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Omg!!! Yesterday we were brainstorming where the hell our headspace would be, and I couldn’t figure it out, then suddenly I was told Saturn from someone and it felt like I just disassociated and I was there! It was so cool to see all of us in the same place at once. I’m just still trying to figure out why the hell it’s on Saturn? I’m not even into space and stuff so yeah, if anyone has any idea, please don’t be shy to let us know! Also! We’ve decided on a name for our system “Saturns rings collective”.

Oh my fucking god, this is genuinely one of the weirdest things I’ve ever witnessed.
For context, I’m no contact with my narcissistic mother. My sibling still sees her occasionally, so I hear about what’s going on.
Apparently my mom has recently “discovered” witchcraft and keeps talking about how she’s on this healing journey and finding her true self. Which, on its own, I wouldn’t care about. I have nothing against witchcraft or people who genuinely practice it.
The problem is she’s just using it as a new vehicle for the exact same narcissistic behavior.
Every time my sibling visits, my mom burns sage around them and tells them she’s “cleansing” them of my dad’s negative energy. She claims my dad is an evil presence who’s suppressing my sibling’s “divine power” and that she has to protect them from his aura. Then after my sibling leaves, she apparently goes around the house burning sage again to cleanse the room of any energy my dad supposedly left behind.
She’s also constantly cleansing crystals and talking about everyone’s energy, but somehow every conclusion always circles back to how she’s the enlightened one and my dad is this dark force that’s responsible for everything.
It’s honestly so bizarre to watch. It feels like she just swapped one belief system for another, but the manipulation, self-importance, and need to paint herself as the spiritually awakened victim stayed exactly the same.
Has anyone else’s narcissistic parent latched onto spirituality, witchcraft, crystals, or something similar and just weaponized it? I feel like I’m watching narcissism get a complete rebrand.
Also, just to be clear, my dad isn’t the abusive one here. My mom abused him, and she abused me and my siblings as well. Seeing her paint him as this source of “evil energy” that everyone needs protection from is honestly so disturbing because it’s the complete opposite of reality. It’s like she’s found a new way to rewrite history and cast herself as the enlightened victim while demonizing one of the people she actually hurt.

My parents only got divorced about eight months ago, and ever since then my mom has been in what feels like a never-ending cycle of new relationships. Every new guy is supposedly “the one,” and it’s treated like he’s going to become part of the family. Then a short time later, he’s gone and there’s someone else.
What really bothers me isn’t that she’s dating. Adults can date whoever they want. It’s that my little brother is constantly being exposed to this revolving door of people, and each relationship is presented as something serious before it falls apart. It feels so unstable for a kid.
I’ve even noticed a pattern whenever I happen to see her. I can usually tell whether she’s seeing someone based on her mood alone. If she’s isn’t dating anyone, she seems incredibly down, monotone, and withdrawn. If she is seeing someone new, she’s suddenly euphoric, energetic, and acts like everything in life is amazing again.
It’s honestly unsettling because her entire personality seems to revolve around whether she has a new relationship. It feels like she can’t be content on her own, so every new partner becomes the answer to all of her problems… until the cycle starts over again.
Did anyone else grow up with a parent like this? Looking back, do you think it affected how you viewed relationships or trust?

Oh my fucking god, this is genuinely one of the weirdest things I’ve ever witnessed.
For context, I’m no contact with my narcissistic mother. My sibling still sees her occasionally, so I hear about what’s going on.
Apparently my mom has recently “discovered” witchcraft and keeps talking about how she’s on this healing journey and finding her true self. Which, on its own, I wouldn’t care about. I have nothing against witchcraft or people who genuinely practice it.
The problem is she’s just using it as a new vehicle for the exact same narcissistic behavior.
Every time my sibling visits, my mom burns sage around them and tells them she’s “cleansing” them of my dad’s negative energy. She claims my dad is an evil presence who’s suppressing my sibling’s “divine power” and that she has to protect them from his aura. Then after my sibling leaves, she apparently goes around the house burning sage again to cleanse the room of any energy my dad supposedly left behind.
She’s also constantly cleansing crystals and talking about everyone’s energy, but somehow every conclusion always circles back to how she’s the enlightened one and my dad is this dark force that’s responsible for everything.
It’s honestly so bizarre to watch. It feels like she just swapped one belief system for another, but the manipulation, self-importance, and need to paint herself as the spiritually awakened victim stayed exactly the same.
Has anyone else’s narcissistic parent latched onto spirituality, witchcraft, crystals, or something similar and just weaponized it? I feel like I’m watching narcissism get a complete rebrand.
Also, just to be clear, my dad isn’t the abusive one here. My mom abused him, and she abused me and my siblings as well. Seeing her paint him as this source of “evil energy” that everyone needs protection from is honestly so disturbing because it’s the complete opposite of reality. It’s like she’s found a new way to rewrite history and cast herself as the enlightened victim while demonizing one of the people she actually hurt.

