u/Embarrassed-Sea8852

It's been about 2 years since my ex had her 'final-split', and monkey-branched to another man. I ended up blocked on everything, and have had no contact since.

This left me mentally broken, for lack of better phrasing. I dissociated for 2 months and was having panic attacks and breakdowns so bad I needed a doctors note to get out of work. 'Acute Stress Reaction' was the official consensus but I wouldn't be surprised if i have some form of C-PTSD.

Anyway, in those two years I have noticed I'm normally in two stages.

For the first year maybe: denial, heavy drinking, dissociating, depressed and struggling

Then once I had the time to stabilise myself, I slowly got past all my issues, and improved in every way.

The issue is though is that it would flip back and forth. I'd be fine for about a month and then I would see or feel something that would cause me to relapse back into the horrible state I was in. Sometimes I wouldn't even be aware that it had flipped back to my horrible state.

The recovery time periods would get longer and the relapse periods would get shorter. This seemed to be the general pattern until recently.

I'm not sure what has triggered it but I am in such a bad Mental Relapse.

I feel so anxious, paranoid and sad, as well as picking up drinking again (which I'm doing my best to handle).

I want to break no contact, despite not having done so for 2 years, and having no way to.

I'm not even sure what for?

Do I want to speak to her, no.

Do i want her to think of me or reach out to me? Yes, 100%.

Yet I'm not even sure why.

I don't know how she is, if she's in a relationship, how she thinks of me, or even if she does at all. I do understand that going back would just be painful, and frankly I probably don't even have the chance for her to let me back into her life.

I'm hoping this is just a really bad mental relapse cycle, but I am concerned because it hasn't been this bad since the first few months. My dissociations have gotten incredibly common, to the point I barely noticed them.

Hi guys,

Recently started Xaggitin Xl, with routine of 1 18mg for the first week, 2 for the second and week 3 onwards is 3 18mg. So therefore im on 54mg now.

Previous weeks ive felt great. However im unsure if my current dose is too high. Ive had some days recently where ive felt so anxious and paranoid.

At first i thought it was because i had been having a cheeky bit of caffiene on those days, so i stopped (which i should have sooner tbh). But today ive had no caffiene and ive been incredibly anxious during work, with my mind locked on all my issues, fixating hard.

This has especially affected my relationships as im incredibly anxious about slow replies and things i wouldnt normally care about, like im paranoid people are getting sick of me.

Again, i dont think i had anything like this on the lower dose. Im not sure if im just adjusting to the high dose?

I also think that it gets worse if im not doing anything or am doing something routine and monotonous like my job as my mind begins to race.

Ive also noticed that despite being more proactive and attentive (normally) on this medication my executive dysfunction isnt any better, meaning i often waste my time and end up doing nothing which then has made me spiral a bit.

Any tips or things people could recommend to help?

I will obviously be talking to my specialist about this too

For example Death Stranding 2. My pc runs the game itself amazingly, but as soon as i try and clip a beautiful vista it turns into a super choppy powerpoint.

I've fiddled around with the lowering the clip quality to see if that helped but it made no effect.

Saw a post from 2 years ago about a setting that helped if you turned it off but I don't have any such setting on my app.

Any help is appreciated.

Edit: I've also attempted the official advice of just exporting it and the video will be fine. This didn't work either

Hey, pretty self explanatory. I'm super talkative and energetic. Wide range of hobbies, gaming, gym, music, clubbing etc. Lots of my friends aren't too keen on nights out so I'd also like to find some people I could go out with, that would be cool.

I don't live in london but only a short train away so travelling is no issue at all, and my job is a flexible structure.

Just would like to meet new people really :) feel free to dm me!

Hi, M24 here!

I was wondering how everyone meets people nowadays?
Uni was easy, I could just socialise and meet people through friends, but since graduating and moving back home it seems a lot harder to meet anyone new, both platonically and romantically. (Dating apps seem to have gone a bit downhill imo)

Probably doesn't help that I live in quite a small town, I would go out more in London and over big towns but not many of my friends are interested in that, hence I'm left stagnating a bit ahaha, not too fond of the idea of going out alone.

What do you guys all do in order to make new friends?

I hope im not alone in this opinion. The driving in this game is not good enough to warrant any kind of racing. Dont get me wrong I love the game but its the one thing I cant stand.

I normally love racing, gta, forza, any side activities in any other game... but it just feels awful here.

All the races felt torturous because one small movement could send me sliding into a wall.

Badlands was the worst, bad driving + bumpy rocky grounds. They must've had these races in the plans before the driving was even designed because no way afterwards they were like 'this is fun lets add race minigames'.