u/Difficult-Field3054

I recently broke it off with a situationship because it got too emotional and intense on my end, and the fellow isn't available like that.

I've been processing it. But last few days when I take Methylphenidate it's like I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM and processing every interaction.

When it wears off I can actuality escape it. Has anyone experienced this? Thinking of lowering my dosage for a few days?? Anything??

I have ocd and adhd. Taking an NRI daily in addition to the Methylphenidate.

I'm in love with him. Been for a while. I think he's avoidant.

I'm not a "love half way" type. I love fully and with my being and soul. When we are together its amazing. It's like he's looking into my soul and almost painful. Together we are easy, peaceful, calm. He'll gaze at me across a crowded room, not even see that I noticed. I'll keep smiling at him and he comes back to reality with a grin. It's so endearing.

But then he pulls back. It's like I'm being led on... but I can see how he feels. It gets toxic over text with him just not responding. I'll give him a week, 10 days. But it's like he's not the same person as when we're together. I get frustrated asking him to communicate his needs... and he says he's busy with work. We are 2 weeks now and I have not reached out.

I want to love him, show him that love is a continuum, it's not conditional or contingent. But I can't love him and anyone else at the same time.

Are we not compatible? I want to be in his life but at what cost?

I'm in love with him. Been for a while. I think he's avoidant.

I'm not a "love half way" type. I love fully and with my being and soul. When we are together its amazing. It's like he's looking into my soul and almost painful. Together we are easy, peaceful, calm. He'll gaze at me across a crowded room, not even see that I noticed. I'll keep smiling at him and he comes back to reality with a grin. It's so endearing.

But then he pulls back. It's like I'm being led on... but I can see how he feels. It gets toxic over text with him just not responding. I'll give him a week, 10 days. But it's like he's not the same person as when we're together. I get frustrated asking him to communicate his needs... and he says he's busy with work. We are 2 weeks now and I have not reached out.

I want to love him, show him that love is a continuum, it's not conditional or contingent. But I can't love him and anyone else at the same time.

Are we not compatible? I want to be in his life but at what cost?

I(45 f) am involved with a guy(45 m, our birthdays are just a few days apart actually)... not really a relationship, we kissed once and it was unreal. Our attraction is unreal, we've talked about it. Other people noticed before we did. There was little to no "getting to know you" stage we just fell into something way more serious than seems rational for the amount of time we've spent alone together. We texted a lot and it got flirty and sexy, we talked about being intimate together. It was like the more time we spent with each other the more emotionally intimate we became, sitting next to him even saying nothing was the most relaxed part of my day. We made out once and it was so intense it was like my head opened up with energy, that's the only way to describe it. I decided that since we were not even dating it was best to back off of the physical intimacy for the time being. But unfortunately the more connected we became the more distant he's become with communications, and wanting to see me.

Here's where it gets weird. Even in the beginning I started waking up thinking about scenarios with us together that I've never thought about. And then later he'll say, for example, I really like making out in the shower.... like what that vision was. It happened over and over. I'd suddenly, randomly feel this glow of love and energy in my chest and head that I've never feel before. Are we somehow connected even though we haven't really had much physical contact??

So ffwd to now, we don't work together any more, don't see each other, texting has been less and less and i broke it off last week... i can't have these kinds of feelings for someone who either does not share, or does not want to share whatever this is.

But I miss him. I think about him all the time and we never dated or spent that much time alone. Still have intrusive visions. I also feel like I'm experiencing emotions and feelings that aren't mine. Like when I sent the break up text, a few minutes later I felt actual anxiety for no reason... i was relieved to break it off and not anxious, because I didn't like how emotionally chaotic it was and with someone I wasn't even in a relationship with. And how with his distancing like he was fading me away... I'm not one to be faded, I prefer to make a grand exit lol.

But I can't shake this. And I have so many questions about what I experienced with this man. I do think he is as clueless as me. What is/was going on here?

Tl/Dr intense quasi situationship, now somehow psychically connected? Is this real or do I need a psychiatrist?