as controversial as they are watching youtube videos of people who have recovered on raelan agele's channel gives me encouragement & motivation.
while i feel staying in touch with the reality of covid is important to work with, it can feel very doom and gloom and make the experience harder.
what are your go-tos to feel hopeful & motivated again?
the grammys are a modern version of "separate but equal". protecting white hegemony by marginalizing poc talent, all while pretending to be moral. (we'Re juST maKing spaCe for More aRtists - just liKe WhIte JesUS TaugHt Us to RoLe Model For yoU wreTched HeathEns)
then make a canadian pop category. make a british one. what about just a broad strokes european one?
they only make special categories for poc groups. and we all know why.
Grammys - your racist bigotry is showing.
i said what i said.
looking for a SFN / dysautonomia neurologist in the NY area.
If you have one that's working for you, please drop a name.
Can travel to anywhere in the area, NY, CT, NJ, PA.
pretty much the title.
watched it on a whim even though i knew the Prince Sado story. i am not okay.
curious if anyone else at this facility has had issues with theft. As I have reason to suspect the staff broke into my locker.
details on my personal situation are on my previous post, for anyone curious. but for my part, want to hear if other people had issues with valuables being stolen.
just picked up a box of my things from the storage locker today. After unpacking it, realized a tube of silver coins was missing. As far as I can tell nothing else is missing. What's really interesting is I had 4 tubes of silver coins, but only one of them had old coins & that is the one missing. Weirder is they took the 2 new coins in that tube out and took just the old coins.
Normally I keep them at home with me, but a sudden fire displaced me and I had to temporarily move my valuables to the storage unit. So you can imagine how upset I am, I lost most of my things in the fire, so this is just rubbing salt in wounds. And one of the old coins was a present from a dear friend.
What I don't understand is how they got in? It doesn't look like anyone had broken in. I am the only person with a key. Even if my extra key had gotten displaced, the key isn't marked with an address and the storage facility I use, Public Storage on 2nd st, heavily guards everything with security codes.
Anyone know how this could've happened?
Anyone know what the next best steps are? I do have lemonade rental insurance.
*note - the reason I don't believe I simply misplaced the 4th tube is bc of the 2 new coins that were just rolling around loose in the bag. I would never leave them out of their tube like that, especially when there was ample space in the other tubes.
not really understanding how armand is suddenly madly in love with Daniel. Or that he was just secretly hiding that love for 52 years. What about Louis? lestat?
anyone with book spoilers know how this attraction came to be?
LDN has helped improve my baseline greatly. But it's odd, even as fatigue lifts, my head feels like there is still lead in it, weighing it down, and trying to executive function or focus is met with a general feeling like my efforts all jsut swimming in a soup and can't grasp anythign concretely. Adderall helps but only sometimes. I feel like my conscious is stuck inside a zombie brain. I try to scratch out, but there are just no brainwaves to grab onto. And overall, my motivation is completely sapped. The only thing that seems doable is to watch mindless internet. (can't watch anything too engaging or thought provoking either - tryin too hard to executive function is met with a physical pressure on my brain and headaches).
What is this? IS this all still brain fog? has anyone gotten out of this?
medications I'm on: ldn, zepbound, adderall
symptoms: SFN, fatigue, brain fog, dysautonomia, elevated HR, likely early perimeno or something like it.
have a shoulder injury & PT wants me to go for regular swims. Since it's summer, would love to do this at a beach.
Best nearby beach?
