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(Blocked out my mirror for privacy reasons). There is certainly more that I need to add, but I took a little break from arranging everything because there is so much. Of course, not that I am complaining, since being surrounded by so much Annie is really a wonderful thing. And I feel so lucky to have the merchandise of my beloved.

Modern AU Annie is dangerously pretty

I apologize for the lack of description or explanation during this post. I'm shaking and just got done crying. My mind is going 100 miles per minute. Anyway. I live with my family, for now at least, which includes my uncle living with us. He's a 34 year old incel shut in who does absolutely nothing but scream at my family and I. It doesn't help that he also uses heavy drugs and is also severely bipolar. He's been living with us for years, and the head of the house just endures it when he screams, punches walls, slams doors, threatens to kill us/himself. He does this, consistently, at least 3 times per month I would say? I wish something changed. He's going to just continue his abuse if he doesn't get the fuck out of the house. I'm just so tired of being degraded by him, walking on eggshells when he is in the room. I just cried to Annie because he really frightened me tonight. This is precisely why Annie and I want to move, in the first place, because we are so done with my abusive family members words/actions. (No, unfortunately, it's not just my uncle who does this).

I can't help it, Annie is just so breathtaking.

I'll always choose to exhaust myself for her. mentally, physically, and emotionally. Lately, I have been working a long hour job where I am hoping to achieve a great total of money, in hopes of a better life for us. I feel like screaming at the world's sky. I'm straining myself for something Annie and I both dream of. In the end, I hope it is all worth it. Because living with pig shit abusive family members of mine isn't something that we can continue. But, of course, money is power. And power decides. Therefore, without any money, we will not be financially supported and our dreams will be so far out of reach. I'm fighting. I'm struggling. But she sees the effort I put in.

Greetings. My friend and I did a trade together, where we sent each other things of our F/Os. My friend certainly outdone herself with this craft. She's so good at making different things, ugh, just look at it!

I'm guilty for screaming so loudly out of excitement once it finally arrived, help.

Annie is so pretty, and I can't keep my eyes off of how good this crafted keyring is. The gold and yellow trimming matches Annie so perfectly. And I am obsessed with the sheet music added onto the ribbon! (It's a cute little callback to how I am a classically trained musician). And of course, we can't forget about the chocolate candy in the corner of Annie's photo! (Callback to how Annie is probably addicted to sweets). Everything about this gift is incredibly detailed with our own references, which makes the gift even more appreciated by me and Annie.

Life is one hell of a mess. I'm crying, I'm panicking, etc. Employment sucks. Mental health sucks. Sleeping at night sucks. Being 19 years old and having insane pressure put upon you by family sucks. Nothing I do will ever be good enough, and I am constantly pushing myself over my own limits. I'm dragging myself along, while being exhausted to death. I'm trying to improve. But the process of 'improving' is taking so much effort out of me that I feel like I can't continue doing anything. I'm being put into high stress situations that are never ending torment for me. The only reason I feel as though I am living, is for Annie and our future together.

Now to wash off the lipstick because I look like a clown LMFAO but it was worth it

This post is more of me expressing my excitement about my beautiful wife, Annie. I'm so happy to be apart of her life. I want to give her everything, all of my love, because she deserves the absolute best. It's so hard to hide my giddiness, each time I look into her ocean eyes and see how stunning she is, flaws and all. Okay, I'm going to end this post off because I don't want to get emotional and start crying. But seriously, Annie is so amazing. She takes my breath away. She makes me want to keep trying in life, even if at times I am miserable with everything that is thrown at me.

I love Annie. I love Annie so much. She keeps me safe, warm, and protected. When I look back at the time when we first met and became friends (eventually, something more) I smile on those happy moments. We had our ups and downs. Our highs and lows. But we made it through and stayed strong, hand in hand, with our hearts synched. We learned to love and to grow. I'd do anything for her, and I'm so incredibly lucky to have such a beautiful soul in my life.

Basically, I was afraid that I would come off as childish and unserious when I get cuteness aggression towards her. I didn't want to embarrass myself or sound stupid. I am typically a very serious, blunt person who has the tendency to be less reactful. Growing up, I was never allowed to be giddy about something that made me happy. And if I was, I would be told to stop. I surpress so much inside of myself, holding my emotions down into a ball. And I also thought of myself as someone who is supposed to be cool and collected. But now, I want to get excited about my wife. I want to message my friends all about how much I love Annie. I don't care how 'childish' it makes me seem. I think I deserve to let myself feel.

Annie's first time ever coloring in a coloring book before. She never had the privilege to have fun as a child, due to her neglectful father, so it is nice to show her everything she has missed out on. I'm proud of us for getting the page done! Sometimes it is hard to pay attention to one thing for a few hours (for me, rather than Annie). I tried getting something cute and cuddly for us to do, since I know Annie 'secretly' loves cute things. Especially cats and sweets. And unintentionally, we colored a rainbow in the month of June, and we both laughed upon realizing that.

Happy pride month from Annie and I