Just bought my possibly ex-girlfriend an Ipad gift
She left my place a few days ago abruptly. For context, I’m a M(27), and shes a F(24)
Honestly best person I have met my entire life. We met in Uni and she taught me how to love and melted the rock in my heart. Was with her for 2 years of my life. Whenever she is down, I would bring her comfort whenever possible. Went to Venice and France together and paid 2k each time. I am moving on from studies to work. And she is moving to studies back again. When her phone broke I bought her a new iPhone 17 Pro Max - was worried she would be lost if the old phone powered off and she cant use maps or call anybody. Her laptop was lagging a-lot. Her studies are coming up so I quickly bought her another one. Just sent an Ipad to her house because she was asking me for it to study for her course. I knew I might have to leave the city months back if I cant find a job, so I planted the seeds early and bought those things for her so that she can push on and be successful even if Im not there anymore. I love her so much and have done so many things in secret in thee past months to make sure she succeeds if we ever were to be separated.
I love her unconditionally and realised that I should have listened to her express her feelings even though I was busy or stressed with interviews. It was the most stressful time of my life where I had nothing and I had her to support me. Now I am beginning to sort out my career and I wish I could turn back time where I had less, but I had her.
She was the best thing that has ever happened to me. She was the most beautiful, loving, kind and sweet person in my eyes. She took care of me, made food for me, cleaned the house, washed the dishes so that I can focus on my work. I love her so much and I wish she could just talk things out with me. I wish we can just talk things out openly. I will give her the world and change if she doesn’t like anything. It would mean the world to me if she appeared at my door to surprise me or called me. I feel like my heart is weak rn and beating slowly. And if I hear from her, my heart will literally explode in happiness because miracles are possible. I sincerely promise to let her have more time for her family and friends. I love her so much. And it was really committed.
I know I might not see her again, but I want her to succeed in life. She has already been through so much personal struggles and she must succeed. I don’t want her going through any pain anymore. I love her so much even if I might never see her again. I will never be able to date somebody else and have mentally convinced myself that I would rather be single for the rest of my life.
Any advice or comments? Really sad about this rn