u/DeepBanterTalker

Been reflecting about my life recently tapos na realize ko, ang hirap pala idescribe yung status ko in life hahaha I’d say I’m poor like I don’t have huge money personally and wala din kaming properties yet I experienced this kind of luxuries in life.

For example, my tito purchased a car tapos he was in abroad then may malayo kaming pinsan na parang kinupkup ng lola ko he was the one who became my driver in highschool. See? Not our car, and wala kaming pambayad ng driver, yet hatid sundo ako dati lol

Also, my mom married a arab so pabalik2x ako dun for vacations sa middle east but the guy is not supporting us only if mag vacation lang he libre food and home as well as ticket papunta and if you will see my passport may tatak ng iba’t ibang bansa but honestly stop overs lang yun and visitors program that I luckily joined na may free hotels and tours lol. Never ako nag dala ng more than 20 dollars and 5k php going out sa pinas.

I worked as an hair assistant, ofw and in bpo yung sahod jan sakto lang and just a little above minimum yettt di ko man afford yung ibang bagay people around me always treats me to things that goes wayyyy more than my salary, pagkakain kami minsan eh double my salary yung bill.

At one time, my coworkers even become wary of me kasi baka daw anak ako ng owner ng companya tapos spiya lang lol cause they see my things na medyo mamahalin (as always gifts yun lahat) and even the way I handle myself daw parang di daw ako bagay sa lower end job, my supervisor even told me directly dati na hindi daw ako bagay sa work ko.

I’m grateful naman with my life but sometimes napapaisip din ako na parang nabubuhay pala ako sa libre lol pero I also want things for my own yung may ipagmamalaki sana ako pero atm wala pa eh, I dropped sa college and now struggling ulit to find a job but I am trying my best na sana in the future ako naman yung manlibre lol kasi fantasy ko din yung I am able to also give back and provide for my family and friends.

Someone older than me and actually have life together (because we can’t be two lost people that’ll be a lost cause lol)

Don’t worry I am no beggar I actually prefer someone who have hobbies or specialty (I’d like to know and learn things maybe you can share it with me?)

5’5 would like to have someone taller than me.

Lastly, someone brave to actually go and meet personally if it clicks. (I learned that I cannot really do a very long term relationship and to also avoid wasting each others time)

Again, auto ignore if you will just drop a hi/hello.

And also someone like me, knows when to be silly and when to stfu and be respectfull.

Alam ko naman na wala tlgang mabait na tao eh kaya hanap ko yung mahaba nalang yung pasensya at yung….height, 5’5 kasi ako tapos malaking babae hehe anyways di naman ako pangit, di naman din ako bobo medyo tanga yes.

But I know naman how to behave specially in social situations also, I’m a very openminded person and kind like pwede mo akong kausap sa kahit na anong tapic basta wag kang puro kayabangan.

Gano ba kalaki yung chance na makapag meet ka ng same birthday as you?

We were born on november 22 and I share the same birthday with my gay friend,

Then may katulong kami ngayun who also was born the exact day though not exact year as well as yung isa pang tauhan namin nalaman lang din namin na same din ng birthday!!

So apat kami that share the same birthday!

Likeee na mimindblown ako what in astrological thing is happening?? Hahahha

Heto na naman ako sa gedli umiiyak na parang tanga! Nakakainissss I don’t like this version of me but this is one of those days na biglang pinapaalala nanaman ng hayuf na utak na to na I’m in my mid 20’s and a loser, unemployed and drop out of college tapos NBSB pa ni isang aspect sa life ko walang upgrade kelan kaya magkakapremium sa life to add I gained weight din pala grabeeeee…

I am trying naman kakatapos ko lang sa tesda I took nc3 for events management and assessment na namin sa tuesday tapos di ako makapag review kaka self pity ko and may plano naman ako sana para makausad like ngayun I am currently learning data analytics and ai things hays tapos may incoming course ako next week and 2 more tesda courses for the next month.

Kaso even I have plans I feel stuck since wala pa akong nakikita result kaya hayssss lifeeee namann oh kaenesss pwede ba bumali kahit 5k muna? Ang hirap ng walang pera, walang jowa at walang trabaho.

Tsaka tbh despite the plans I have I still feel lost and once in awhile nag dodoubt kung may mapapatunguhan nga ba itong lahat.