u/Emergency-Quote834

So my ex of 2.5 years admitted to me that 24 hours after our break up she started having sex with a guy I was worried about during our relationship. They met while she was on exchange and she has now returned to our county. The weirdest part is that they don’t even live in the same country so I don’t get how the relationship will work.

She told me they have been in a relationship since a week after our break up ( we broke up one month ago) and tells me she loves him and is happier than she’s ever been. She even says that she plans to move to Finland for him after graduation to be with him.

While I didn’t expect it I constantly see vivid images of his face and of them having sex and it really brings down my mood and makes me depressed. How can I stop this ? I love her so much and I can’t even hate her. It’s been really hard to try to move on.

Despite everything pointing to her being firm on her decision, I still hold on to hope that she might come back. How do I let go of that feeling ? No matter how many times I remind myself that she isn’t interested it doesn’t seem to click emotionally.

Ever since I started new meds I finally dream. The issue is that it all feels too real.

Every morning I wake up happy to see you. But you’re never here.

Every morning when I would wake up i would give you a hug and a kiss on the forehead before I left. Some days you would pull me back into bed mumbling something about how I should stay home instead. Those were the happiest days of my life. Before I left, I would always watch you sleeping peacefully and whisper “I love you”

Now it’s all gone.

Yesterday I folded. I sent her a text, a simple message, saying that some food I ate reminded me of her and that I hoped she was well.

24 hours later no response. Even though I shouldn’t have looked she still shares her location and I saw she was at the beach all day.

I know I shouldn’t have sent anything but her silence has me spiralling. I never should’ve sent her anything and I’m paying the consequence now.

While I was unsure if she still cared at this point, knowing her, I think it’s fair to say she doesn’t.

All my friends and family tell me I need to move on, to remove you on Instagram, block your number. It just feels too cruel. I know you left me but you didn’t want to hurt me.

No contact with you has already been painful enough. At least let me watch you from afar.

I know I’m just being a loser and venting at this point but it truly feels so unfair that despite how badly I want it or how much I work, I can never have you back. I know nobody deserves anything but it sucks to realize.

I spend countless hours everyday thinking about you while I know you don’t do the same. This was really cemented when I asked you what went wrong and you told me “I haven’t really thought about it”

Despite seeming neutral that shattered my world. Every hour of every day has been consumed by thought about you. Yet a month later you haven’t even considered what happened.

I love you and miss you and would go back to you any second, but if I stop pretending, I think I know you are done with me.

I've been posting here for a couple weeks now since my break up and the day that she is coming back to take her stuff is getting closer and closer. I broke NC yesterday to confirm when she was coming back and since then its been hard not to chase.

Since then, have I written all my feelings in a letter focusing on where I think I have grown and the things I regret from our relationship and am debating whether or not i give it to her once she comes over.

While I know the conventional advice is to not send letters, throughout our relationship she would send me a letter when we had challenging times. Because of this I am wondering if a letter where I take accountability for my faults and clearly state what I worked on might be useful. Still not sure though tbh. Would love to hear your opinion.

Everyday we haven’t had contact has been worse and worse.

I miss you more than anything else. I wish I could be with you and I love you A.

Hey, I just wanted to reach out and let you know that I still think about you everyday. While working, training, or gaming, all that is on my mind is you.

You made beauty look effortless and I wish I could have communicated that better to you. I’ve been studying the ways that I messed up, writing notes trying to figure out how I could have been better for you.

While I’m pretty sure it is over, my heart still longs for you and your presence. I question my decision to go no contact every second of the day and I’m sorry if it felt cruel. I guess we will find out in a few weeks time where you stand.

I was broken up with by my gf of 2.5 years 2 weeks ago and as of 3 days ago we have been no contact.

The reason we broke up was that she felt like I didn’t love her enough (miss matched attachment/love languages). Because of this I think it was a huge mistake, I pushed her away even further through no contact when the whole issue is that she didn’t feel loved.

Everything in my SCREAMS to reach out and say I’m sorry, that we can just keep talking but I think it’s too late. I don’t know what to do I’m just spiralling over and over wishing she would reach and tell me that she has changed her mind or that she still loves me. I’d rather have her in my life as a friend than not at all.