u/Difficult_Secret_251

Mera baap paagal hai bhai sacchi me bol rhi hu aaj pata chal gya. Merko mila hai 107/200 in mhtcet aur ye chaman samajh rha hai merko 50%ile mila hai itni galiya bak rha hai maar rha hai bol rha hai tujhe to boards me bhi itna milna nhi chahiye tha teri layki udhar bhi 50%age ki thi lekin mehrbani se cbse ne 86.8%age de diye hai. Ha bhai meri toh kuch mehnat hi nhi na saal bhar ki. Mind you, 107 was 95%ile last year. Iss hijade ko bolungi bhi na agar ki percentile alag hota hai and percentile se admission hota hai toh bhi ye nhi manega mujhe hi bolega ki main toh kal janma hu na jo mujhe pata nahi. Baap hu main tera mujhe matt sikha abe macchar ki jhhat tu khud galat cheez bol rha hai

Hello I am AroAce. But I think my friend is a bit weird or ig acephobic

Okay so about this best friend of mine...

Some days ago I asked her if we can match pfps and she agreed so I chose MiziSua, A lesbian couple from animated series Alien stage because I like them a lot and she does too. I thought it would be nice to keep their pfps because we are besties. I have this humour of using slightly lesbian jokes with my friends and they all like them and joke with me. I tried a similar joke on her before and she joked back I thought she liked it. So I continued.

According to my understanding, telling your friends 'I love you' is TOTALLY normal. And she is my best friend so ofc I love her. Is it a wrong thing to say this to your friends? I don't understand.

Then today she suddenly messaged me I dont wanna be friends with you (A very bad way to say it) Because I've had bad experiences with my friends leaving me and I have betrayal trauma. I started panicking a lot and started crying immediately reading that message.

>I was confused
Also
Friends dont talk like this btw
Maybe you're confused too
Even best friends
I don't wanna talk to u anymore just uh gimme a second
But you seriously thought we were just Friends
You are so mean

These are the messages she sent me. Like always I joked a bit and said 'Do you wanna be lesbians lol' but then I got serious and replied to each message almost 3 times asking her whats wrong what did I do and stuff. And she actually said 'YES' to my lesbians reply. I was shocked because nobody that I have met in real life who is actually a part of LGBTQ+ and also a lot of people around me are extremely homophobic. So I didnt believe and asked 'Really' Then she said 'maybe I am bi'

I got very scared because I thought if I reject her she would never talk to me ever again because thats what romantic people always do. So I panicked and first scolded her 'Who tells it this way? I have an exam tomorrow. I was so scared I couldn't focus on it.' But thats all I said because she gets hurt very easily and would directly say 'I am sorry I should just d!e' Then I told her 'I'm sorry but I am aroace. I cant return your feelings. Its my fault for being aroace. I want to give you happiness but instead I am breaking your heart.' Then she said 'I'm sorry I understand' and stuff. Then suddenly also blamed it on me indirectly by saying 'I'm sorry for having these stupid feelings. You dont even care about me and lie about loving me and me being your favourite person.' I was genuinely so confused.

I again apologized and she drove me to the point I told her 'Its my fault for not having romantic feelings, I shouldn't exist in this world because I'm not 'human' like you so I should just d!e.' But then she started saying 'NO NO' Then again said something to me indirectly.

Then I left her chat unread for about 10 minutes and she finally sounded sane. She explained that because I joked like that she thought I was into it. Let me clear, I had told her about me being aroace since the very start and I always kept joking about it and even venting to her about how nobody accepts it. And the thing I expected the least happened.

>Tho I found it weird cuz u said u were aroace

Then again some thing that sounded like she hated me being aroace. This sounded very acephobic to me.

Then she also sent some messages saying 'You said you loved me so I thought this was wierd and flinched at it but then I also forced to say it back and call you pet names. Friends don't talk like this.'

Wasn't that straight up homophobic?😭

Then she said I am confused if I am bi or not. So I said tell me I'll help you know. So she started telling me. She said she didnt have any crushes on girls before. So I thought maybe new discovery. But then she said she has got a guy crush before but he didnt like her back. I asked her what she thought about when she had the crush and she said she wanted to be with him and hold his hands. And when I asked her what about kissing? she said she didn't want to do any of that. She just wanted to be with him. Now I shouldn't say much on this because I don't know what being in love feels like, but isn't that just a friend crush then? So I told her I once thought I had a crush on a guy but I just wanted to talk to him and get friendly and she had said she also just wanted to talk to him and get friendly. And she said 'Are you stupid? You are so weird.'

Now make me understand what really should I do. I don't want to stop talking to her. But she said she doesnt want to be best friends with me. I honsetly have no one but her now. I feel bad for ghosting her even a bit or being mean because I've been through those experiences. Pls kinda tell me what she is and what I should do.