Family always discriminate between me and my brother
"Pata Hai aaj kya Hua", not today actually, this is happening since my childhood jabse main samajhne lagi chize tabse , they always discriminate between me and my brother in everything, i studied at sarkari state board school, he studied at one of the prestigious school of my city , nvm, it wasn't the problem for me because main choti thi toh idk much about which school was better and which not , but jab bhi koyi ghar pe aata woh log humesha Meri mazak udhate thhey by saying ki " gharpe kitna kalesh karti hai yeh ladki , kyunki iske bhai ko humne acche school main daal diya " joh mujhe bura lagta thha kyunki Maine kabhi kuch nhi bola ,
btw he is 6 years younger than me, lekin bachpan main he was really a good brother but dhire dhire bade hote hote woh bhi unke jaisa hone laga , like agar main college se aate waqt 10min late ho jati thi toh woh mujhe mere jo 2/4 dost hote they unke samne galiya dena suru kar deta tha ki "zyada par nikal aye tere , katna padega " and all , aur mummy papa haste they 🙃, koyi na main usko dosh nhi deti hu joh woh dekh ke bada hua hai woh wohi sikhega ..
Bachpan se I have developed a habit that I never asked for anything at home , agar kuch chahiye bhi hota hai toh main nhi bolti thi , bhai keliye har saal naye notes book Lana padhta tha (school rule) agar purana wala reh bhi jata tha toh woh usey use nhi kar sakta tha , main un copies ko use karti thi , maine school se leke college tak , jabse usne school start Kiya tabse maine uske purane chize use karti thi , toh after college i started giving tuitions to kids tabse main apna kharcha khud hi uthati hu , aur ab toh masters bhi khatam kar liya maine , now I work as a private school tutor at my village,, ab maine yeh habit kyun develop Kiya ?
Because kabhi bhi agar woh kuch meko lake dete toh Puri zindagi us ka tana dete they , maine last year unse ek dress mangi thi sirf 1100 ki thi during Diwali , mind you , they haven't given me anything since 5 years now , not even a pen , toh I just asked my father ki yeh dress is baar diwali pe dila doge (maine ghar pe sabko dresses gift kiye they ) woh bhai keliye shopping keliye ja rahe they toh maine bola tha , he said ok, but when the parcel came , and I asked them for money, he didn't even reply anything 🙃💔,, Long story short, aaj ka batati hu , (we are from middle class family, living in a village, and my family is really orthodox, jinhe lagta hai ladkiya ghar se sirf shaadi ke baad nikal thi hai , ) toh my brother went to a top luxurious college after doing lots of fight at home , papa said he can't afford but still he went , he is an average student with pcb , after getting into college, within a month he said he wants an iPhone 17pro max ,
because even the security guard of his college has this , papa said we will give after 2)3 months, because of his admission there are already so many debts are ongoing lemme clear this , but after 2/3 months he couldn't able to give him the phone, you know what my brother said "mummy papa mar bhi jayenge toh main nhi rounga , baat bhi mat karna tum log mujhse , he even try to punch my father" but still my parents are ok with it ,
I am currently preparing for competitive exams , with my own money , I even completed my college and masters with my own scholarship money , jisme se 70% mere ghar wale le lete they 🙃, even the phone I'm using right now it's from my money, toh there's a relative of mine who is selling her phone in 18k (my old phone is 4 years old , toh it's not in a good condition anymore and because of all the studies and all i need another one ) toh I told my father ki aap half de doge toh main half de dungi tuitions ke paiso se har mahine aapko lauta dungi abhi 9k hai mere pass mere stipend ke paise ,
he said abhi meko yeh dede main 2/3 din baad teko dunga , it's been 3 months now 🙃toh aaj bhai ne 79k ki koyi asus ki laptop ke bare main bola ki usko lena hai toh Ghar Wale baat kar rahe they ussey , toh maine bola mere phone ka kiya , phir mummy bolti hai , jab bhi hum tere bhai ko kuch Dene ka soch te hai as jati hai muh utthake apne liye mangne sharam nhi aati itna jalti kyun hai bhai se , maine bola main toh kuch mangti hi nhi hu ,
yeh toh mere hi paise hai toh aur gali dene lagi , btw mere clg or master's milake 50 hazar bhi nhi lage honge 🙃 because yeh ek sarkari college hai and because of good result I got scholarship in both the courses , toh unka Paisa toh laga hi nhi hai , jabki mere bhai ka sem fee 88k hai with his pg 8k + pocket money 5k .. aur woh ulta mere se paise lete hai , last month papa ke checkup keliye 5k diye hai maine 🙃💔mere se koyi kuch mangta hai toh main mana nhi kar sakti , main humesha mere bhai ko jab bhi paise chahiye hota hai me deti hu , mere family ko bhi ...
aur ek baat , my family has rules that i can't go out alone, can't wear the dresses I want , can't even tie my hair the way I want , can't eat or sleep anytime I want , can't have friends 😅,, only exam ke time clg jati thi mai .. idk what to do yha se nikal bhi nhi sakti gaowale s!ut shame karna suru kar denge Bina shaadi kiye nikli toh .. I'm shivering like crazy .. crying my eyes out 🙃kuch galat likha hoga toh maaf kar Dena , bohat lamba ho gaya hai , but mere life ka 5% bhi nhi hua .. just dua karna yha se ekdin nikal pau ..