I miss our daily chats , just laughing, remember we used to have a date night on Fridays? Stay up to silly o'clock having a drink and basically being silly , you made me cry laughing and the best when I'd just drank a sip of whisky and laughed at the same time , think I nearly died checking on it , I miss you so much
I'm sorry for messaging and asking why you changed from the most caring woman I've known to someone who seems distant and cold, I'm sorry for asking for five minutes of your time when you are busy, I'm sorry for wanting your love like I love you , I'm sorry for caring so much , I'm sorry for making you fall in love with me , I'm sorry for acting like you owed me an explanation after leaving me, I'm sorry for falling in love with you , I'm sorry I can't just move on and forget you
If I keep snipping the unruly hairs on my beard does it get worse, I really want it neat but find them popping up all the time
Where the hell did you come from and where did you go ?
You just turned up on my running page, like the brightest diamond in the sky, glowing, glistening, beaming with delight, like some hidden gem waiting to be found, beauty like no other , eyes that drew me in , it had to happen, the love you dream about, see in movies , destiny, our forever, old and grey together, meeting you in person was and will be one of the highlights of my life, skin so soft, lips so delicious to kiss , a body to die for, everything you could want in a woman , someone you dream about but then you went just as fast , leaving my heartbroken but I met you , tasted you , had you in my life and I'll never forget it ❤️
The times come, your beauty was everything I dreamed of, your touch , your skin, your messy hair when I'd put my fingers through it calling you my girl, you melted, you wanted everything, all of me, I gave in, we knew it was wrong but couldn't be stopped, selfishly but we needed eachother, it was supposed to be forever, I gave you my life, you knew my kids , I brought you into everything I had , told you my darkest secrets, then you left because of unforeseen circumstances promised to keep in touch but slowly drifting away when I needed you most.
Goodbye C x
It's mad how I miss you like crazy even though I know nothing of your new life , the best year of my life I had with you , you drive me crazy, probably moved on , didn't know I was so forgettable 😂 obviously I am , but I'll always hold you in my heart until I die
Lots of love C
I knew it was over once you mentioned detachment, of course I tried to save it ,who wouldn't with the most beautiful woman in the world but yeah I should have saved many tough days and grew a pair of balls and stoppage begging, it's about respect, I didn't have it , it was more about what I want which was you , instead of quietly giving you what you want I acted like a fool, child , begging, pleading, nobody should do that , even at by age in learning about myself and what's acceptable and what's not, I believe you have made me a better person and now it's time to prove it , so I thank you for your calm presence, always the lady.
How did I manage to have you in the palm of my hands then let you slip right through my fingers, beautiful beyond words, heart that wanted love , we found eachother out of nowhere, like everyone says it's destiny, so much time together telling eachother our secrets, confessions about how we felt , we were destined to meet and we did , it went better than we could have expected after so long waiting to be as one , the passion , the laughs, the electricity we had between us , both alive again after so long , didn't want to let eachother go but we did knowing it was only a matter of time, sadly it didn't get that far for reasons we know, promised to stay In touch because it was special but slowly you disappear until I feel like a desperate idiot and looking so weak , why ? Because my love was unconditional and I wanted to breathe the same breath as you , I wanted to be part of your life and make you the happiest woman alive, give you the excitement and adventures we talked about, it only happens once in a lifetime and you were the person I fell in love with because you listened, you loved and you made me feel I was the only man on earth.
I just can't get no sleep, sounds like a song right ? But you keep me awake at night , I'm pretty sure since you left I don't keep you awake, separate ways because well we had to but sadly it seems I'm the only one who can't seem to let this go, it's sad I know , it's been awhile, I need to get a grip fast , the ships sinking fast , I wore your favourite black hoodie today and remembered how you loved it and your perfume was on it on that amazing night we had , time stood still that weekend, grabbing every second I could with you, it was you and me against the world , we planned future adventures, we held eachother tight , it felt we'd never ever be apart , here I am writing crap at 3:15 am like someone insane, you drive me nuts but you've gone, you've left , I should wish you happiness after years of being not loved but I'm still angry that you left me when I gave you my all.