u/Emergency_Chicken159

so it seems to be somethin that runs in my family, my maternal grandma and cousin both have it, both being diagnosed a bit later in life, and ive told my grandma a lot about my symptoms (flutters randomly growing up, fainting, random episodes of rapid heart rate out of nowhere, getting out of breath randomly and that impending doom, all that fun stuff and more i cant think of off the top of my head) and she told me she has had many of the same issues. she finally got me to bug my dr about it, and after maybe four or five times of bugging her she finally got me in touch with a cardiologist. well when i go in to speak with him, all he has to tell me is that what im describing doesnt seem to be as severe as what wpw would be, and that wpw is very rare and he doubts i have it. nonetheless, gave me a heart monitor for a week, and did an ekg. wont get the results till friday, but i guess im just nervous that maybe its not enough information and ill be told once again that nothings wrong with me when there clearly is something wrong. wish they wouldve given me the monitor during the time i was having the episodes more often. i was given propranonol for anxiety, but i would still get the rapid heart rate episodes even when there was no trigger for the anxiety. i was just told they were random panic attacks, but i really dont believe that, cause ive had panic attacks before, and those involved tunnel vision, rapid breath, crying, hyperventlating, and would have a specific trigger. this was just rapid heart rate (somewhere around 160-190), lasted like 10-20mins, and i would just feel out of breath rather than hyperventlating. idk im just hoping they can figure out whats wrong with me

so i got myself into a crappy living situation a year ago and for the past year have been living with my ex. anyways a bunch of dumb drama happened and now he is pushing for me to move out within the next three months so one of his other buddies can become his roommate. he suggested i find a place with my kinda best friend (the reason for the drama btw), and at first she was open but today she just told me she decided to stay living with her mom and does not wanna move out. soooo yeah im kind of in a pickle now, and dont really have any friends in town looking for roommates. moving back in with my mom isnt an option either sadly. i tried checking facebook marketplace, but its mostly just old dudes or out of my price range. im 21F btw, i dont care what the gender is, preferably someone whos ok with the fact that i smoke (not indoors ofc), and preferably someone similar age to me, just to be able to split the rent. anyone know where i can look? this would be for either moving in with someone else or finding someone before i actually get a place

i only fell asleep maybe an hour ago, woke up probably 20mins ago, so maybe its a night terror? idk. anyways:

i was in my room in my bed where im currently at at my step mom's house, i was scrolling reels on instagram and kept seeing just this evil scary stuff, and i kept hearing noises around me and i smelled rot and i saw blood on the walls and this horned thing with rotting flesh staring at me and it was like i just knew it was the devil or something, and there was a man outside my window too just staring at me, and mind you im on the second floor. anyways suddenly my reels turned into like these people praying over me and having saints praying over me and i started to calm down and feel safer but then suddenly it started talkin about the devil and child trafficking and it scared the shit outta me so i ran down to my dad and my lil brother was still up and i had to run through all this blood and rotted flesh and bugs and maggots to get to him and when i finally did its like he didnt see anything wrong then i started wondering if i was just going crazy and he hugged me and everything started going dark and i got really scared and then suddenly i was like wait is this a dream? and i started to open my eyes but i was paralyzed for a moment before i was able to fully wake up and i saw that thing there again, but then i was able to fully wake up and it was gone.

usually my night terrors are about SA, but it seems like theyre almost becoming progressively scarier in certain ways where usually youd think this wouldnt be as bad but this is the realest its felt. now my body is too hot and my head hurts and im just too scared to go back to sleep, which is silly cause im a 21 year old grown woman. woke up and immediately started praying though, and that made me feel a bit better. i hate night terrors.