u/Double_Evening4246

My mother keeps trying to tell me I’m not lesbian- how do I even respond?

She keeps saying stuff like “just because you didn’t like kissing one guy doesn’t mean you won’t like another” and that what I’m “filling my head” with is why im attracted to women. How in the world do I respond to this. I’m 20 for perspective and I guess she thinks my mental health struggles and going through genuine discrimination and trauma because people found out about my homosexuality have just been my choice or something.

Anyone feel like they’ve done too much to actually be human

I’ve done screwed up and embarrassing things. I’ve made borderline racist “jokes”, been in a homosexual relationship, hung out with people a good bit younger than me after highschool, done lewd rps with a friend of mine using feral and anthro characters, threw a pill bottle at my brother, and other really screwed up stuff.

I’ve been an embarrassing and likely really gross and immature person. I’m 20 rn. I don’t want to hang out with people and be around others because I’m pretty sure I’ve been too far gone. But I don’t know what to do. I have a want for good friends, a relationship (unfortunately being a homosexual makes this difficult), and I want to be loved and accepted but I just feel like the only people who would accept me are… well not so good people similar to me. What do I do? I have all these urges and wants but I feel like I have a moral responsibility to reject them. Any advice would help. I keep ruminating and recycling constantly and it gives me a sense of great anxiety that my pills just can’t dull out anymore. I am veering towards extreme nihilism- and I realize that because MY life has no meaning. Someone help me understand what to do..

Anyone feel like they’ve done too much to actually be human

I’ve done screwed up and embarrassing things. I’ve made borderline racist “jokes”, been in a homosexual relationship, hung out with people a good bit younger than me after highschool, done lewd rps with a friend of mine using feral and anthro characters, threw a pill bottle at my brother, and other really screwed up stuff.

I’ve been an embarrassing and likely really gross and immature person. I’m 20 rn. I don’t want to hang out with people and be around others because I’m pretty sure I’ve been too far gone. But I don’t know what to do. I have a want for good friends, a relationship (unfortunately being a homosexual makes this difficult), and I want to be loved and accepted but I just feel like the only people who would accept me are… well not so good people similar to me. What do I do? I have all these urges and wants but I feel like I have a moral responsibility to reject them. Any advice would help. I keep ruminating and recycling constantly and it gives me a sense of great anxiety that my pills just can’t dull out anymore. I am veering towards extreme nihilism- and I realize that because MY life has no meaning. Someone help me understand what to do..

I’ve done screwed up and embarrassing things. I’ve made borderline racist “jokes”, been in a homosexual relationship, hung out with people a good bit younger than me after highschool, done lewd rps with a friend of mine using feral and anthro characters, threw a pill bottle at my brother, and other really screwed up stuff.

I’ve been an embarrassing and likely really gross and immature person. I’m 20 rn. I don’t want to hang out with people and be around others because I’m pretty sure I’ve been too far gone. But I don’t know what to do. I have a want for good friends, a relationship (unfortunately being a homosexual makes this difficult), and I want to be loved and accepted but I just feel like the only people who would accept me are… well not so good people similar to me. What do I do? I have all these urges and wants but I feel like I have a moral responsibility to reject them. Any advice would help. I keep ruminating and recycling constantly and it gives me a sense of great anxiety that my pills just can’t dull out anymore. I am veering towards extreme nihilism- and I realize that because MY life has no meaning. Someone help me understand what to do..