Femboy struggles.

Hello! this is gonna be a long one so hang in tight.

I have bad anxiety so id like to soothe myself

  1. DO PEOPLE LIKE TALL FEMBOYS?? im currently ALMOST 6' but i love being a femboy, and im worried im not cut out for it.

  2. Weight. at about 5'11 im 143 lbs, and i think im too heavy. from that ive developed eating disorders, and i have thick thighs/rear and all but i still think im chubby. so for answers to this one, any workout routines that would move that weight to give me better thighs?.

  3. Im a pushover. I get told one bad thing and i almost cry. for example, ive been talking to this boy that i kinda like, and i was talking to him about my struggles with myself/weight and he said "Your not that fat, your just a bit chubby". i genuinely almost cried for the entirety of today, and im too scared to explain to him that im sensitive as hell. (More on this relationship later.)

  4. i struggle with my identity. i HATE myself. i cant look in the mirror without wanting to look away, and every day i wonder "am i gay?! am i straight?! who am i?!?!? i dunno!?" and it hurts me so bad.

  5. I dont even know who i am. My parents say they would accept me if i came out but im still scared bc my family is christian, and i dont want to hurt them, i dont even know if im gay or straight, i usually just tell people im straight or bisexual, and i just roll with that.

  6. Relationships. i cannot talk to people. i get such bad social anxiety, and the guy im currently talking too lives like halfway across the U.S, witch sucks for me because my MAIN LOVE LANGUAGE is physical touch, i mean i LOVE snuggles and cuddling and hugs and all of that.

I just need help. im sorry if i come off as weird for the record.

You do not have to answer to this, questions are also welcome

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u/Eastern-Pay-8909 — 1 day ago

Any good 1st gen Ford Raptor/12th gen Ford F150 mods out there?

Thank you for anyone who finds either :3

u/Eastern-Pay-8909 — 1 day ago
▲ 6 r/BeamNG

Are there any Gavril D series mods that have a stepside bed similar to this?

i want to recreate the Ford SVT Lightning in beamng, but i feel like the stepside bed ingame resembles more of a 2000s GM truck, any mods/ideas? :D

u/Eastern-Pay-8909 — 7 days ago

1;1 scale Kirov class Heavy Nuclear powered Guided Missile Cruiser

realised i havent given the reddit an update on her in a bit, so heres what she has added!!

Superstructure (unfinished)

Frontal Anti Air Room Thingy

Hangar with helicopter and helipad (unfinished )

CURRENT ARMAMENT

2X OSA-M twin arm surface to air missile launchers

4x AK-630 CWIS, credit to my awesome freind waffle, fully functional and very cool

1x towed sonar array ( unfinished)

plus the Kamov KA-27 with a torpedo :D

the ASM are done, and the anti submarine Metel missiles are being fixed

any questions, feedback, or js basic comments are appreciated!!! love yall <3

sorry for like 6 billion images ;-;

lmk if yall want more photos of specific thingies

u/Eastern-Pay-8909 — 12 days ago

1;1 scale Kirov Class soviet Battlecruiser

very beeg

built in 2 peices

weapons are a work in progress

no super structure yet :(

swapped the Silex missiles for Bazalt launchers bc bread taste better then key

Not laggy at all bc i used optimized building components, modded wedges, ect

lmk any questions or feedback! <3

u/Eastern-Pay-8909 — 16 days ago

1;1 scale Kirov class Battlecruiser / Heavy nuclear powered missile cruiser - help :c

I mainly need help with weaponary. im not the greatest at missiles, and im wondering if anyone has the Granit missile (or a way to make it), and the VLS S-300 "Grumble"?

(yes i know its huge, im mainly using optimized building components to make it not lag. im getting over 300 FPS currently with it with a mediocre computer, and im horrid at interiors :3 )

(also, yes, the front missile launchers are not the anti submarine missile launchers. those are P-500 Bazalt launchers, because i like the bazalt. THIS GAME IS FUN, LET ME HAVE FUN >:<)

Thank you for any help! <3

u/Eastern-Pay-8909 — 19 days ago

Reddit i summon you! PC uses 72% of memory on startup, wifi is slow even tho i use starlink, not sure whats wrong with it.

Its a great pc, i bought it recently and have been messing with it since. im 14 and still relitivley new to computers so ill do my best to describe it

the PC itself is a IBUYPOWER I5 series

10th generation Intel(R) Core(TM) I5-10400F CPU @ 2.90 Ghz

Has 8gb of Horizon DDR4 RAM (not much i know but the prices >:<)

graphics card is a NVIDIA GeForce GTX 1050TI

1.14TB of storage with 538gb in use

runs Windows 11 Home

Any more information i can likely find for you :3

Thank you for any help..

It uses 72gb of memory with my startup apps like spotify, discord, ect, but when i close them it calms to about 60, still slow though.

Sorry if i inconvience anyone. Thanks for any help!

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u/Eastern-Pay-8909 — 25 days ago

Please help get working - QH-50 DASH

Ive tried everything, im trying to get this drone to work, its based on the QH-50 Dash and i want to attach bombs to it eventually but i have no idea how to do that, and on top of that, the microcontroller i downloaded refuses to work, i dont know what i did wrong, and id love for someone to download this and get her working, sorry that im not good enough to do it myself, im still sorta a starter at the game.

Also, is there a way for me to spawn the drone seperately and the drone controller on another build and connect it via some sort of link? I plan to use this on my missile cruiser, but i dont want to have the drone constantly there, but the controller a part of the cruiser, yk? :sob: sorry

Thank you to whoever helps, i will be forever gratefull

https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=3739264815

u/Eastern-Pay-8909 — 1 month ago

Nepobedimmy class missile cruiser - turbines wont start

Uses 4 turbines, the 2 turbines on the right side start but the left wont..? am i missing something? was built with symettrywa

u/Eastern-Pay-8909 — 1 month ago