u/Familiar-Owl-7768

I made a post similar to this the other day but no one commented.

My 2nd period is 2 days late now, and I'm starting to get worried, my 1st period was super light which I'm also concerned about, is it normal for my 2nd period to be late ? I am getting anxious because I'm gonna be honest, I haven't been able to eat as much healthy fats as I was during the start of my recovery because my mum threw like a whole 2kg tub of PB out for literally no reason even though there was more than half the tub left, and that was honestly my main source of healthy fats because its the only healthy fat that I actually enjoy eating and that don't get tired of, and I'm 14, so my mum buys all the groceries, no one in this house eats peanut butter so she obviously isn't going to buy any for me, she doesnt even know I lost my period, I think she knew about my ED but she never helps me when I'm struggling, I have no money to buy my own food because first of all my mum doesnt really give me money, and I am saving up the money that I do get, sorry for going so out of topic, but is it normal for my 2nd period to be late, ik no one is gonna read all this yap but if u do can u let me know if im the only 1 experiencing this??

Today has been exactly a month since I got my 1st period back, according to my cycle tracker app, I was supposed to get my 2nd period yesterday, and I haven't got it today either, but I have been having consistent signs like EWCM and I have been getting a lot of acne which are both really strong signs for me, I'm just a bit confused and upset

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Hi, I was thinking of trying to build muscle. HOWEVER, first I want to stabilise my period after losing it to my ed, (I am currently in recovery and have gained enough weight to be healthy) and when I get it next month I know for sure that it has stabilised, so when I know for sure my period has stabilised I was hoping to try and build some muscle, I think this will help me mentally and physically as I think it will make me have a better view on my body and will help me feel physically stronger, however, even though I am a healthy weight, I am still on the lower side of weight, but I also don't want to gain more weight whilst trying to build muscle, is this possible (I also don't want to loose more weight but I don't know how that is going to work if I need to burn fat for any muscles to show) I also don't really want to focus too much on calories or tracking macros too harshly, but I feel like I know how much I should be eating either way because I've been maintaining for a few weeks. I don't have money for a gym membership so I was looking into doing calisthenics, is this a good idea? Any tips would be great

Hii! I got my period back on the 4th last month, and I noticed that It was really light, I knew it was definetly a period , not spotting, because it lasted a couple of days, but it was super light and I had no cramping, is that normal? Also I have another question, Is it normal to have super light discharge? Since my period ended which I think was on the 7th or 8th last month, I had consistent discharge, like, the average amount I think, but it wasn't light, and these past days it has been light, I'm wondering If it means my progress is ruined because I'm gonna be honest, i haven't been able to eat as much healthy fats as my mum threw the peanutbutter out and I had been having that with my cereal in the morning as it allows me to have around 20g of fat in the morning, but now I'd say I'm only getting 5 or so grams of fat in the morning because my fat source is only milk, I am also still eating in a slight surplus, not tracking cals but I'd say I'm in a 200 or so cal surplus so I'm just anxious

As the weather is getting warmer, I am wondering if teachers will report self harm scars , I'm in year 9 (so I'm 14) so I don't know if that makes a difference, they're on my wrist and I just don't want to be wearing long sleeves all summer, they're around a year or so old but they're still mostly pink/purple

I'm so tired, I dont know what to do anymore, I've gained weight, I've been eating more, but my family genuinly triggers me so much, my brother constantly talks about calories, he is obsessed with calories, its all he talks about, and now he's gone on a cut, last time he went on a cut he kept on telling me to go on a cut, and he kept on calling me fat and telling me to lose weight, this was a major thing that caused me to develope an ED, and now since he's going on a cut again, I think he will probably do this again, the constant talk about calories is already enough, and now this? I honestly can't wait to move out, I just feel so trapped, everyone also always comments on what I eat, when I do eat or go out with a meal with my family, all I hear from my stupid mum is 'Oh I'm so fat, I shouldn't be eating this, I need to go on a diet and start going to the gym' or stupid bullshit like that, or it's either everyone commenting on how little I eat and how skinny I am even though I've gained quite a bit of weight and I'm a healthy weight now and I eat 3 meals and snacks a day, I dont know what more they want out of me, I just hate everyone

