u/Disastrous-Train4497

My marriage is going through a tough time and I prayed and begged for forgiveness from Allah and it’s 70 percent my fault. Kindly make dua for me that Allah saves my marriage please.

I started mindfulness actively and basically I have caught my self having conversations that might happen in future and then I gently try to bring myself back in. I have also stopped multitasking to some extent. When I am eating I’ll just try to eat and not scroll.

Listen to 10 min audio about breathing properly twice a day.

While walking as soon as my mind wanders into future or past I’ll start scanning things near me so I am in the present.

Am I doing it right? I am too judgmental of myself and I want to make sure I am doing it right so I can get the maximum benefits.

Do I need to do anything else? Write down thoughts? Stop myself from conversations that’s brings me anxiety? How does mindfulness helps with anger issues and building healthy relations

How long does dBt takes to work

I have started therapy for emotional deregulation . My therapist says I have anger issues as well. I feel like my marriage will end if I don’t get better soon. So again i am experiencing a wave of anxiety while writing this. And how do i know my therapist is genuinely a good therapist.

After strict reflection on myself in absence of my husband I know now why my husband said he hates me.

Some kind soul recommended me a self help book for females called fascinating womanhood and I am on secret number 5 and I realise I have been nothing but an extremely thankless human to my husband. I have shut him down in the moments when he was craving for affection. I talked back and not in a good way. I was rude to him for 6 months straight now. While he was taking care of me financially giving me allowance Seperately.
Now he has his issues too but right now to save my home I am not gonna pester on his issues he is too important for me.

Idk why i am sharing this with you maybe, prayers? I need help and I need to have strict change in my tone, and words. Please help in any way any book, therapy whatever.

My husband hates me and I have realized that I am annoying too
So if I stop beng annoying can he not hate me. I am willing to work hard a lot. Please guys answer me