I feel like I don’t “deserve” to be happy
Does anyone else get this of guilty feeling when you’re happy with OCD? If so, how did you combat it? The traditional “exposure therapies” and such don’t really help with this. All the negative thoughts just accumulate and make me believe I am horrible, which I’m sure a lot of you here can relate to.
When I have a really good day, I get this horrible weight of guilt, like I don’t deserve it. Almost like I’m an imposter in my own happiness. It’s like I believe that I’m “tainted” and pure, wholesome joy is something I don’t deserve. Some stuff happened to me when I was a kid, which caused me to develop OCD, which may play a part in the guilt aspect.
Does anyone else experience this? If so, what do you do to combat this feeling?