I'm just really confused, I got my period back yesterday, It definetly is a period, because I'm still bleeding today , even though my period is really light. I'm now confused on how much I should eat because as my period is light I'm not sure if that's because my body feels unsafe still, so I'm not sure if that means I need to still eat in a surplus, but I'm a healthy weight now so I'm unsure if I should maintain, also I literally don't know what a regular day of eating is supposed to look like. Before my ED I was unknowingly over eating which led to me gaining weight, but I don't want to track calories as that will probably lead to a relapse, I'm just sooo stuck

I got my period back!! Atleast I think I have? I woke up this morning and had bad cramps around 20 minutes after waking up, I didn't think much of it and continued with my day, I then went to school and then when I got there I could immedietly feel that I had bled, so I went to the bathroom, and I was correct, I was bleeding, I was shocked but so happy at the same time, it was a decent amount of blood, definetly not a little amount, so I put a pad on, but when break time came around, I went to the bathroom and there was only a tiny bit of blood on the pad, and I got no more blood for the rest of the day. I dont know wether it's just a light period or if it's spotting, because it seems like it's too much blood for it to be spotting, but not enough for me to call it a proper period?

I haven't gotten my 1st period back yet, but I've been wondering, how much should you be eating once you get your 1st period back? Should you still eat in a surplus / 2500cals? When would it be safe to go back to maintenance? Also I don't want to track calories, but my ED has made me forget how much a normal person eats, because even before my ED I was generally eating more than what I thought I was ,so I was constantly gaining weight slowly without realising, so I don't really know how a day of eating at maintenance would look like unless I track my calories because I'm afraid I might accidentally eat too little, but I also don't want to track calories again, I also don't want to stress myself out too much about it

My ED was / is a huge coping mechanism for me, and before my ED I was really depressed and was struggling a LOT with SI and SH , but my ED helped me cope with that and my ED was a distraction, but during ED recovery, today I relapsed with my SH and I think that could be linked with me not having a distraction anymore. I sometimes draw or play guitar as a distraction, but it doesn't really help me as well as it used to. I was maybe thinking about trying to pick up a new hobby to distract me from the amount of calories I'm eating and to help me not relapse, has anyone got any reccomendations, maybe something creative as I'm a creative person :)

Before I write this, since I can only add one flair, this is going to mention : Suicidal thoughts/self harm, eating disorders and family problems, so if any of this triggers you, don't read

I feel so alone, I dont know what to do anymore, it feels like nobody cares about me, I feel like I have nothing left to live for. I have no friends, my step-mum only cares about my brother because he has behavioral issues so she has no time to look after me properly, I've never been looked after properly, my biological mum neglected me, but that was due to her depression, she did love me but she didn't look after me properly, she died when I was 10, I wouldn't say the neglect affected me too bad, but it ruined my social skills because I wasn't let outside and people at school didn't talk to me because I had bad hygiene, after my mum died everything started to go downhill from there. When I was 11 I started to cut myself and I had also started to have issues with my body image, so occasionally I started purging every so often after eating, I wouldn't say it turnt into something really obsessive and bad at the time, but it didn't make me feel the best mentally, at that time I also experienced a lot of Suicidal Ideation and had tried to overdose , however my sister walked in on me and saw all the pills in my hand, and I also got no support whatsoever when my mum died, my brother started to have these really intense episodes where he'd become violent so all of my step-mums attention was on him and not me. My step-mum found out about my Suicidal Ideation when I was 12 as she had found my notes, but because she had failed to give me any help whatsoever, that lead me to have my first proper attempt and I overdosed, it caused me to end up throwing up in my room all day, and guess what, nobody noticed, i also tried to hang myself a few days after i turnt 14, the cord unraveled and i got a concussion as i hit my head badly and lost conciousness twice, worst pain i had ever felt. When I was 13 I got heavily addicted to self harm (but started cutting when I was 11) and I couldn't go a day without hurting myself, and still no one noticed, even when I was constantly wearing bandaid on my wrist and thighs, and when i was 13 I also started to struggle with my body image even more, so I started starving myself, only eating one meal a day, but aiming for as little as possible, and I purged whatever I ate, this lead me to weigh >!89lbs!< when I was 14. Yet literally no one noticed, nobody bothered to help me. I am still 14, I want to be happy, I am trying to heal my relationship with food but it feels draining. It makes me hopeless knowing that no matter what I go through, there will never be anyone there for me, it makes me not want to live to see wether or not I get better in the future, I'm just too tired to deal with anything anymore, I just feel so alone and ignored

