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so for background info: my ex boyfriend was talking to me and another girl and he ended things with the other girl because he wanted to date me. it wasn’t a big deal to me since we were just talking and there wasn’t any commitment. The other girl was not happy about it. She showed up to his house and tried to convince him to end things with me and pulled out my instagram and started talking about how ugly she thinks i am. Then her friends started calling me and my boyfriend and would scream about how im ugly fat and a homewrecker. then she posted him on the tea app and her and her friends would comment about how i was a downgrade and stole him away from her.

During all of this i had gained about 20 lbs so i alr didnt feel very beautiful and all of this just made me so insecure. I have never been so anxious and self conscious in my life. I’m scared to go out in public in case i see her or her friends and they start calling me ugly. ive been wearing sweatshirts in 90 degree weather cause i don’t want anyone to see me and think im fat. I ran into the girls sister one time and her friends all stared me down and laughed at me. every couple months a girl will request me on instagram. i’ll accept the request and then see on their account that they have pictures w her and they are friends with her. (i blocked her so her friends are requesting to see my account.) i deactivated my instagram because i just don’t want anyone seeing me anymore. i broke up with my boyfriend because even though he didn’t do anything directly, i resented him because he was the reason she was attacking me.

what makes me so sad is that i used to be so confident and that is something i rly loved about myself. i was recently cleaning out my room at my parents house and i found a bunch of old birthday and graduation cards and so many of my friends wrote about how much they love my confidence and the energy i bring into the room. I haven’t felt like this in a really long time and i miss the person i used to be. I just hate how i look and i hate the pathetic person this girl has turned me into and i don’t know how to fix myself.

so for background info: my ex boyfriend was talking to me and another girl and he ended things with the other girl because he wanted to date me. it wasn’t a big deal to me since we were just talking and there wasn’t any commitment. The other girl was not happy about it. She showed up to his house and tried to convince him to end things with me and pulled out my instagram and started talking about how ugly she thinks i am. Then her friends started calling me and my boyfriend and would scream about how im ugly fat and a homewrecker. then she posted him on the tea app and her and her friends would comment about how i was a downgrade and stole him away from her.

During all of this i had gained about 20 lbs so i alr didnt feel very beautiful and all of this just made me so insecure. I have never been so anxious and self conscious in my life. I’m scared to go out in public in case i see her or her friends and they start calling me ugly. ive been wearing sweatshirts in 90 degree weather cause i don’t want anyone to see me and think im fat. I ran into the girls sister one time and her friends all stared me down and laughed at me. every couple months a girl will request me on instagram. i’ll accept the request and then see on their account that they have pictures w her and they are friends with her. (i blocked her so her friends are requesting to see my account.) i deactivated my instagram because i just don’t want anyone seeing me anymore. i broke up with my boyfriend because even though he didn’t do anything directly, i resented him because he was the reason she was attacking me.

what makes me so sad is that i used to be so confident and that is something i rly loved about myself. i was recently cleaning out my room at my parents house and i found a bunch of old birthday and graduation cards and so many of my friends wrote about how much they love my confidence and the energy i bring into the room. I haven’t felt like this in a really long time and i miss the person i used to be. I just hate how i look and i hate the pathetic person this girl has turned me into and i don’t know how to fix myself.

So for background: I had a friend that I was extremely close to. we were close friends for about 3 years and roommates for 2 of those years. During our friendship she struggled with depression anxiety and self-harm. She would get these debilitating panic attacks where she couldn’t breathe or speak. and she eventually went on medication for it. Still, she had a lot of depressive and suicidal thoughts.

We would fight a lot. It started off mostly because she would make a lot of rude comments/jokes towards me and i would tell her to stop. and she would claim im being too sensitive. One day we were in a fight and she told me that im the cause of her anxiety. and after that she would start telling me im a terrible ungrateful person. Still we stayed friends for another year.

Obviously staying friends with someone that said those things to me (multiple times) started to affect my mental health and i eventually had to cut her off and stop speaking to her. It was a little awkward because we were still roommates but it was what had to be done. I honestly felt so much peace after and O don’t regret my decision at all. Leaving that friendship helped me go out of my comfort zone and socialize with new people and i’ve found rly great friends that actually respect me and my boundaries.

My ex-friend and I have a mutual friend that mentioned that she is still depressed and still self harming herself. and that she has to drag her out of her room most weeks so that she doesn’t just stay in bed all day. I feel bad that i got so much mental peace from leaving the friendship while she’s still struggling. Am I a terrible person?

Hello i am a recent grad with a degree in Biomedical Engineering. I am looking to become a clinical specialist but i’ve been mass applying to big medical device companies and haven’t made it past the hirevue. Does anyone know anything I could apply to that would give me more experience to become a clinical specialist. I’ve gotten advice to network more but i’m not even sure how I would approach that. Any advice is helpful!