Heyyy everyone! I’ve made about two posts on here in the past, and I’ve just realized that I’ve never introduced you all to my system! I’m the comments, I will share some photos of my alters (AI generated I know I know) and feel free to ask away just about anything you want!

These are the ones we know of so far

Lucien Vesperra (Protector/Prosecutor) He/They
Elise (child) They/them
Maria (protector) She/Her
And then myself! (Host)

Edit: I would like to add, I know AI is bad, my system was just very upset and I needed to know what they looked like fast, and this was the best and quickest way that I could.

Hi everyone. I only recently realized I have DID, so I’m still learning how all of this works.
Last night I learned a lot about one of my protector/prosecutor alters. I’ve noticed that when I discover more about an alter, they often end up fronting later that day. That’s what happened here.
While they were fronting, they started texting one of my closest friends, who also has DID. They have a crush on her and the conversation became pretty sexual. I was co-conscious enough that I could step in at times, and every time I tried to end the conversation because it felt like it was crossing a line, my friend would tell me not to. She said she was a little triggered but that she wanted to keep talking to them and didn’t want me to stop the conversation.
I eventually went to sleep thinking everything was okay.
This morning I woke up to messages from her saying she was really sorry, but that this alter can never front around her again or she doesn’t think we can stay friends. She explained that she has sexual trauma related to online interactions, and that although she didn’t realize it at the time, the conversation had actually been triggering her. She said she’s been incredibly anxious, to the point of vomiting.
I feel awful. I know it wasn’t me who was fronting, but it’s still my body and I still feel responsible for what happened. I also don’t blame her at all for needing boundaries, and I’m glad she told me instead of just disappearing.
I guess I’m looking for advice from other systems. Has anyone dealt with something similar? How do you handle situations where an alter has feelings for someone or behaves in ways that end up hurting another person? And how do you balance taking responsibility for your system’s actions while also recognizing that different alters have different intentions and levels of control?
I’m feeling really guilty and overwhelmed, and I’d appreciate any advice or perspective.
I should also mention that I’ve apologized profusely on their behalf and my friend told me to not worry about it, and to just ensure that they don’t front around her. But I feel so so so awful. Please someone respond.
Also, if you see this babe, I’m so sorry, I love you.

Hey, so I’m sorry if this isn’t the right way to post this. I’m just looking for some advice and other people’s perspectives.

I have a friend who is part of a system, and for a while now they’ve theorized that I might have DID. They’re not the type of person to jump to conclusions or make things up, they think things through very carefully before mentioning anything serious.

Last night, we had a long conversation about DID and dissociative disorders. By the end of it, we both felt like DID could explain a lot of things I’ve experienced throughout my life, but I’m still trying to figure everything out and would appreciate outside opinions.

For some background, I experienced severe childhood abuse and neglect of multiple kinds. Looking back, I feel like I’ve “switched” many times throughout my life without realizing what was happening. The best way I can describe it is that I feel like I move to the back of my mind while someone else takes control.

What makes this confusing is that I’m usually not completely unconscious or blacked out during these experiences. I’m still somewhat aware of what’s happening, but I don’t feel fully present either. It’s almost like my awareness gets pushed into the background. I can often still observe what’s happening, but it doesn’t feel like me thinking, reacting, or making decisions in the way I normally would.

Something else that came up during our conversation was a childhood “imaginary friend” that I had completely forgotten about. The thing is, I never really experienced them as an imaginary friend. It felt more like they were a part of me, like they were me, but also not me at the same time. When I remembered them during that conversation, it honestly felt like a part of my brain suddenly lit up and went, “Finally, you remembered.” I know that sounds strange, but that’s exactly how it felt. I should probably also add that this “imaginary friend” has its own separate memories that I’ve never personally experienced.

