u/Creepy_Lynx_998

Doing productive things like exercise, healthy diet and staff.

I keep blaming to myself and I can't stop thinking about it.

I feel old.

I just want to vent a little. I am reaching to the point where I have to open a podcast or a live stream in the background not to feel lonely. And it feels emotionally devastating not having anything to watch and listen with other people.

I have over 75 songs and I don't feel like listening to any of them. I feel like I need new songs.

Turns out , the girl has a boyfriend and I know this after I talked to her and asked her out. And I saw her with her boyfriend and she is looking at me and after that she hold her boyfriend's hand and walk away. I feel so ashamed .

I just got rejected for a date with a girl. I don't know how to deal with it. I also have to see her everyday because we are in the same semester and in the same group. I am ashamed and have no idea how to behave in front of her.

For context, I haven't tripped for 3 months. I have already avoided salty, sugary and oily foods for the last few days and started eating banana, yogurt and eggs daily. I have also prepared drinks to have during the trip. I am planning to exercise yoga after ingesting 1 g pan cyan. And if I feel like it, I will go out . I heard some people write down questions before they trip. I have a lot of questions about myself and one of them is what is the real purpose of my life . Can you give me some advice.

First of all, this is just a dream but it doesn't give me rest instead I feel more tired .For some reason, I killed someone in my dream. And somehow, I feel so convinced that I really kill someone. And I feel so terrified when I find out that people are investigating the culprit. I was in front of them but I was able to keep the secret. No one did know. I was able to completely hide the traces and cleared the body completely . I spend the night at a friend's house. I spend the whole night not sleeping and I feel deeply terrified when I found out that I haven't slept yet at 4 am. There are a lot of details in this part. Like the friend's mom, his disrespectful behavior, one of my dead friend who died in real life months ago. I just can't remember the dream. But the final dream involves me and my brother. I started shouting enthusiastically and passionately " I am not afraid" over and over while running with my brother around the place where I am not safe . My brother joined and started shouting the same. I have a lot of feelings when I shout. I am aware that I still has the fear but my anger and ego( why should I be afraid) . I was kind of having the mindset of I will do whatever I want because this is my choice and not yours. I shouted like a crazy maniac and I wake up so tired and confused. I don't like this kind of dream. It makes me feel so isolated and depressed.

I had this dream a month ago and I can't forget about it. It was a lucid dream. I was walking in my childhood school and I sawy childhood friends.I was smiling wholeheartedly while crying at the same time when I see them. As I walk , the environment turns dark and I wake up.

I had this dream a month ago and I can't forget about it. It was a lucid dream. I was walking in my childhood school and I sawy childhood friends.I was smiling wholeheartedly while crying at the same time when I see them. As I walk , the environment turns dark and I wake up.

I had this dream a month ago and I can't forget about it. It was a lucid dream. I was walking in my childhood school and I sawy childhood friends.I was smiling wholeheartedly while crying at the same time when I see them. As I walk , the environment turns dark and I wake up.