u/Excellent_Contract59

I need to know from someone if this is normal or not. or if someone else relates. I don't know if sleep deprivation hits me harder because of my age or mental disorders, but even with just 6 hours of sleep, I feel absolutely crazy. I'm on 4 hours of sleep right now, it's just 1 pm, and I'm already laughing at everything. I feel like my IQ has went down 30 points. or.. I get paranoid after not even two full days of being awake. last week or something, I was at the 40 hour mark or something after being at my aunt's house. when I came home, my grandma was making tea. she kept saying, "why isn't it boiling?" and for some reason, that scared the shit outta me. I was so irrationally scared that I was hallucinating the kettle? idk. I go out of my mind.

Does anyone else drink shit tons of caffeine? It's not even the afternoon yet, I drank two pots of coffee while on 4 hours. I might be screwed.

Does anyone have any ideas on how to fix this? yesterday, I went to sleep at 9:45 pm with an alarm for 7 am. I woke up 4 different times during the night, it took me 30 minutes or so to fall back asleep each time. I was so frustrated I gave up and got up for the day at 4 am instead.

I was at my aunt's house all day yesterday. I didn't sleep and the second I walked in my house, there was this weird sound. I can't even describe it. I was confused, but assumed it was just from my sleep deprivation.

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well.. it's the next morning, I slept and took my antipsychotics, and somehow the sound is STILL there. I have recorded multiple videos to see if I can hear it, but I still can't tell. everything is so confusing. nobody else seems to be bothered. it is loud and literally every second. it hasn't stopped even once.

I really wanna make a notes app thing about my typology but I don't even know what to put in there. I know simple things like enneagram and mbti, blah blah blah but I'm not really sure. I looked at tiktok for help but I'm still unsure. does anyone have ideas?

where I live, there isn't a chipotle. but if I ever find one, does anyone have any recommendations? I have never had it before and I'm not sure what I should get. just curious.

So, I have a story. I have good memory and know a lot of dates, but anyway. March 18th, 2024. I just got out of the mental hospital and my grandma took me to Starbucks to celebrate. I got a caramel frappuccino. as I was doing the homework I missed, my ears started ringing. I ignored it, but it kept getting worse.. I don't know how to describe this, but it felt like a big fluffy cat was rubbing against my forehead. I was tingly, ears ringing very loud, and my vision turned into static. like I could barely see anything.

I didn't feel hungry, tired, or thirsty for exactly 9 days after that. It was like my body stopped needing things. nothing was real and I could only think that I was in a dream. I stayed up that night, and I remember my grandma telling me to take my medication. I was so out of it, I just stared at her. I kept getting in and out of reality, and each time it came back, it was getting less intense until I could function again, if that makes sense. I still don't know what happened to this day tho, but it kinda felt good. I've took multiple caffeine breaks to get side effects again, but it never worked. and I've had that drink multiple times since, but.. It never happened again. this event is just a mystery.