u/EmmyEmmela

For one thing we haven't been having sex as much as I would like, and lately whenever we do lately, if always me on top doing all the work, which I don't mind so much since I am younger and way more fit than he is, but still I would like to feel like he is at least in to it and enjoying it. I mean to be fair the last time he did try putting effort in by thrusting up into me from the bottom he did pinch a nerve in his lower back or something, and I don't want that again but I also want to feel some love. I used to love regular missionary with kissing, but now he tries to avoid that because he hates kissing, and even when he does give it to me he will do it from the back just to avoid kissing, and he thinks I don't notice, but I do because in the past he told me he hates doggy because it doesn't feel natural for the way his penis is curved and it's true for me as well and doesn't hit my spots right. I want to communicate all of this to him without seeming like a whiny little sex queen or something.

So this morning we went to the OBGYN just to get my annual check up on my IUD and everything, it's a Mirena hormonal IUD. There were certain times a few months back where I experienced cramps for which I was unsure of the cause and one of my strings was apparently feeling shorter, but it ended up subsiding so I kind of just forgot about it, then this morning I go.for my scheduled annual appointment to find out it was displaced and I had to get a whole new one placed, she said it could have been still serving it's purpose, and I mean obviously I am not pregnant, and lucky he didn't finish the last few times did it, but she said there is no telling how long it has been that way, so my check up turned into a whole ordeal, and they gave me Ativan, so lucky I had my boyfriend come with me since he wasn't working until later in the afternoon and the office moved close to our house and his job anyways. Anyway I am pretty weak to all drugs, so the Ativan had me out cold all day, until about an hour ago when he got home and now I am feeling this sharp unusual pain in my left side like I have never felt, not a cramping, it's like a stabbing that I did not feel the first time it was placed. The only difference this time is I am PMSing, but she said that is actually a preferred time to place since the cervix is softer or some crap, so I don't know what to make of this pain I am experiencing now.

So this morning we went to the OBGYN just to get my annual check up on my IUD and everything, it's a Mirena hormonal IUD. There were certain times a few months back where I experienced cramps for which I was unsure of the cause and one of my strings was apparently feeling shorter, but it ended up subsiding so I kind of just forgot about it, then this morning I go.for my scheduled annual appointment to find out it was displaced and I had to get a whole new one placed, she said it could have been still serving it's purpose, and I mean obviously I am not pregnant, and lucky he didn't finish the last few times did it, but she said there is no telling how long it has been that way, so my check up turned into a whole ordeal, and they gave me Ativan, so lucky I had my boyfriend come with me since he wasn't working until later in the afternoon and the office moved close to our house and his job anyways. Anyway I am pretty weak to all drugs, so the Ativan had me out cold all day, until about an hour ago when he got home and now I am feeling this sharp unusual pain in my left side like I have never felt, not a cramping, it's like a stabbing that I did not feel the first time it was placed. The only difference this time is I am PMSing, but she said that is actually a preferred time to place since the cervix is softer or some crap, so I don't know what to make of this pain I am experiencing now.

So this morning we went to the OBGYN just to get my annual check up on my IUD and everything, it's a Mirena hormonal IUD. There were certain times a few months back where I experienced cramps for which I was unsure of the cause and one of my strings was apparently feeling shorter, but it ended up subsiding so I kind of just forgot about it, then this morning I go.for my scheduled annual appointment to find out it was displaced and I had to get a whole new one placed, she said it could have been still serving it's purpose, and I mean obviously I am not pregnant, and lucky he didn't finish the last few times did it, but she said there is no telling how long it has been that way, so my check up turned into a whole ordeal, and they gave me Ativan, so lucky I had my boyfriend come with me since he wasn't working until later in the afternoon and the office moved close to our house and his job anyways. Anyway I am pretty weak to all drugs, so the Ativan had me out cold all day, until about an hour ago when he got home and now I am feeling this sharp unusual pain in my left side like I have never felt, not a cramping, it's like a stabbing that I did not feel the first time it was placed. The only difference this time is I am PMSing, but she said that is actually a preferred time to place since the cervix is softer or some crap, so I don't know what to make of this pain I am experiencing now.

So we've been together and living together for well over a year now, although we grew up 2 houses apart and are lifelong friends and all that too.

Tomorrow is his birthday and by chance it's his one day off from work this week, he usually gets a random weekday off and I get weekends so the time we actually get to spend a full day together is limited despite us living together.

