I made a mistake. I was emotional and told some people about my life and what happened to me and they ripped me to shreds. They told me I deserved it and it was all my fault, that I am a bad person, selfish, judgy and manipulative. They even said I should stop nagging and get a job and hobbies. I was very overwhelmed and got bad flashbacks. I'm still shaking. 😭
I mean besides cutting contacts. I'm tired of some of my family members with unresolved trauma. They are angry at their abusers but since they are scared of them they treat them well then take the anger out on me! It's not okay! I'm not their punching bag! I've tried everything to stop this but nothing really works. Some of them are not even in the abusive relationship anymore but they have unresolved trauma and take it out on me.
I just bought axis-y eye serum. I did exactly what it says on the box and nothing! I pressed the pump 50 times! Still nothing comes out of the damn thing!
I want something for around my eyes mostly for hydration. I tried Neutrogena hydro boost eye cream but It kind of stings my skin. I just heard about Dr.althea eye serum. Have you used it? How was your experience?
I thought I should make this post cause I have noticed some introverts hang out with toxic and narcissistic people and think they are extroverts! When you hang out with an extrovert for long , you may feel like your social battery is drained and you need to have alone time to recharge.
Toxic people are completely different. They suck the energy out of people, they're like energy vampires. They cross your boundaries, make you feel uncomfortable, don't take no for answer, force things on you, insist on things and make you feel like you are under a microscope or being psycho-analyzed!
Before I learned about narcissists and abusers whenever I was around toxic people I felt weird and anxious. It felt like my energy and soul was being sucked out of my body. Back then I thought I had social anxiety or was just a weird introvert and those people were just very social and extroverted.
Now I know it was because of their toxicity. I am an introvert but I don't have social anxiety. I do prefer to hang out with introverts cause I think I'm not compatible with extroverts but I don't feel anxious or disrespected around them. I hope this post will help some of you!
I can't unsee it now! The red flags, the dead eyes, the mask slipping, the DARVO, the unnatural smirks, the emptiness! How can people not see it?! It's even more shocking to me how they explain away the abusers' toxic behavior by saying, "It must be trauma!" No, my dear! It's an empty, soulless abuser!
I always prefer to get to know the guys I meet online before we meet in person. I feel like it would be very awkward and uncomfortable for me if I rushed into meeting them face to face. But guys always insist on setting up a date to meet me ASAP! Like before we even talk for a bit!
I have a ton of pics and videos, so they can see what I look like but they still insist on meeting up right away. I don't like that because I really wanna get to know them a bit first to see if I like them , then I'd wanna meet up. I always thought I felt this way cause I am an introvert but now I'm thinking maybe it is different for guys!
I can't express how much I hate people who are nosy or cross boundaries or would like to insert themselves into someone's life! They are completely different from curious people. I am okay with people being genuinely curious about me and ask me questions to get to know me. But I just can't handle being around a nosy person for even 5 minutes! Why do they think they have the right to interfere with every little thing and call it "helping"? I have noticed a lot of them are extroverts so I thought maybe disliking this has something to do with introversion! Idk!
As a huge fan of Anne Rice's works , I liked IWTV season 1 and 2 even though they made huge changes. Armand's portrayal was interesting too because of Assad's acting. I was very hopeful for season 3 but I gotta admit so far I am kind of disappointed! I feel like I am being fed breadcrumbs! They didn't show much of Lestat's history or the relationship between Armand and Daniel. It's mostly about the rockstar stuff and his band! So why are people loving this season more than previous seasons? I don't get it!
I'm not talking about playing sports. I like playing sports myself. But I don't like watching the games , I don't follow sports news or have favorite teams or go see a game. Around me everybody who is into watching sports is an extrovert.
Is it an introvert thing or Is it because of my age? I am an introvert and in my early 30s. I'd like to be home by midnight. I don't like to stay out very late, mostly because I wanna have a sleep routine. My sister is very social. She has like 100 friends. She always comes home after midnight. Like if her shift ends 8 pm , she will go out with her friends for dinner and then drinks and then to a club or a party and comes home like 3 or 4 am. The earliest she wants to come home is 1 am. She claims I am weird and everybody else wants to go out at night. I mean it's not like I don't go out at all or have no plans, I just wanna have a routine and be home early so that I can sleep.
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