Its a little 3.5 gallon and i plan to add some more plants but for now i just recycled plants from my bigger tank! Blue dream shrimpies are going to POP in here with the red rocks once its cycled!
A,
Youre my best friend and things would be extremely complicated if we were to cross the boundaries into a relationship, you have a life separate from me and while you say youre not happy, you still do nothing to change your situation. Ive decided I will only tell you how I have grown to feel about you if you ever make the needed changes, if you dont? Youll never get to know how I really feel towards you. Ive known you for almost 3 years, in the beginning I think I really only wanted you around as a friend. After the last 2 years of my life ive come to realize that changed somewhere along the way, my feelings were slowly building and i think us deciding to be fwb may have opened a door in my heart I wont be able to keep shut. I do think im okay with keeping it a secret from you, but my journals will certainly hear about you. I hope one day you make those changes though, you once said you would have liked to date me, I was kind of mean in response but now I think I return that sentiment.
M
Ive been doing therapy but my therapist says I dont need it as badly as I think I do, and ive been journaling and reconnecting with my hobbies and finding my community again, but I still cant get over the rage I feel when I think about my life 4 months ago.
I know shes probably off having fun with the people she cheated on me with repeatedly, I know shes probably using me leaving her as an excuse to get sympathy with her “friends” on her video games, I know shes probably making her moms life even worse off which her mom vented to me about constantly, I also know she is going to do the same fucking thing again to someone else. All of these thoughts genuinely send rage through my whole body. I dont know what else to do to get it out. Any advice is appreciated.