Should I get into a fwb with a 'straight' friend?
We're 20 rn I'm bi and out to close ppl and she - despite me hinting to her that she may not be straight - prefers to believe she's straight. We've had some moments of sexual tension I noticed but I've never ever crushed on her. In fact, I broke off our friendship for an year in the past cus frankly she's not a good friend, or has the emotional capacity to be, and even now I tend to avoid her.
She has a bf rn, but last night she was sexting with a girl she met on hinge, and told me and one thing led to another and we sort of said that we'd experiment around. I bought a new vibrator that she wanted to test/use (not hygienic, ik) and I just don't know. Last year she asked to kiss me too and I refused.
We'd that intense codependent homoerotic friendship at 15-16, and we know e/o's secrets and are really comfortable. We then went to different colleges, and she's kinda fucking up her life, wasting (parents') money on alcohol, parties, cheating on her bfs (exes too) while my life is more authentically happy from within. Like I'm building real relationships with ppl in my life and more focused on my career. Like her lifestyle seems fun but she's alwayss venting and complaining abt smth or the other ykwim? And isn't there for me as much. I don't like her company much now but still sometimes I fantasize about her while touching myself.
Also I've never even kissed anyone before or been in a relationship, I just wanna explore have fun see things etc, so idk is this advisable?