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So yesterday I was chanting Brahmananda Swaroopa during the Sadhguru Presence time.

Suddenly in between I heard a big thud. And then my nephew’s loud cry.

I had my eyes closed throughout. But right when this happened, I felt sort of pain in my lower jaw, like I had hit it when I fell down.

Once the chanting was over, I came out of the Pooja room and saw my mom and my sister.

I asked her if my nephew was okay.
She said yeah, he fell on the stairs and hit his jaw - because of the impact, a little bit of his front tooth broke.

My mind just paused for a minute.
I was AMAZED by how strongly I felt what had happened to him.

It was such a strange experience.

Just wanted to share this here and see if anyone else has ever felt something similar.

Ever since I was young, there was this constant desire in me to be special.

In school, I was sort of naturally good at studies and few other extracurricular activities. Every time I did well, my parents and teachers would praise me.

Somehow I felt loved when this happened. So I started putting more effort in just about anything- no more because I enjoyed the activity, because I wanted to be special.

However over time I started losing that edge - I was not naturally good at things anymore, I wasn’t special anymore.

The more I got frustrated, the worse I got at doing things or my relationship with others.

It was around this time that my mental health got really shitty. I honestly felt no reason to keep living. It felt tiresome. I didn’t understand how or why people around me kept going. It just felt like everyone was miserable- just kinda dead.

Somehow I stumbled upon yoga and meditation.
For the first time I felt good. LIKE REALLY GOOD!

It was around this time that I came across this quote (something along this lines) ‘if your joy is about being better than someone else, it is not success, it’s sickness’ - safhguru
I had come across lot of his quotes which I found really helpful. But this one really touched me.

I realised that me wanting to be special was essentially me trying to be better than others- of course I was feeling miserable.

When I realised this, I stopped trying to be special - and I can FOR SURE say that somehow that’s the best thing I have done!

Ever since I was young, there was this constant desire in me to be special.

In school, I was sort of naturally good at studies and few other extracurricular activities. Every time I did well, my parents and teachers would praise me.

Somehow I felt loved when this happened. So I started putting more effort in just about anything- no more because I enjoyed the activity, because I wanted to be special.

However over time I started losing that edge - I was not naturally good at things anymore, I wasn’t special anymore.

The more I got frustrated, the worse I got at doing things or my relationship with others.

It was around this time that my mental health got really shitty. I honestly felt no reason to keep living. It felt tiresome. I didn’t understand how or why people around me kept going. It just felt like everyone was miserable- just kinda dead.

Somehow I stumbled upon yoga and meditation.
For the first time I felt good. LIKE REALLY GOOD!

It was around this time that I came across this quote ‘being happy about being better than someone else is not success, it’s sickness’ - Sadhguru
I had come across lot of his quotes which I found really helpful. But this one really touched me.

I realised that me wanting to be special was essentially me trying to be better than others- of course I was feeling miserable.

When I realised this, I stopped trying to be special- and I can FOR SURE say that somehow that’s the best thing I have done! :DD

So I live in a 5 family members household and everyday there's a lot of kitchen waste. We have a small garden, so we try to compost the waste to use as manure for it.

We bought the bokashi buckets for composting - but its kind of difficult. A lot of effort involved and most times it gets stinky.

So I have been thinking of making a product that can help families in Chennai compost easily. I was talking to a friend of mine at work and she seemed interested in using a product like that. Also one family in our neighbourhood.

I wanted to understand if this is a common challenge people have faced or any other information related to this

Recently I was talking to my coworker about a festival that was coming up. It was a Hindu festival, a new year day. She said since she is an atheist, she doesn’t like celebrating it.

For me it was the right opposite - I really enjoyed it because this was day we placed fruits and vegetables in front the god Krishna as a sign of gratitude towards everything that’s keeping us alive and prayers for another healthy year.

It isn't necessarily praying to lord Krishna. Sometimes its to other gods - for example one time when I visited the Linga Bhairavi temple at Isha, they had placed lot of fruits in front of the temple and it looked absolutely beautiful!

I think the point it to take time atleast once a year to acknowledge the many things help keep us alive. It just being portrayed as ‘god’, to make it easier to comprehend I feel.

But I also understood her point about how much violence has occurred in the name of religion.

But does believing god exists immediately make you religious?

I got the feeling that because of the conclusion she came to, she gave away her freedom to simply do what’s needed.

By being rigid with her belief that god doesn’t exist, she stuck with the fact that hates the festival, from what I understood.

It made me wonder, instead of debating whether god exists or not, isn’t it better to conclude that ‘I don’t know’?

Recently I was having dinner with my team members in office. Somehow the topic turned to the horrid spaces in the internet.

It disturbed me just learning about the extent humans will go to cause harm, just be so evil.

It was hard to believe but we all believed it, even though none of us had remotely experienced any of those things personally- just things you heard.

This conversation brought up two questions within me -

1. If humans are capable of going to such extent of ‘evilness’, isn’t there same amount of capability of ‘goodness’?
2. If there’s possibility for such hellish spaces in this world, shouldn’t there be possibility for absolutely heavenly spaces as well?

Tbh, ever since I have been visiting the ashram in Coimbatore, every time I’m just in awe at the place. My love for this place only grows each time!

The space, the people, just everything about it seems like a heaven :DD

But whenever I talk about this to my friends who haven’t been or experienced the ashram, they’re quick to conclude there’s something fishy.

Or when I talk about the many wonderful people I met there, they’re quick to suspect.

None of this happens when you talk about something evil.

Idk, I feel like we have put up so many walls due to fear, that even the most fragrant flowers look wilted.

Does anybody else feel this way?

Today evening two neighbourhood kids came over to our home to play with my nephew. They had met my mom, who had taken my nephew to play, in the park.

They followed my mom and nephew back home and started playing with all of us - mom, nephew, my sister and me.

We asked riddles to each other and played random games

My work was still going on - it's been quite stressful at work. But as I was playing with them, I kept everything aside, just fully involved.

It was soooo much fun!
It reminded of my childhood, when we'd play with the neighbourhood kids till night, totally carefree!

I'm 27 now. I remember as I reached 14-15, I stressed about studies and everything.
By the time I reached 20, I had almost no will to keep living
Then Sadhguru entered my life
Slowly he made this barren land in my heart into a beautiful garden
Now I just enjoy the flowers everyday
And every time I meet someone, I try to offer a flower from my heart to them

I'm happy I have become like a child again, joyful and full of love! :DD