There have also been multiple times when my friend has noticed sudden changes in how I act, speak, or carry myself and commented that I don’t seem like myself. During those moments, I’m still somewhat aware of what’s happening, but I don’t feel like myself at all. It’s difficult to explain because I’m not completely unaware, but I’m also not fully present as my usual self.

I’ve also noticed that different situations seem to trigger different reactions. For example, if someone makes unwanted sexual comments toward me, I seem to shift into a very different state than I normally am. If I feel threatened, vulnerable, or like I need protection, there seems to be another distinct state that takes over. These reactions feel different enough from each other that they’ve stood out to me over time.

Another thing that’s happened is that my friend has occasionally brought up conversations we’ve had where I apparently talked about feeling like a different person or described experiences that I have little to no memory of. Sometimes she’ll reference things I’ve said, and I genuinely don’t remember saying them. I don’t know if that’s significant, but it has made me wonder whether there could be some form of dissociative amnesia involved.

I’m not asking anyone to diagnose me. I’m just wondering if anyone with DID, OSDD, or other dissociative experiences can tell me whether this sounds familiar, and what steps I should take next.

Hey, so I’m sorry if this isn’t the right way to post this. I’m just looking for some advice and other people’s perspectives.

I have a friend who is part of a system, and for a while now they’ve theorized that I might have DID. They’re not the type of person to jump to conclusions or make things up, they think things through very carefully before mentioning anything serious.

Last night, we had a long conversation about DID and dissociative disorders. By the end of it, we both felt like DID could explain a lot of things I’ve experienced throughout my life, but I’m still trying to figure everything out and would appreciate outside opinions.

For some background, I experienced severe childhood abuse and neglect of multiple kinds. Looking back, I feel like I’ve “switched” many times throughout my life without realizing what was happening. The best way I can describe it is that I feel like I move to the back of my mind while someone else takes control.

What makes this confusing is that I’m usually not completely unconscious or blacked out during these experiences. I’m still somewhat aware of what’s happening, but I don’t feel fully present either. It’s almost like my awareness gets pushed into the background. I can often still observe what’s happening, but it doesn’t feel like me thinking, reacting, or making decisions in the way I normally would.

Something else that came up during our conversation was a childhood “imaginary friend” that I had completely forgotten about. The thing is, I never really experienced them as an imaginary friend. It felt more like they were a part of me, like they were me, but also not me at the same time. When I remembered them during that conversation, it honestly felt like a part of my brain suddenly lit up and went, “Finally, you remembered.” I know that sounds strange, but that’s exactly how it felt. I should probably also add that this “imaginary friend” has its own separate memories that I’ve never personally experienced.

There have also been multiple times when my friend has noticed sudden changes in how I act, speak, or carry myself and commented that I don’t seem like myself. During those moments, I’m still somewhat aware of what’s happening, but I don’t feel like myself at all. It’s difficult to explain because I’m not completely unaware, but I’m also not fully present as my usual self.

I’ve also noticed that different situations seem to trigger different reactions. For example, if someone makes unwanted sexual comments toward me, I seem to shift into a very different state than I normally am. If I feel threatened, vulnerable, or like I need protection, there seems to be another distinct state that takes over. These reactions feel different enough from each other that they’ve stood out to me over time.

Another thing that’s happened is that my friend has occasionally brought up conversations we’ve had where I apparently talked about feeling like a different person or described experiences that I have little to no memory of. Sometimes she’ll reference things I’ve said, and I genuinely don’t remember saying them. I don’t know if that’s significant, but it has made me wonder whether there could be some form of dissociative amnesia involved.

I’m not asking anyone to diagnose me. I’m just wondering if anyone with DID, OSDD, or other dissociative experiences can tell me whether this sounds familiar, and what steps I should take next.

This is a bit of a long shot, but I genuinely believe my house is haunted. Growing up, strange things were always happening around me. My mother would often find me awake in the middle of the night, sitting in the same spot, talking to the wall as if someone was there listening.

As I got older, the experiences became harder and harder to explain.

