u/Creative-Dream9422

Sorry my beautiful ladies for the sad post, just feeling very overwhelmed.

I do not know if it is bad luck or something about me, but I keep ending up in one-sided friendships.

I am always the one who shows up, listens, remembers things, checks in. It comes naturally to me. But when I need someone, everyone suddenly has something else going on… or they just disappear.

Recently, I went through something really serious, and the people I thought were closest to me just were not there. Some did not even ask if I was okay. Some made me feel worse instead of better. That hurt more than I expected. Now I keep overthinking everything the people I choose, how I show up, even what I thought friendship meant. Maybe I expect too much, I do not know. But it does not feel like a lot to ask for basic care and honesty. I am just tired of feeling like I matter only when it is convenient.

Does this happen to anyone else? Or am I missing something?

Why does friendship feel like a place I’m never meant to belong?

I keep finding myself in the same quiet story where I give more than I ever say out loud where I remember, I stay, I show up even when it’s not easy

and somehow when the moment comes when I need someone to sit beside me in the dark there is only distance only silence stretching longer than it should

it’s a strange kind of loneliness to be surrounded by people and still feel like an afterthought

lately, I’ve started wondering if it’s just chance or if there’s something in me that keeps choosing doors that were never meant to open

I don’t need grand gestures just a little warmth a little consistency someone who doesn’t disappear when things stop being simple

is this how it is for others too or am I just learning the same lesson in different faces every time