u/FairyStardustx

do you ever completely heal from self-harm? it feels impossible to me, the second something goes wrong, my brain screams at me to relapse even though i have other healthier coping mechanisms why is self -harm the first one that pops up in my head? why do I run to this? will I ever be free? its exhausting to live this way. I don't want to let down people in my life and I HATE whenever the thoughts of relapse pop up in my head.

This is getting bad, this is getting REALLY REALLY bad. I've been clean for years and right now I'm going through some emotionally tough times, its getting VERYYYY difficult for me to not give into the urge. I've put silicone scar sheets on my wrist in a way to stop myself, but I don't know how long that will help because I really can't seem to get over the urge to relapse.

so I was doing a bit better..but boy oh boy the urges are back full force! why does this keep happening? it so annoying!! its taking every ounce of my will to not FUCKING GIVE IN TO THIS SHIT!!!

this is my new way of stopping myself from giving in to the urge to relapse. whenever the urge hits me out of the blue, I slap these on my wrist, covering my scars, I don't know how well they'll work in reducing the appearance of the scars since they're hella old. but hey, whatever stops me from relapsing!