The first thing I can remember is my basement. Ever since I was little, I’ve been absolutely petrified of it. There’s a heavy, evil feeling down there that I can’t properly describe. Sometimes things would randomly fall over for no reason, and other times I’d catch glimpses of something sprinting past me out of the corner of my eye, only for there to be nothing there when I looked.

Another time, I was falling asleep on the couch with a friend when I suddenly felt someone lifting and lightly tugging my hair. I spun around instantly, convinced someone was standing behind me. Nothing was there.

I’ve also seen what I can only describe as “shadow figures” for most of my life. For years, I tried convincing myself it was just my imagination, but as I got older, the figure never changed. It was always the same thing, appearing in different parts of the house.

I still remember the first time I saw it clearly. I was lying in bed one night when I looked past my bedroom door. Across the hall, beside the other doorway, stood a massive shadow. It was tall and unnaturally thin, so tall it looked like it had to bend itself just to fit beneath the ceiling. I remember telling my dad about it the next morning. He doesn’t believe in ghosts, spirits, or anything paranormal at all… but after I described it, he went quiet and admitted he had seen the exact same figure before (he believes it’s just a trick of the light, it isn’t).

There have been other encounters too. One night, I walked into my dark bedroom and saw something black and crawling dart across my floor. At first, I assumed it was one of my dogs, but then it disappeared underneath my bed. My dogs are huge, they physically cannot fit under there. I called for them anyway, and both of them came running from the living room.

The most terrifying experience happened when my sister and I were home alone. She kept nervously walking into the kitchen, and when I asked what was wrong, she told me she could hear footsteps slowly coming toward the stairs. I didn’t believe her at first, so I went to listen for myself.

Then I heard it.

Heavy footsteps. Loud banging. Slowly climbing the stairs directly toward us.

It sounded so real that I genuinely believed someone had broken into the house. Panicking, I grabbed a knife, and my sister and I locked ourselves in the bathroom while we listened to whatever it was pacing back and forth through the hallway outside. We stayed there, frozen, until we finally heard the front door slam shut.

Certain the intruder had left, we called our grandmother to come over. When she knocked on the front door, both of us just stared at each other in confusion, because we had already heard someone leave.

When we finally came out of the bathroom, both doors to the house were still locked.

No one else had a key.

Whatever we heard inside that house… wasn’t human.

The reason I’m writing this now is because of what happened yesterday. I was hanging out with a friend in my room when we both started noticing shadows moving outside my bedroom door. It wasn’t my family, and it wasn’t my animals. At certain points, whatever it was even seemed to react when we spoke to it.

The part that scares me the most is that I think I may have caused this to get worse. A few months ago, out of curiosity, I downloaded one of those “spirit communication” apps. I didn’t believe in any of it at the time, but some of the responses I got felt disturbingly real. Ever since then, the atmosphere in the house has changed. The energy feels heavier now, almost angry, like something has become stronger.

I don’t know what’s happening, but it genuinely feels like something in this house is watching me.

Edit: I forgot to mention, as well, last night, me and my friend were snuggling, (they were on top of me no wear near the cords) and suddenly the Alexa we had playing unplugged and the door pushed open like very loudly. There’s no way either of us could’ve done it.

Edit 2: I forgot to mention (I mentioned this in a comment but thought I should put it here) that while cleaning out the front hall closet in my house, I found an image burned in the wall, it appears as if there is an child going a cord and following the length of the cord downwards, another entity is holding it as-well, I will try and get a picture but I’m kinda chicken shit lol, it scares me.

I grew with a very narcissistic mother, she would rarely physically abuse me growing up, but she did a few times, the majority of her abuse was mental/psychological. She would constantly threaten physical abuse, leave all the time, and kick me out of the house even as a child. But I’m starting to wonder if I was groomed by her, this is hard for me to talk about, but, growing up, she would do a lot of sexual things to me and my sister, constantly talking about her and my dads sex life, leaving her vibrators everywhere etc.
But she would also do other things, like introducing me and my sister to pornagraphy at the age of 10-12, when we weren’t even interested in it, and buying us sex toys while very young. She would also invite me to party’s where you could get free vibrators and items like that, while also never respecting my privacy while changing and bathing, saying quote “I made you calm down”.
I don’t know, maybe I’m overreacting but this has really fucked up my life and I really need advice.