u/Dismal-Price-4423

I was in science class today and we were doing an experiment about calsium carbonate or whatever. yeah I wasn't a tun of help, since most of the observations you needed to see the results. after that I just felt totally bummed out. I'm totally blind so I don't even have a little bit of sight to spare. kind of sad considering I was considering a career in the sciences. and that goes out the window. I just feel like for so many branches of science you need to see like you need to examine in biology cells and DNA under a microscope, and in physics and estronomy you need to look at particles or space objects. and I used to be curious. now I just associate science with my limitations. I thought experiments would be exciting, learning about chemical reactions and processes in real time, instead of just being told about them, I'd get to observe them for myself. guess I was wrong.

but I was wondering if there were any other ways I could observe changes without being able to see, like with my other senses. I don't have a career in the sciences yet, but just for some home experiments. I also just wish scientific tools like thermometers and scales were more accessible too. like I have seen an audio thermometer, but i have yet to find it for a scale.

oh well, later.

so when I started going to this local mosque in my neighborhood, at 1st, before I left, my mother would give me a thobe to where there. eventually I started to where it more regularly to the mosque because I liked it. but then I wondered where this piece of clothing had come from and why I was whering it to the mosque. so whenever I researched it the thobe was described as a traditional middle eastern or arab atire. so it didn't seem like it has any religious significance. but then she, my mother, would tell me that the thobe, and the amama, were worn by uluma, sheikhs. I can't confirm because I'm visually impaired. I remember reading somewhere that the thobe was sunna, or at least clothing worn by the pyis, so I was wondering, is it religious clothing or just a middle eastern cultural tradition? I remember hearing about a turban some Muslim men would where so I wondered if the amama was the turban. I'd never worn it before yesterday, when I went to dugsi, weekend quran class. so if someone could explain the origins of these clothing to me, that would be great.

it also just seems like a Muslim tradition to where a thobe on eid.

I am mostly trying to understand every time I sware my school teachers keep saying hey now can you not do that? like I tried to and all they say is that's a bad word. but I'm not even insulting anyone or saying it directly at anyone. mostly i say it just to express negative emotions or surprise. there just seems to be an unwritten rule to act like I just pinched someone by saying the F word, even if I never meant ill intent toward anyone, which, any fool should realize. but on the other hand, with teenagers and on social media, it's kind of normalized. like some people can't go a sentence without using some kind of profanity. they're in modern rap music, and even adults use swaring outside of school and work, so I don't know what they're griping about, because I use the A word or B word. it seems so irrational. like logically it's totally harmless. this has become so apparent that AI algorithems on social media, like on Youtube have begun to censor this stuff, as though saying those words is like saying Voldemort's name or activating a weapon that will end all of humanity. even some religions, they're social taboo.

now look, I know that these words have some very unflattering origins, like referring to intercourse or botally fluids, but we have to realize that no one even uses them in that context anymore, and that language changes. now, I'm not an expert or a student of social psychology, I'm just a curious guy wondering why humans just like or dislike certain things with no reason, and these unwritten rules that don't make much sense.

asalamu aleikum.

so, when I read the quran, I often find some verses in which allah says that he misguides whom he wills and guides who he wills.

and even some other verses where he ciels certain people's heart.

god has set a ceil upon their hearts and upon their hearing, and over their vision is a veil. and for them is a great punishment.

quran 2:7

you surely can not guide whoever you like oh prophet, but it is allah who guides whoever he wills, and he knows best who are fit to be guided>!.!<

quran 28:56.

now, recently, I've been hearing of this concept in Islamic theology known as qadr, or divine decree, or some would call it, destiny. and it kind of means that allah not only has knowledge of what is going to happen, but he also, decides it, like before it happens. it's predetermined, which could probably explain the verses about guidance or misguiding.

Which I mean that would make sense. in order for allah to truly be all powerful, he not only knows, which he means he's not just an observer, but he can also shape things before they happen. and this is the pinnacle of his majesty.

now I'm not sure if I'm like oversimplifying what qadr is or if I'm making a mistake, but this is the way it was generally defined from like sheikhs and what not.

but anyways, this creates a bit of a problem. that is the problem of acountability. I mean, if allah can make something happen whenever he wants, then how does anyone have the free will to believe or disbelieve? and there for, how can anyone be held acountable in hell for what they believe or be rewarded for disbelief if it was just all a part of a programing? this also asks the question of satan and his roll in all this. so, satan, he's supposed to make sure that we end up in hell fire too, because he was mad about being expelled from paradise. but if it's allah who's calling the shots, then how can he be the one trying to misguide us? and if allah is eternally merciful, why would he create people to end up in hell forever, predestening how they would get there?

it might sound like a lot of questions, but I'm mainly asking how we can possibly have free will if our actions are decided, if our lives are clearly predestined before we're even born?

again, please correct me if I made any mistakes, as I'm not a philosopher or theologian. I'm just wondering.