u/Electronic-Cricket77

So i am looking for merch of twisted wonderland mainly Octavinelle because i want to buy a Nui of the three of them

So tomorrow is my cousins graduation party and Instead of telling my brother to do something they always ask me to do something for them but they never do stuff for me i always feel like they will make sure my brother hands never has to be lifted but the moment i am around i always get told to do something like i hate it i just want to leave so i don’t have to do anything for this family i can’t even tell my mom about this cause she will just get pissed off right away i will never have time for myself anymore what can i do

I was wondering since i am on social security income(SSI for short) but i was wondering since i lived with my mom for awhile will my social security income get cut off because i was reading about something awhile ago how i can’t leave me mom house because of the social security income because since my mom is a narcissist why does it feel like i have to stay or should i go because of how my mom treats me or is it based on my choices

Anyone think when the person who is hated by the family moves out and lives their life of freedom which is me you keep thinking about how your family is gonna fall apart without you because your the only one keeping them together because you do everything for them well that thats me i think about it everyday i made a vision board for how my life is gonna look next year so i don’t have to keep pampering to my narcissistic family

Anyone think when the person who is hated by the family moves out and lives their life of freedom which is me you keep thinking about how your family is gonna fall apart without you because your the only one keeping them together because you do everything for them well that thats me i think about it everyday i made a vision board for how my life is gonna look next year so i don’t have to keep pampering to my narcissistic family

So I am 19 unemployed and my life is spiraling everyday my mom thinks it was a mistake to give birth to me and my brother my mom keeps saying we're giving her a headache and depression like everyday me and my brother are constantly stressed because we're the ones who is paying the bills and still has the audacity to say we're not doing anything its like she is manipulating me and my brother to think we have to pay her back for giving birth to us (mind you I am saying brother very loosely because my mom values my brother) but for me its always hell because my mom thinks she gave birth to the wrong daughter because she will do anything to make shed tears but nowadays I haven't cried because I grown so used to it and she keeps saying "why can't you be like your cousin be scared of me and be a good daughter" and she also said once I move out don't call her mom its like she doesn't want to be associated with my life since my mom wants to be petty I already removed her from my amazon because I was the one I was the one who made it so since because my mom keeps doubting me saying I will never get anywhere in life I have been secretly planning my life also if you want to why she is pissed because I asked her to order me a skirt in my size because I am trying to save money so I can provide for myself my mom also thinks that if I move to another country I shouldn't call her or my grandma because they don't want me around at all and she doesn't even want me text her when I get older and don't come back to her house which in my opinion is the best thing I heard because my mom thinks she gave birth to the wrong daughter but I want to know what my mom is doing is wrong or right

Anyone else feels like they found comfort in their room like working on crafts, props(from shows and anime) because your parent growing up forbid you from having sleepover at a friend house or even just going to the mall with your friends because that how I saw my narcissist mom growing up because I was always bored and lonely but I grown so used to the feeling nowadays since I am 19 now I would always talk to people online but at the same time its not the same cause they have their own lives (which I don't judge) because growing up the only attention I got was from family and it still didn't feel the same like I had friends growing up but whenever we planned to go to hangout together and I tell my mom about it she would shut it down so it feels like I was just a lonely person with no friends, Hate going out, and always kept to my self is it normal to get that feeling at the age of 19 because my older brother drives but refuses to take me anywhere unless I pay for his gas out of my own money even though he has a job what do I do

So can you have multiple oshi i am already doing kaito i want to do Vox from hazbin hotel and then Pierrot from the freak circus cause i see online that people have multiple oshi is that acceptable

Anyone hate dressing for your own happiness because thats how i feel i was wearing leg warmers from an old sleeve shirt i feel like i don’t like expressing myself because of it my mom i tried to do a subcult Jfashion style and my mom hates that i am doing that she says someone will look at me and think i am crazy for doing that like i no longer express myself like i know i shouldn’t care but everyday i and careful about what i pick to wear cause my mom will say if it’s ugly or cute everyday i feel so overwhelmed i hate being the black sheep of the family like i just want to feel included but i guess everyone always exclude me no matter if its a family gathering,birthday etc like i only get anger from my family members while my brother gets praised because of the job he does no matter how much i try to keep my room clean,do laundry,cook,clean anything everyone always ignores it so thats why i don’t feel happy and feel more depressed anyone else feel like this

Everyday i calculate the amount of money i have each day in my mind also my money never goes into the negatives while my brothers money goes into the negative everyday i feel like they never appreciate me they said i am just constantly lazy while i do my brothers laundry,fold my mom clothes and they say i always smell when i am never allowed to buy my own body wash cause in my mom eyes u should use my brothers but never let me use his and everyday i want to study at college but no one wants to help me i am a scapegoat,a failure with a short term memory and never a good person in my family like they constantly say i spend too much on ordering stuff from online when my mom constantly orders from temu like it’s nothing cause yeah it makes sense i am the biggest spender what should i do

Is my fault my mom said i need to be in a insane asylum all because i get called stupid and my mom refuses to tell me what kind of drink she wants i am just a scapegoat to this family my mom acts like she can’t use her legs to go inside and buy it she wants me to use my money and my mom acts like the cops isn’t gonna help me she also hates that i listen to music in the car she acts like i am covering both of my ears when one of my ears is uncovered and what do i get in return nothing and still get told not to put them a nursing home everyday i am with them in the car it feels like hell i also been so depressed they also act like i wanted to be born by them they always expect me to owe them back

I get constantly scolded for not doing anything my family sees my as a freeloader like i should do everything for my family my mom is 50 something,my brother is 21 and my grandma is the oldest of all three of us combined i get constantly scolded by my family all because they look at me like i don’t do anything when i mostly do everything for this family i cook for my brother,do the dishes,fold my moms clothes,pays my mom bills and i am still told i am lazy like when i have ever been lazy when my family constantly still tells me to do everything in this household like i have a feeling my family will fall apart without me because no one else would do anything because i live with a household full of adults and i am still told i do nothing it feels like i am just a maid and servant to this family and i hate it what do i do

My narcmom and narcgrandma thinks i am so stupid that i belong in a insane asylum all because I didn’t do something properly like getting another purse for my mom and my mom and grandma keeps saying i am the worse person they think i chose to be born but every day my mom and grandma thinks i am so useless that i don’t cook rice,do the dishes and clean up the house when i mostly do everything in the house all i want is to make money without telling anyone and just keep it for myself everyday my mom and grandma wishes for another person someone who knows how to keep their room smell nice but thing is it’s not my fault i would clean up under my bed but no on would help me lift it to clean it and then get mad at me for watching on YouTube what do i do

Everyday whenever i go out with my mom and grandma to buy food to-go they always scold me for forgetting when i was born with short term memory and i always tell myself i hate helping because of it i always think its my fault but at the same time it isn’t my fault cause today i went to go buy noodles for my grandma with my mom card and instead of coming in to tell the person herself she blames me for getting then when i offer my food she says no and say i will never survive working when i didn’t get to pick my job my mom picked it for me i just think why ask my to buy something if you know i have short term memories for years