u/DorianPavass

I like the look of bigger balls proportionally and really don't want the skin to look tight around the implants if I can help it. I am pre-surgery and starting laser next week. I know skin tissue expanders for this exist but are rare and rarely covered. Has anyone here had some success stretching the skin themselves? How did you do it? When I look up labia stretching it all seems to be about the labia minora. Or does it stretch itself out overtime from the weight of the implants?

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last night I was just laying in bed with my partner and I went to tickle her, and she didn’t response much but was amused at my attempt. So I thought about where else to try, and I was hit with this wall of realization. My dad “tickled” between my legs and ass. I hated it and it made me uncomfortable but I never examined it as tickling is such a normalized way to disturb children. I would never do that to anyone, I didn’t even want to tickle my fiancee that way. Let alone a goddamn child. But he did it. More than once. Despite me begging him specifically not to do it there of all places.

I always wondered if he was the one that made my vagina bleed at 4. I think it was him now. I’m no contact with almost everyone but he was so emotionally incestuous and so abusive in so many ways but I didn’t think he actually took it this far even if he was a pervert freak.

I made a long life story word doc but it was too long and disturbing. It laid out how many ways he was an abusive creep and how I learned after he hid a camera on me and watched it, that he had molested my older sister. I don’t know what to do. I’m freshly engaged, it hasn’t even been a month I just want to enjoy my engagement. But I feel so gross and shell shocked.

My fiancee is obviously concerned and knows something is up but I’m still processing and I have no idea how to even voice it.

My mom died when I was very young and my dad is an abuser and no longer in my life. I am NB and find the idea of being walked down very sweet and am mourning that I don't have a parent to do that. HOWEVER I do have the most wonderful sister and sibling that I adore and have done so much to get me on my feet after the abuse and health problems. I would not be here if it weren't for them. I was thinking maybe they could walk me one on each side.

Has anyone else done this? How did it go and did it land the emotional response you were hoping for?