u/DangerousAd7433

Hello,

I do apologize if this isn't the right sub, but I have nowhere else to go, and I rather not go into many details, but I was adopted from Russia at five years old and have reconnected with my birth family. Currently, I'm 26 years old and being abused/neglected by my mother and sibling who was adopted along with me in a sibling pair. This has been ongoing for years at this point, but it somehow has gotten worse since I turned 19/20 and just keeps getting worse.

I was moved shortly after my birthday to one half of the house where a door is set up that can be locked on the other side... it has been used whenever I misbehave, and sometimes I go days without any sort of interaction from the other side. I come and go through the garage. My mother doesn't care at all for me, and I am probably underweight due to essentially being starved.

I have been trying to get a job and finish school, but running into many roadblocks mostly cuz of no support from my mother or anyone else.

My sibling has been weaponizing the door and threatening to lock me down here again when I even mildly annoy her and even went as far as one time almost pushing me down the stairs because I was in the kitchen making food, and she got pissy that I was using the microwave... I didn't make any noise, and she just came down in the middle of it. There is more abuse going on, but it has been happening on and off for years with it always following a pattern... she moves back home and the abuse starts out small, but escalates. I really don't want to go into more details about all of it...

The embassy here is impossible to contact and my grandma in Russia asked about me, and they told her they can't help me in any way. I have some people that I'm friends with online who are helping me pay for food and other expenses, but there isn't anything they can do since most of them are dealing with their own health problems or aren't financially stable...

Food banks are pretty much out of my reach due to the shitty public transportation where I live which makes a twenty-minute trip take 1 to 2 hours both ways. They're also in not so good areas that aren't along bus routes so the walk is just cumbersome.

I'm also disabled, but my state doesn't have a functioning government and most of their services for abuse of an adult is for the elderly. I've been denied disability benefits because I quote "not disabled enough so not entitled to the benefits".

I'm honestly stuck and don't know what to do at this point... my sibling doesn't treat me like I am human, and my mother is a catholic conservative...

Hello,

A while ago I found Propper cargo pants that fit what I wanted which is mostly no velcro, cheap, and durable.

Currently, I wear a leather belt that I bought off of Amazon, but realized it doesn't work well with my cargo pants so wondering if anyone knows where I can buy a belt that is thicker and fits better on the waist that isn't a tactical belt?

I prefer leather, but open to anything that would work and is also durable.

Copying from other subs and might be asking for too much, but I got an idea from somewhere and would like a leather bound journal with lots of pages. Something that I can just write and jot things down like my thoughts. I'm not looking to commission or hunt people down on etsy or whatever... I just want a notebook that matches the closest to what I want.

I don't particularly like the string thing around most leather journals and would like a flap or a snap on button that feels durable and looks nice. I also don't want it too small either, but also not too large. It should be easy to pack into most bags without taking up a lot of room.

The paper should be able to not bleed through with a ballpoint pen.

My budget isn't very large, but I want something of good quality, durable, ages well, and a pretty thick feeling spine as well and feel durable in my hands which usually means a bit of thickness if that makes sense.

I did manage to find a notebook at Barnes & Nobles that matches the closest: https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/brown-monastery-refillable-italian-leather-journal-barnes-noble

And something similar to that one is what I'm looking for.

I don't know where else to post this and might be asking for too much, but I got an idea from somewhere and would like a leather bound journal with lots of pages. Something that I can just write and jot things down like my thoughts.

I don't particularly like the string thing around most leather journals and would like a snap-on button thing that is durable and looks nice. I also don't want it too small either, but also not too large. It should be easy to pack into most bags without taking up a lot of room.

The paper should also be able to not bleed through with a ballpoint pen and a pen holder would be nice as well.

My budget isn't very large, but I want something of good quality, durable, ages well, and a pretty thick feeling spine as well since I want it to feel durable in my hands.

Hello,

Just put in an order for two Zebra DelGuard in 0.3 mm, in the light blue and clear snoopy. As usual, siking myself out a bit after ordering since I didn't check reviews that much before ordering and just want a 0.3 mm pencil in my collection. I did read an article on JetPens and Zebra DelGuards seem like they're pretty good for what I want.

I am seeing mixed reviews. Some people like it and others have issues. Since it is 0.3 mm, I do expect some problems due to how small the lead is, but since it has a lead protection mechanism, I am assuming this isn't as a big issue as on other pencils?

I did also order three packs of Uni Smudge-Proof Lead in HB 0.3 mm. Not sure if that is correct lead or does it not really matter as much?

Hopefully both writes well and are purdy.