it's a bit late since it's already 17000 words and 14 chapters deep (I know the chapters are a bit short and I am not a very fast author) but if you are looking for something close to RDR2 and maybe Blood Meridian but mostly RDR2 I think you should check it out, I am dropping the link here

https://www.scribblehub.com/series/2246749/no-good-blood/

It feels dumb to tell this to a bunch of strangers on the internet meanwhile I can't even tell it to my family without having a panic attack but, I am 14 and I am starting to realize that my family was pretty dysfunctional, to sum it up, my dad is (maybe because of his own childhood) a pretty relaxed, even annoyingly relaxed in some situations, have problems with substance issues(not abuse or DV, just not coming home and constantly arguing with my mother over it.) and he left around at 10, not that he went out to buy milk, they just divorced, maybe acted like they were together for a while more, I don't know but my dad married a sweet woman a year back which I feel guilty about liking, that's a topic though, my brother is basically a 21 year old frat boy, he was always like this, careless, spends too much money on unnecessary things, takes the car on his own liking and always manages to convince my parents to buy him things, my mom as a reaction maybe, took it out on me and turned into a tiger mom, afraid that I would turn out like my brother, I love my family, it's just that, we are smart people with bad ways of using it, my parents both doctors so I come from a financially stable and actually doing well household so I don't know how much right do I have to say this, I am drifting off topic. Thanks to my family being caught up in their own drama, and me being left home alone ever since I was 8, I grew hyper independent and took on the role of a buffer zone between my brother and my mother and my father and my mother, I don't know why, I just did, no one forced me into it or anything, I am basically a functioning adult at this point, I just don't have the paycheck of one. Whatever, I am sorry I went too off topic again but, when I talk about these, after a while my brain just flips a switch and I start to feel fine, it's all gone, when I try to talk to anyone about this and they come close to helping me, this ache in my chest starts and I can't even talk and want to flee and pretend everything is fine because it feels safer and while doing that, to amplify my "fineness" I use other people's suffering to downgrade mine, partly because I am so afraid of being one of those people who find mental illness like ADHD and depression and Autism cool and just quirky. I feel like I am faking it right now... whatever, sorry for wasting your time, anyone who managed to read it all.

TL'DR: I can't even get help because to get help, I first need to figure out how to not invalidate my feelings into being fine.

To be honest, I don't know why I am doing this, just wanted to share, as you can guess I am 14 and was kinda always jealous of my friends going out with bicycles, I had the means, leftover bicycles from brothers and what not but, never wanted to I guess. Yesterday my mom brought my brother's old bicycle, said she got it fixed up, it's a good one, I don't know the brand and the paint is all worn but, it's a good one, with gears and all that. Today I got bored, it's summer break, not many friends that still go out so, I took the bike and after a few hours of practice, I got it figured out, just wanted to share