u/Double_Evening4246

Alri alri being real here. I have a friend who he and I made a story about some angel demon space wolf feral characters. Eventually he wanted to do vore with me and I said sure why not? Then it turned into very mild nsfw on one occasion and that’s abt it. I know I’ve never been attracted to an animal or anything but I’m worried I’m a zoophile yk? Like my therapist says I’m not but I still did this shit so what does this make me? Should I like be worried abt what a future spouse or other furries might think orrr

It feels like movies are unrealistic- or even how people describe their friends, family, and partners. My parents always put on a fake show as if the other is a person to fall back on- a person to trust. They were so alone at one point that when I was in like 6th grade they’d vent to me separately and tell me secrets I couldn’t tell the other. I then kinda realized they weren’t really like the relationships I’d see on tv shows.

My family members hated each others, fought each other and eventually cared so little that they moved all across the country in separate directions with little to 0 contact. Even when contact has occurred they would ostracize me and push me out of social circles due to my “progressive politics” and homosexuality. It also isn’t really something worth fighting for.

Then there’s friendships- even fleeting ones. I could put in time, effort, care, and stand up for them / support them but at the end of the day they show their true colors. They ask for more than they are willing to give, devolve into bullying once they know your weak points, or don’t stand up for you / are selfish in their actions- that or it good but very surface level and eventually they have to leave or do something different so you never actually get the opportunity to flesh it out.

It just all genuinely seems like I’ve been lied to- that or there is something wrong with me/ my behavior and others treat me in such ways that reflect that. I can’t exactly pinpoint it. I know people (ahem including me) want love, acceptance, genuine connection and care, etc- but is that actually possible? It feels like most people are lying when they claim to possess stuff like that. Humans screw up- but why is the bad negative stuff like 90% of the “relationship/bond”? Is this a normal thing?

I guess I just wonder if this is all it is and constantly chasing an unobtainable goal is worth it? I’m really tired of it. I’m not trying to complain too much but I get depressed when I think about socializing.

I’ve done screwed up and embarrassing things. I’ve made borderline (or just straight up idk) racist “jokes”, been in a homosexual relationship, hung out with people a good bit younger than me after highschool, done lewd rps with a friend of mine using feral and anthro characters, threw a pill bottle at my brother, and other really screwed up stuff.

I’ve been an embarrassing and likely really gross and immature person. I’m 20 rn. I don’t want to hang out with people and be around others because I’m pretty sure I’ve been too far gone. But I don’t know what to do. I have a want for good friends, a relationship (unfortunately being a homosexual makes this difficult), and I want to be loved and accepted but I just feel like the only people who would accept me are… well not so good people similar to me. What do I do? I have all these urges and wants but I feel like I have a moral responsibility to reject them. Any advice would help. I keep ruminating and recycling constantly and it gives me a sense of great anxiety that my pills just can’t dull out anymore. I am veering towards extreme nihilism- and I realize that because MY life has no meaning. Someone help me understand what to do..

I’m homosexual and it seems like homosexuality should be counted as a disorder / Illness. It’s weird why it’s not. Homosexuality goes against biological evolution/ reproduction. It also has higher rates of mental illness. Why shouldn’t it be considered so? - gen question.

Anyone feel like they’ve done too much to actually be human

I’ve done screwed up and embarrassing things. I’ve made borderline (or just straight up idk) racist “jokes”, been in a homosexual relationship, hung out with people a good bit younger than me after highschool, done lewd rps with a friend of mine using feral and anthro characters, threw a pill bottle at my brother, and other really screwed up stuff.

I’ve been an embarrassing and likely really gross and immature person. I’m 20 rn. I don’t want to hang out with people and be around others because I’m pretty sure I’ve been too far gone. But I don’t know what to do. I have a want for good friends, a relationship (unfortunately being a homosexual makes this difficult), and I want to be loved and accepted but I just feel like the only people who would accept me are… well not so good people similar to me. What do I do? I have all these urges and wants but I feel like I have a moral responsibility to reject them. Any advice would help. I keep ruminating and recycling constantly and it gives me a sense of great anxiety that my pills just can’t dull out anymore. I am veering towards extreme nihilism- and I realize that because MY life has no meaning. Someone help me understand what to do..

