Jadagam paakurathu nambalama ? 50 50 tha , enga vetula summa Ilana jadagam paathan oru 3 4 maasathuku munadi athula enaku 45 to 50 age la enamo gandam Iruku saethuduvaenu soledukanuga ... Na saethuduvaenu sonathu koda prachana ila antha parigaram eantha parigaram nu panurathu nijama frustrating ha iruku, eathala nambalama venama ?
I had a very special friend of mine and we fought and things happened , as it's a public sub I am not gonna explain it over here , as her special day is coming soon I am thinking of doing few things and I wish I have someone to tell me am I going it good or thinking straight? Let me know if someone is open to help me out her and ping me so I can explain in detail. It's not a scam or anything I messed up big time and could use some help
Do god really exist, did I really do that bad ? Am I really a bad person to suffer all this ? Is this even real ? I just sometimes feel like if god really exists I just wish God would listen to this ... It's very noisy for me , i really cannot take it anymore , I do not have anyone left anymore .... If you really care just please take me with you out of all this misery, i just cannot take it anymore ... Please god idk what did I do wrong, just help me here i cannot take it anymore I just feel heavy and it gets heavier day by day I just cannot bare it ....just take me with you to a peaceful place .... I lost hope and everything is just gone
Have you all experienced that feeling like you give your best out but it's not enough and you try to be doing things in the correct way but still things go wrong and at the end of the day you try to not do anything so you won't mess things up but that act ends up messing everything up and loss everything what you had ... What is wrong with life and living
I joined a new company and I was hanging around people here , I had personal issues from the part which I was not over from and had panic attacks and emotional attention to overcome them for the moment, when I started to hang around and all went till I became close to them and I wanted a help with certain things like time with me and wanted to feel a bit validated, when I asked out loud for it and when circumstance were not good for them (which I didn't know about at that time) and they thought I am trying to mess arround them and they stopped speaking to me and more over they started to avoid me later and I am left all alone, I tried my best accepted my mistakes apologies many number of times and things didn't settle yet, I feel very bad and left out all alone , it took me time to trust there people and things started to fall apart when I started to feel these people as home . Idk nowadays I feel very lonely , sleep cycle is rescheduled and started losing my appetite and mental peace .
You may feel I am weird as I am taking this too long for work friends but except for this all around my life is breaking apart this was most of the comfort zone I had with me and now I feel like I am losing my mind.
Now it's been almost a month and I feel like I can wait for a month and get back to try to explain when the heat is down ?