I'm on holiday right now and my mum is the one controlling my meals on holiday (I usually choose what to eat and stuff) and there's no food here that she's brought that have a decent amount of healthy fats, so instead of me usually having around 60g+ of healthy fats every day I'm probably only having 20-30 and we are walking around alot so I could be doing like 9-13k steps on average, the holiday is only up until Friday but I'm scared it is going to ruin my progress and make recovery longer

Sorry if this post comes off as TMI 😭😭 I just need help as I'm a bit worried

These past few weeks I've frequently been getting CM, and before recovery I was rarely getting CM, but these past 2 days I've been getting very little, like , barely any, and im scared that this means I'm doing something wrong and won't get my period back? Should I be worried?

I'm trying to recover from my eating disorder right now and I am trying my best not to crash out. My brother so clearly has an eating disorder. He's obsessed with gaining muscle and he's now bought SARMS . I'm not too educated on drugs like that but there's no way he's not disordered. He is constantly talking about calories and its affecting my recovery and I wouldn't wish an eating disorder on anybody, even if I hate my brother. It seems as if everyone around me is getting worse whilst I'm trying to get better and it is so triggering I literally don't know what to do anymore

I'm just so upset rn, first of all I don't have my period back yet, second of all I'm gaining weight and third of all I think this is causing me to get stretch marks, and I know that you can't get rid of stretch marks so now I'm gonna be even more insecure and my body's gonna look even worse than what it did prior my ed when I'm weight restored, I just want to cry, I dont know what to do anymore

I honestly don't know what to do anymore, I have been getting signs that my period will come back soon like I've been getting CM for like 2 and a half weeks consistently, and recently I've been getting more emotional which is always a huge sign for me, and I've been getting more acne, but yet again it feels like it's never going to come back, and I know its probably just bloating but I swear my body looks bigger, not even in just my stomach, like my thighs and my arms and its so frustrating, and I'm literally going on holiday on the 25th so I literally just want to cry sincd I know my mum is going to want to eat out like literally every day so that's mentally stressful for me which will make recovery even more worse because I know being stressed also affects ur period, I just dont know what to do anymore, also literally everyone around me is so much naturally thinner than me so I am just fed up and so insecure I just want to cry, sorry I know this is basically just a huge vent but I just feel so alone and I want to know if anyone else kind of relates to this

TW: mentions of weight/ numbers and talk of BMI

I started to go fully into recovery exactly 2 weeks ago today, ( before this I was in quasi-recovery) and at the start of recovery I weighed >!90.4lbs!<, so my bmi was around >!17.1!<, and then after the first week I weighed >!95lbs!<, I was a bit scared when I saw that but remembered that a lot of that was probably water weight, and then when I weighed myself this morning it said >!97lbs!<, I thought I would've still been around >!95!< ish lbs because I thought a lot of the weight from the 1st week was water weight, I dont see how I have been able to gain >!7lbs!< in 2 weeks, and that means my BMI is probably either almost at a healthy BMI or already at a healthy BMI, so I'm starting to feel a little worried as it feels like everything is moving so fast

I know this question is kind of worded weirdly, but I usually started my period near the end of every month, so when I get my period back, should I expect it to start at nearer to the end of the month? Or can it literally just turn up at any point??

I am getting slightly stressed about this, I have PE at school twice per week, but now we're training for sports day, so I have to do stuff like reelay, discus, shot put, high jump, long jump, and a lot of running, so I feel like this might ruin my recovery? I do less steps on days where I have PE so should I be ok??