u/Evil_KittenVampire

My best friend and only support of four years just moved away and I can't live without her, shes been there only thing keeping me alive, everything else in my life would have made me kill myself by now, my father verbally and mentally abused both me and my mom, he forces us to be happy and prides himself on being a prick, he sexually abuses me and talk about me and my friends sexually, has stated he wants to go to Epstein's island and downplayed gay people and sa victims, I also hate myself for thinking disgusting thoughts because of my hypersexuality, its always either thinking about how good death would feel or imagining something bad enough for me to finally do it, I constantly feel disgusting and uncomfortable in my won skin and my parents refuse to acknowledge it, I'm just gonna end it now, theyll be happier without me

In almost all subs my vents get taken down and I'm not sure why, legitimate vents that I pour all my emotions onto are getting flagged for spam, is there someone I can vent to

tw (new to Reddit so idk): talk of ending it and abuse

So for a while I've realized that my dad has been verbally/emotionally abusing me, hes always yelled when I haven't done something exactly how he wants it or if I complain too much, a few months ago we were on vacation and I got sad because I couldn't visit a friend when we got back so I was sulking, he proceeded to yell and threaten to beat me to death if I didn't smile, hes done this many times before and gets more angry when I cry out of fear.. Hes made me uncomfortable for a bit, like touching my inner thighs, my ass and making sexual comments about me, hes Also exposed me to sexual content at as little as four, hes Also said some extremely concerning things like how women should stay at home looking pretty and that has a proud homophone and racist. Last week he said that he would go to Epstein's island if he had the chance and downplayed a lot of the victims, he makes me want to end it

I hate the fact that Im hypersexual, it always makes me feel disgusting and I always have horrible thoughts about people, along with those thoughts are extreme suicidal thoughts but whenever I bring one of these things up I have to downplay it or else my parents and friends think I want attention.. My thoughts of dying are getting worse because my friend of four years and my only support system really has to move away to a different country, shes been the only thing stopping me from ending it and I'm not sure if I can handle her gone, I keep thinking of just taking a few extra painkillers or taking everything in my medicine cabinet , or jumping off my balcony

It's been years since I've started feeling like this, I've tried ending it or just using a box cutter or jumping or hanging or overdosing but I always get scared, tell myself there's something to live for but I just can't think of anything after my only support system will leave me

Humongous tw: talk of ending it and abuse

So for a while I've realized that my dad has been verbally/emotionally abusing me, hes always yelled when I haven't done something exactly how he wants it or if I complain too much, a few months ago we were on vacation and I got sad because I couldn't visit a friend when we got back so I was sulking, he proceeded to yell and threaten to beat me to death if I didn't smile, hes done this many times before and gets more angry when I cry out of fear.. Hes made me uncomfortable for a bit, like touching my inner thighs, my ass and making sexual comments about me, hes Also exposed me to sexual content at as little as four, hes Also said some extremely concerning things like how women should stay at home looking pretty and that has a proud homophone and racist. Last week he said that he would go to Epstein's island if he had the chance and downplayed a lot of the victims, he makes me want to end it

I hate the fact that Im hypersexual, it always makes me feel disgusting and I always have horrible thoughts about people, along with those thoughts are extreme suicidal thoughts but whenever I bring one of these things up I have to downplay it or else my parents and friends think I want attention.. My thoughts of dying are getting worse because my friend of four years and my only support system really has to move away to a different country, shes been the only thing stopping me from ending it and I'm not sure if I can handle her gone, I keep thinking of just taking a few extra painkillers or taking everything in my medicine cabinet , or jumping off my balcony

It's been years since I've started feeling like this, I've tried ending it or just using a box cutter or jumping or hanging or overdosing but I always get scared, tell myself there's something to live for but I just can't think of anything after my only support system will leave me