Looking for something peaceful, not too crowded
Nearby
Not expensive
Clean
edit: by nearby i don't mean beaches that are over an hr drive. 30 - 45 mins max.
edit: since people seem concerned for my health. this is a recc by my PT who feels I am advanced enough in my recovery to support swimming in the ocean.
just finished rewatching beef season 1. wow. just wow.
rewatching it, I couldn't help but have a deeper sympathy for both leads, especially Amy as she tried to make amends and take responsibility for everything. It made me really mad at George though. She really puts this guy on a pedestal bc she sees that he has no shame or depression like she does. But the fact is, he is not actually a good guy, he just seems that way bc he's an uncontroversial dull grey nice guy. when she comes to make amends, he doesn't show her any mercy. yes, her actions were wrong, but he has no sympathy or sense of responsibilty for how he contributed to the pressure cooker she was in, the alienation she was feeling, while trying to provide for their family and constantly putting him on a moral and emotional pedestal while he lets his mother constantly put her down while using her like an unlimited credit card. Total partner fail. I really hope in whatever life her character has after the story ended, she divorced him and saw him for who he was.
Danny is like Amy in spirit and emotions, but with the opposite context and choices. While Amy has wealth and channels most of her angst in smart socially approved choices, like a succesful career, connected friends, the right zip code, etc., Danny has the wrong kind of people around him, less money, chooses to stay single and cut corners. (interesting to note how he though chooses to dedicate his efforts towards his family of birth, while amy disavowed hers and created a new one). But as much as Danny is a fuck-up, I cnat help but feel immense sympathy for him as well. He's just a kid that wants to make a life and take care of his family even his crap cousin Isaac. And even with his shitty behavior, screwing over his brother's chances at college, not telling his brother the truth about the house fire, you realize he's at his core a scared kid with abandonment issues.
in summary, they're both two people determined to help themselves and provide for their families, but in the pressure cooker of capitalistic pressures and emotional trauma, they're screaming for some place to put their anger and alienation. You can't blame them for choosing to feed back into the road rage feud time and time again. It's the one place they can be real.
rewatching it I also realized beef season 1 actually ends on a happy note. they both finally find peace, ironically by realizing their nemesis sees them and is jsut like themself.
Overall - wow what an amazing show. I could go on and on. All hte supporting characters were amazing too. so well acted and all the nuances & complexity of being human so well captured. Even the villians Isaac and Jordana - they're assholes, but you see the complexity of being human in them as well. And somehow every other line kept me laughing as well. Amazing show - so glad I rewatched. Had forgotten how good it was.
edit: on race. This also a very califorina asian american story. It could easily be considered a niche story, but it transcends race & resonates with anyone. maybe it's because hte millenial experience is so universal across races, but the hallmark of a good story is to stay authentic to the cultural context and still communicate the humanity that is in all people.
rewatching it - realizing how much, despite most of the characters being california asian americans, the grind and frustration is so relatable - very millenial rage. Wondering if the success of this show is because a generation of millenial americans saw it and resonated with it.
does this appeal to gen x and gen z too? What about countries that don't have our shitty late stage capitalism? thoughts?
edit: also realizing how much paul is so gen-z. he sees how miserable his millenial brother and cousin are and wants to grow away from them and grow differently. he's going to crypto, cougar mom, and do things his way. outside of having to interact with danny and isaac, he's optimistic and chill about life. which is something i find from a lot of gen z i run across.
firstly, rewatching S1 - what a masterpiece. s2 was really well done too, but s1 is just so well done.
As far as Ali Wong, it's crazy how much her chracter mirros her real life marriage. She was married to another asian american man who came uniquely from so much privilege her snobby in-laws forced her to sign a strict prenup. so much so that she worked extra hard at her standup career to avoid becoming penniless one day. Same way George grew up with privilege and her inlaw looks down on her character, yet no wealth is shared with her and she has to grind for her own bread.
similarly her real-life husband was also some kind of ahyuasca vegan she was trying to impress, the way her character feels like she's inferior to George's "goodness", so much so, she wants her daughter Junie to have George's characteristics and not her own.
then he's the one to demand a divorce, bc he thinks she's the problem. same as real life.
personally, I find george a real tool. And Ali Wong is really protective of her ex-husband in real-life, but I think the rest of us reading between the lines can see he really wasn't so great either.