Can't stop crying
Yesterday my son's dog got into the coop behind me and killed Lottie, my gorgeous grey auracauna X.
She was a gift from a colleague last year and was slowly becoming less timid.
I tried everything to save her, but I fell and lost my grip on the dog. I keep replaying it over and over again. What I could have done differently, if I wasn't so fat and stupid etc.
I was doing ok, but just spoke to my Mum and burst into tears. I can't stop seeing it in my mind and I can't stop crying.
I only have a small flock. 6 girls, now 5. I'm so sad and can't stop replaying it.
How do you deal with this?
I've lost hens before, but I've never witnessed anything like this. I can't stand looking at Koda, the dog, even though he was just doing what he was bred for.