u/Down_Bad_0015

Hi everyone !

I'll try to keep this as short as possible..

So I've been struggling with my mental health for at least the past 6 years which led to detrimental effect on the physical, mental & the most important - Social aspect of my life..

The other thing which also has been damaged the most is my Academic & Career studies as a responsible adult over these years..

As much as i hate it, I've been on the mercy on my family's & relative's unwavering trust & finances to carry on my career studies but I've unfortunately disappointed them every single time without promising results whether it be my late high school years or the present Engineering course I'm pursuing right now..

What I've recognized is I'm going through a cycle of ruminating over my past failures without focusing on my present & thus failing at that too which further gets added to my collection of unresolved trauma due to these failures collected over the years again & again...

Due to my asocial nature which may have developed due to the aforementioned reasons over these years, I've come to the point where I CANNOT CONVEY what I've been going through to anyone..

I come from a very conservative family background where these sort of issues still aren't recognized & shrugged off either as an excuse or just some mental disease since no one ever has raised any concern over it..

But a recent convo with them regarding my career's future gave me a hope they some of them might be able to help if I convey my thoughts & needs clearly..

It's just I can't formulate a way to make them understand that there are a lot things which I'm not comfortable enough to share with them( not out of bad faith ) & rather may need some Professional help.

So how can I convince them that I need the counselling in order to make me understand what's going on inside my head to get to the root cause of these traumas & thus diagnose them to repair & make my life whole again ?

( I really appreciate everyone who decided to read this whole post ! )