u/Dark--princess420

I want everyone to know that eventually youll see your scars, see that theyre still visible 10 plus years later and wish youd never done it. I didnt know how scars worked when I started ruining my arm ( theyre not even deep btw) and at 29 I still hate them. Obviously most people wont mention it but the fact my struggles are permanently scarred into my arm really bothers me now. I have literal ugly scars from multiple surgerys on my other arm but that doesnt embarrass me.

My dad got away with beating and neglecting me, only facing mandatory courses, the guy who raped me at 15 got away with it as the police said i was lying, the guy who crashed into the bike i was on causing me to need 2 operations got away with just a higher insurance premium. Feels like no matter how much I go through, its only ever me who pays the price for it.

I have a big pillar candle (off white) and I want to use it but i want to be able to use it multiple times not just burn it down fully for one spell.im new to candle dressing and carving and ideally I want the candle to focus on both relationship love and mental/physical healing as I know I cant overload it with luck/prosperity also but im lost for ideas of how to actually incorporate it regularly so it gets used often/has the intentions I want

Context: ive been a vivid dreamer my whole life(not lucid) i could guarantee to be taken away whether i slept or napped. The thing is I also have cptsd and bpd so always been prone to nightmares. Last year my medication was upped and I just stopped being able to remember my dreams. Only the occasional snippet. I miss dreaming so much that I forgot how much and made a dream pouch before bed last night, I added every herb/flower i have related to dreams but had one of my recurring theme vivid nightmares instead. Do I need more anti nightmare ingredients or is it silly to expect to never have nightmares if I want to dream also?

So i really struggle with forcing and holding images in my head, ive just been meditating whilst repeating phrases over and over in my head and trying to feel the emotions id have if the spell worked but every spell tells me to visualise this and that and I just cant

Not just a sneaky link type shit but that real intimate connection when youre both just 100% focused on eachothers wants and bodies, just bonding on the ultimate level, feeling so fulfilled after. I want that all day everyday. Once you taste that, its all you ever want.

I have bpd and cptsd, I was originally on diazapam but I got used to it and it became inadequate, I mentioned that I wanted something that could with my every day hyperarousal rather than medicating when I get too overwhelmed/non addictive and he suggested taking 5mg x3 day of buspirone, ive had it for 10 days now and I actually think it works better than my duloxetine 90mg(for mental health and fibromyalgia) so today at my follow up i said I wanted to continue but he again said its not safe long term but I cant find anything to support that online and he thinks the talking therapy ive been referred too(despite already having 2 years of specialist therapy ) is going to be enough to somehow manage my physical symptoms for me. He agreed to give me another 20 days worth but thats it. What do I do? (Im in england)

I want to have prophetic a dream or gain real insight/clarity regarding a choice im facing and I also want to reignite passion/ become irresistible again to my man who ive been with for so long now but i dont want to mess with his free will so something that effects me but will then effect him through that idk, Im a beginner to practising.

Im going through something extremely fucking shitty rn and im not functioning right. I havent eaten in 5 days, I cant stop crying, my emotional state is causing multiple physical symptoms and obviously I don't want to go out drinking if I cant even watch TV. She just keeps insisting and now saying it will be her bday celebration like????