At night he usually gets home after 930, we watch TV together for a few minutes,. occasionally have sex, which is getting more and more rare and then go to bed.

So for most of the week that's really all we see of each other, by the time he gets home he just wants to sleep, which I get but that's why I thought it would be nice if I took off tomorrow for his birthday. I told him there is no pressure to go out and do anything he doesn't want to do, if he would prefer to just lay around the house all day that's fine , I just thought maybe we could do it together, but on the phone when he called me from work I asked him if he was definitely still off tomorrow and he was like "um yeah, why?" as if he was suspicious I was planning something big, but I really wasn't.

Then he was like "how about you? are you working?" that's when I told him "no, I took off, is that okay" At first he was like wtf why did you do that ? I was like I don't know I just wanted to spend your birthday with you, like I am sorry for that I guess. Then I said I would just go to work and he was like no, don't do that, it's fine just stay home, I just don't want my whole day planned out, that's all.

So at this point I can't tell what he wants, like if he genuinely does not want me around, or he is just worried I am going to make some big plans but I honestly didn't. I just feel like he doesn't want to be around me for some reason... I even offered sex even if my period wasn't over, like I don't know what this man wants, or doesn't want from me at this point, and it kind of just hurts, like the way he sounded so disappointed when I first told him, like I took off last week but it was supposed to be a surprise.

Then after work as he's coming home he calls me again and is like "I need to dump you, you crashed my day, I am breaking up with you" I was like very funny fuck you I literally just asked if it was ok and you said yes, like are you being serious? Then he hangs up and texts me that he is just kidding.. but like the fuck? Like what was the purpose of doing that ? Does he just get joy from trying to hurt me ? I am desperately trying to understand this man but whenever I feel I am making progress he goes and throws me for another loop. Help?!

So me and a couple friends from work went to brunch in the City and shopping today, one of the friends lives close to the city, so I just drove, and picked her up on the way.

Then as I was driving her home my boyfriend texted me "I am horny will you be home soon" I had just had a phone call with him an hour or so earlier and we discussed maybe having sex when we both got home so she was already kind of in on it, so since I was driving, I had her text him back for me "yes babe, like 20 minutes" so she sends that then just sets my phone down on top of the center console thing with the convo still open, then I hear like gasp/giggle and she is like "wow he is really excited to see you" I was like huh? and she goes "he sent you a dick pic, sorry I looked, I wasn't expecting that. I was like yeah me neither.

Mind you this isn't a close friend, just a work friend, I have only recently started hanging out with so I felt awkward about it sort of, to get rid of it she clicked his contact name at the top of the chat, so it would show his number, and it also still showed our recent pics to each other but they were smaller now, I had a quick thought like, weird , she coulda just locked the, phone or flipped it over, but I wasnt think anything if it at this point.

So I picked up my phone and told him via voice memos that my friend just saw his cock, and of course his first question is, "is she hot" I was like yeah I mean according to you it is, it's the same friend you met in the driveway yesterday, since yesterday we also hung out, she came up here and we went out to get dinner, that's when we made the plans for brunch today.

She instantly turned a little red and was like "wait what? He thinks I am hot, seriously? He said that?" The way she reacted

kind of caught me off guard, almost like she was interested, she was like "and you're okay with that" I just played it off and was like, sure girl, I mean you are, even I can see that and I am a straight girl"

Then it kind of got me thinking about how she had his number on the screen and I was trying to remember if I could see her looking at it but I wasn't thinking anything of it yet, so I wasn't paying much attention. After I said what I said she just giggled and I asked if she thought he was hot, and she acted nervous and was like girl that's your man's, I ain't looking, like thats bull, any of my close friends would be more straightforward and be like yeah I'd have me some of that.. although I know they never would, but the way she acted not saying yes or no made me more sus.

Anyway this got us talking about our hook-ups, which I never really had any, just to boyfriends I've been with, and she mentioned that my boyfriend looked bigger than her last 2 hookups... I never even knew she was the type to do hookups but now that I do I am even more sus about it all. Like you won't say if you think he's hot but you will bring up his dick size in comparison to your last hookup?

I could just be paranoid, but like I said I only just started hanging out with this girl, so I don't know what she is capable of or how good her memory is but like did she peep his number ? Like I wish I could say I trust him not to pursue it if she were to contact him, but realistically I know I can't, I trust him with my life, but not when it comes to that, I mean he may love me, and I've come to believe that, but like she is hotter than me, and that is just a fact.