Healthy relationship yet depressed
Some context: me and my bf live together in my parents house due to my bf not being able to afford living on his own, and his family aren’t offering him to stay with them. Anyway, we are both young, we have almost been together for a year.
I have bad mental health and it’s gotten worse over the past few months, to the point where I’m suicidal, planning my death, breaking down most nights, feeling like shit all the time, don’t want to do anything.
Me and my boyfriend recently went on holiday in the UK and I had to go home early because I was just so anxious and depressed, I had a break down. The worst one I’ve had in years.
Shall I just end things with my boyfriend? That way he doesn’t have to care for me and won’t have the influence of my bad mental state. He could have a better girlfriend who will do things with him and he can finally be happy.
He says he isn’t wanting to leave me and he wants to get through it together (he does treat me very well) but I don’t think that’s the right decision.
I’m stuck and this decision is making me worse.
Any advice is very appreciated!