It feels like movies are unrealistic- or even how people describe their friends, family, and partners. My parents always put on a fake show as if the other is a person to fall back on- a person to trust. They were so alone at one point that when I was in like 6th grade they’d vent to me separately and tell me secrets I couldn’t tell the other. I then kinda realized they weren’t really like the relationships I’d see on tv shows.

My family members hated each others, fought each other and eventually cared so little that they moved all across the country in separate directions with little to 0 contact. Even when contact has occurred they would ostracize me and push me out of social circles due to my “progressive politics” and homosexuality. It also isn’t really something worth fighting for.

Then there’s friendships- even fleeting ones. I could put in time, effort, care, and stand up for them / support them but at the end of the day they show their true colors. They ask for more than they are willing to give, devolve into bullying once they know your weak points, or don’t stand up for you / are selfish in their actions- that or it good but very surface level and eventually they have to leave or do something different so you never actually get the opportunity to flesh it out.

It just all genuinely seems like I’ve been lied to- that or there is something wrong with me/ my behavior and others treat me in such ways that reflect that. I can’t exactly pinpoint it. I know people (ahem including me) want love, acceptance, genuine connection and care, etc- but is that actually possible? It feels like most people are lying when they claim to possess stuff like that. Humans screw up- but why is the bad negative stuff like 90% of the “relationship/bond”? Is this a normal thing?

I guess I just wonder if this is all it is and constantly chasing an unobtainable goal is worth it? I’m really tired of it. I’m not trying to complain too much but I get depressed when I think about socializing.

It feels like movies are unrealistic- or even how people describe their friends, family, and partners. My parents always put on a fake show as if the other is a person to fall back on- a person to trust. They were so alone at one point that when I was in like 6th grade they’d vent to me separately and tell me secrets I couldn’t tell the other. I then kinda realized they weren’t really like the relationships I’d see on tv shows.

My family members hated each others, fought each other and eventually cared so little that they moved all across the country in separate directions with little to 0 contact. Even when contact has occurred they would ostracize me and push me out of social circles due to my “progressive politics” and homosexuality. It also isn’t really something worth fighting for.

Then there’s friendships- even fleeting ones. I could put in time, effort, care, and stand up for them / support them but at the end of the day they show their true colors. They ask for more than they are willing to give, devolve into bullying once they know your weak points, or don’t stand up for you / are selfish in their actions- that or it good but very surface level and eventually they have to leave or do something different so you never actually get the opportunity to flesh it out.

It just all genuinely seems like I’ve been lied to- that or there is something wrong with me/ my behavior and others treat me in such ways that reflect that. I can’t exactly pinpoint it. I know people (ahem including me) want love, acceptance, genuine connection and care, etc- but is that actually possible? It feels like most people are lying when they claim to possess stuff like that. Humans screw up- but why is the bad negative stuff like 90% of the “relationship/bond”? Is this a normal thing?

I guess I just wonder if this is all it is and constantly chasing an unobtainable goal is worth it? I’m really tired of it. I’m not trying to complain too much but I get depressed when I think about socializing.

It feels like movies are unrealistic- or even how people describe their friends, family, and partners. My parents always put on a fake show as if the other is a person to fall back on- a person to trust. They were so alone at one point that when I was in like 6th grade they’d vent to me separately and tell me secrets I couldn’t tell the other. I then kinda realized they weren’t really like the relationships I’d see on tv shows.

My family members hated each others, fought each other and eventually cared so little that they moved all across the country in separate directions with little to 0 contact. Even when contact has occurred they would ostracize me and push me out of social circles due to my “progressive politics” and homosexuality. It also isn’t really something worth fighting for.

Then there’s friendships- even fleeting ones. I could put in time, effort, care, and stand up for them / support them but at the end of the day they show their true colors. They ask for more than they are willing to give, devolve into bullying once they know your weak points, or don’t stand up for you / are selfish in their actions- that or it good but very surface level and eventually they have to leave or do something different so you never actually get the opportunity to flesh it out.

