u/Disastrous_Ant_7540

Hi, I am a 25F woman. Ever since my teenage I have been told that I tend to gain weight fast, and it shows. I didn't get much male attention during that time(mainly because I was an introvert, nerd and just obsessed with my hobbies lmao). Anyway I have technically spent the last 13 years just dieting, losing weight, gaining it again and repeating. I have never been too overweight, the only problem is that my genetics/metabolism makes me gain some pounds even when I eat normal. I have become "prettier" and garnered attention for the past year and now I am putting on weight yet again. Ik most of it is just due to being called "healthy/overweight" etc all my life etc, but i just genuinely crave to have a fit and hot body for once. I have been called cool, pretty, interesting and sometimes hot too, but I have never fit the beauty standards per se. Idk what to do i just feel insecure these days ig.

A couple days ago I was discussing some sad stuff that has happened in my life with a female friend. She's very empathetic and emotionally supportive. We had a long talk and basically the discussion reached the point of being single and dating. I told her how I am kinda done with dating altogether after my breakup etc. Then i just randomly asked her whether she is homophobic or not. Her answer to the question was, "Babe u are just lonely." I was like hey answer my question, don't diagnose me(all in a banter tone btw). She said she isn't homophobic, and followed that up with maybe she is, she doesn't know, and that she is actually very old school. She said she still expects a typical old school proposal from a guy etc. To me being romantically old school and being homophobic isn't really related so i just dropped the conversation. It just made me really that she isn't one of the people i shud share my sexual orientation with. The conversation was casual but amusing to me lmao.

Hey guys please help me out. I passed my PLAB 1 in March. I plan to take PLAB 2 in November but when I checked the slots, only till October were visible. Then October slots got booked and i thought now November would be visible. But right now they just have June to September visible. Can you please tell me if/when I will be able to see November slots to book? I have to apply for visa etc as well so this is really stressing me out.

Working as an intern doctor rn. Have to show up to work from 9 to 5 everyday plus one night shift per week. Last couple of weeks have been SO draining, I was desperately waiting for a Sunday so that I could atleast recharge and show up to work on Monday. Today I came home and slept for 5 hours straight without even eating anything, that's how drained I am. Saw a missed call from a senior at like 10:30 pm. Another intern tells me that they want one of us to show up to work on sunday tomorrow to run some damn errands. I have a rule that I don't take work calls after 4 pm, no matter what. I obviously won't go but it's just annoying to have ur phone buzzing or having this in the back of your head. I am also appalled at how did they even think of telling us to do this.

Note: we have one sunday duty per month and tomorrow is NOT that Sunday.

I am 25F. A freshly graduated doctor by profession. Middle child, only daughter to a bit higher socioeconomic family. Here's the deal about my life in summary:

1. My father has been mentally, financially and sometimes physically abusive to my mother forever now. He's narcissistic to the core. Got those whole cycles of loving you and then breaking your heart again and again. That has started to extend to me and my siblings for the last few years now.

2)I lost someone very close to me due to an unnatural death a couple years ago, and no matter what anyone says, I keep blaming myself. I have also developed a very extreme fear of losing someone to death, and spend crazy amounts of energy in trying to save people(at work, which is natural) as well as random animals lmao. I attach unhealthily to change fate and protect everyone.

3)I was in a relationship with a guy for 3 years. He was also my best friend and i GENUINELY thought we would end up together. He was the kindest, most relatable guy and head over heels for me. Lowkey the only guy who connected with me and made me feel seen. I broke up with him a couple of years ago because he simply couldn't take his life seriously when it came to career, habits or his health. I am very ambitious and we were incompatible in that sense. It was heartbreaking for me but i couldn't really bear the uncertainty he brought upon me whenever I thought of our future. Our marriage would've to face a lot of problems anyway due to differences in family backgrounds but he showed no initiative in even trying to have a decent career for me to stand up for him. I haven't been able to love someone since, despite being approached by many guys in the last 2 years. I have also discovered my liking for women recently and that has added to the many conflicts i already have in life.

4)I have had a dream to move out to a particular place for like 13 years now, but lately going there in my profession is considered career suicide. Everyone who hears of my plans say I won't really land up with a job there soon and many are coming back. Every single one has discouraged this plan of mine, but a dream is a dream. I'm scared as fuck and so stressed, it's almost unbearable for my INFJ personality.

5. I was diagnosed with the highest grade of clinical depression and PTSD(mostly due to an SA) when I was 21. I go through cycles of absolute hopelessness but I keep pulling myself out of it. I was on medication and therapy but that was discontinued once I got better.

So, my day looks like this: Wake up, workout, go to work for like a hundred damn hours, flirt a bit with the guys who hit on me, come home and ignore their texts, watch shows, work/worry about my career plans, just exist alone with my cat, sleep, repeat. Sometimes I think this single and lonely phase of my life is a blessing and an opportunity to grow but sometimes it feels overbearingly lonely, especially since all my friends are either in relationships or about to get married. Some of them taunt me as well for not landing a guy yet, lol. I don't know what life has in store for me, since moving out to a foreign place with bring even more loneliness.

Can y'all please tell me it gets better? Or is it good enough in itself? I don't have a sister and i just want someone to understand, take a look at my life and tell me what they think about it.

Just showed up at work, COMPLETELY in my work zone(i just can't think about anything else when I am working). And suddenly a girl wearing all pink, smiling and talking to someone passed by my side. My brain completely went bzzzzzz and I broke into the biggest smile imaginable and it was SO HARD TO STOP THE DAMN SMILE. My friend saw the girl, then immediately looked at me and laughed so hard at me. This is so embarrassing, my heart still can't calm down lmao. I rarely get bi panic but damn man. I obviously can't find the woman in a big ass hospital now and well, even if I do i can't do anything about it. God women are so pretty 😭😭🙏

Hello everyone. I am a junior doctor, just out of my internship. Lately I get the urge to read and gain more knowledge(without any focus on a particular exam, I have that sorted). I am highly interested in internal medicine and emergency medicine. Please suggest some affordable/comprehensive books for casual learning.