It just all genuinely seems like I’ve been lied to- that or there is something wrong with me/ my behavior and others treat me in such ways that reflect that. I can’t exactly pinpoint it. I know people (ahem including me) want love, acceptance, genuine connection and care, etc- but is that actually possible? It feels like most people are lying when they claim to possess stuff like that. Humans screw up- but why is the bad negative stuff like 90% of the “relationship/bond”? Is this a normal thing?

I guess I just wonder if this is all it is and constantly chasing an unobtainable goal is worth it? I’m really tired of it. I’m not trying to complain too much but I get depressed when I think about socializing.

My mother keeps trying to tell me I’m not lesbian- how do I even respond?

She keeps saying stuff like “just because you didn’t like kissing one guy doesn’t mean you won’t like another” and that what I’m “filling my head” with is why im attracted to women. How in the world do I respond to this. I’m 20 for perspective and I guess she thinks my mental health struggles and going through genuine discrimination and trauma because people found out about my homosexuality have just been my choice or something.

Anyone feel like they’ve done too much to actually be human

I’ve done screwed up and embarrassing things. I’ve made borderline racist “jokes”, been in a homosexual relationship, hung out with people a good bit younger than me after highschool, done lewd rps with a friend of mine using feral and anthro characters, threw a pill bottle at my brother, and other really screwed up stuff.

I’ve been an embarrassing and likely really gross and immature person. I’m 20 rn. I don’t want to hang out with people and be around others because I’m pretty sure I’ve been too far gone. But I don’t know what to do. I have a want for good friends, a relationship (unfortunately being a homosexual makes this difficult), and I want to be loved and accepted but I just feel like the only people who would accept me are… well not so good people similar to me. What do I do? I have all these urges and wants but I feel like I have a moral responsibility to reject them. Any advice would help. I keep ruminating and recycling constantly and it gives me a sense of great anxiety that my pills just can’t dull out anymore. I am veering towards extreme nihilism- and I realize that because MY life has no meaning. Someone help me understand what to do..

Anyone feel like they’ve done too much to actually be human

I’ve done screwed up and embarrassing things. I’ve made borderline racist “jokes”, been in a homosexual relationship, hung out with people a good bit younger than me after highschool, done lewd rps with a friend of mine using feral and anthro characters, threw a pill bottle at my brother, and other really screwed up stuff.

I’ve been an embarrassing and likely really gross and immature person. I’m 20 rn. I don’t want to hang out with people and be around others because I’m pretty sure I’ve been too far gone. But I don’t know what to do. I have a want for good friends, a relationship (unfortunately being a homosexual makes this difficult), and I want to be loved and accepted but I just feel like the only people who would accept me are… well not so good people similar to me. What do I do? I have all these urges and wants but I feel like I have a moral responsibility to reject them. Any advice would help. I keep ruminating and recycling constantly and it gives me a sense of great anxiety that my pills just can’t dull out anymore. I am veering towards extreme nihilism- and I realize that because MY life has no meaning. Someone help me understand what to do..

I’ve done screwed up and embarrassing things. I’ve made borderline racist “jokes”, been in a homosexual relationship, hung out with people a good bit younger than me after highschool, done lewd rps with a friend of mine using feral and anthro characters, threw a pill bottle at my brother, and other really screwed up stuff.

I’ve been an embarrassing and likely really gross and immature person. I’m 20 rn. I don’t want to hang out with people and be around others because I’m pretty sure I’ve been too far gone. But I don’t know what to do. I have a want for good friends, a relationship (unfortunately being a homosexual makes this difficult), and I want to be loved and accepted but I just feel like the only people who would accept me are… well not so good people similar to me. What do I do? I have all these urges and wants but I feel like I have a moral responsibility to reject them. Any advice would help. I keep ruminating and recycling constantly and it gives me a sense of great anxiety that my pills just can’t dull out anymore. I am veering towards extreme nihilism- and I realize that because MY life has no meaning. Someone help me understand what to do..