u/Fantasy6_6Lover

I'm 27f nd ADHD pi with executive dysfunction

Is There anyone here who's married and managing their daily life and career and responsibilities to the house well

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Even just normal daily chores like cooking and cleaning, laundry, utilities, house and family management... Etc

Including some societal expectations of having to host people and festivals and meet and greet Happy then get even more obligations....

I mean in the past just having to take care of my family for 2 months like food and some things in the house made me feel like I was stuck in an inescapable loop doing useless and repetitive things in a routine... Next morning Everything goes back to square one ....

I just couldn't bear that I felt shame and anger with myself and the fact that I have to eat to survive and even take care of my body in this exhaustion, i felt deeply ... I mean I used to love food and sleep as my source of dopamine but that time I hated food and forgot to drink water... Always waiting to run away from the kitchen that my needs i just couldn't fulfill... Heck they even became the very things to exhaust me ... Tho at last I did water fast for 3days so I'll reset and maybe miss having food ... And I felt it ... Without the need for food and hygiene to self there's nothing in life it felt boring even and after fast I ate food gratefully...

Anyways anyone in this journey please give some pointers to a rookie coz as it goes like this I'm already making plans to stay single my whole life... But it's not possible here as u know.... And at last I also desire for my life partner tho I can't say anything about kids ...

I am an ADHD pi with executive dysfunction and depression...

My main problem is that there are things that I like because of the past experience but now even though I do them I don't feel anything while doing it or after doing it, I just feel like It's done that's all and sometimes I'm even bored of them. Not to mention with task paralysis and stuck on a waiting table to decide or to take action..

And because of this I kind of lost interest in so many things and I do have a fear of being seen and a judgemental fear so that is another problem due to my past. now on a day I just don't feel anything I mean I go to gym and afterwards and while doing it I'm already thinking when will this end coz I'm bored but it's only for a moment after that at home I just don't know what to do and even tho I know next tasks i just can't or don't want to idk..

so I'm in a low mood mostly and if I just leave myself like that I am stuck in bed all day drowning in that feeling and to get me out Manga or webtoon are the only things that distract me and I cannot function if I want this Manga addiction cum coping mechanism on control coz once I open it my whole day is gone in a blink before I realise that I have things to do...

I've been unemployed and so maintaining a routine is hard and my time is not in my hand coz of sudden obligations, it's not like no one will disturb me because of my family and I want to know how people are maintaining the Dopamine levels when they are not feeling anything while doing things or they just want to do one thing because of executive dysfunction or being stuck on the waiting table to do things how do you manage this are there any other things you can do to just be ok with it.

Thank you for your time.

I am an ADHD pi with executive dysfunction and depression...

My main problem is that there are things that I like because of the past experience but now even though I do them I don't feel anything while doing it or after doing it, I just feel like It's done that's all and sometimes I'm even bored of them. Not to mention with task paralysis and stuck on a waiting table to decide or to take action..

And because of this I kind of lost interest in so many things and I do have a fear of being seen and a judgemental fear so that is another problem due to my past. now on a day I just don't feel anything I mean I go to gym and afterwards and while doing it I'm already thinking when will this end coz I'm bored but it's only for a moment after that at home I just don't know what to do and even tho I know next tasks i just can't or don't want to idk..

so I'm in a low mood mostly and if I just leave myself like that I am stuck in bed all day drowning in that feeling and to get me out Manga or webtoon are the only things that distract me and I cannot function if I want this Manga addiction cum coping mechanism on control coz once I open it my whole day is gone in a blink before I realise that I have things to do...

I've been unemployed and so maintaining a routine is hard and my time is not in my hand coz of sudden obligations, it's not like no one will disturb me because of my family and I want to know how people are maintaining the Dopamine levels when they are not feeling anything while doing things or they just want to do one thing because of executive dysfunction or being stuck on the waiting table to do things how do you manage this are there any other things you can do to just be ok with it.

Thank you for your time.

I am an ADHD pi with executive dysfunction and depression...

My main problem is that there are things that I like because of the past experience but now even though I do them I don't feel anything while doing it or after doing it, I just feel like It's done that's all and sometimes I'm even bored of them. Not to mention with task paralysis and stuck on a waiting table to decide or to take action..

And because of this I kind of lost interest in so many things and I do have a fear of being seen and a judgemental fear so that is another problem due to my past. now on a day I just don't feel anything I mean I go to gym and afterwards and while doing it I'm already thinking when will this end coz I'm bored but it's only for a moment after that at home I just don't know what to do and even tho I know next tasks i just can't or don't want to idk..

so I'm in a low mood mostly and if I just leave myself like that I am stuck in bed all day drowning in that feeling and to get me out Manga or webtoon are the only things that distract me and I cannot function if I want this Manga addiction cum coping mechanism on control coz once I open it my whole day is gone in a blink before I realise that I have things to do...

I've been unemployed and so maintaining a routine is hard and my time is not in my hand coz of sudden obligations, it's not like no one will disturb me because of my family and I want to know how people are maintaining the Dopamine levels when they are not feeling anything while doing things or they just want to do one thing because of executive dysfunction or being stuck on the waiting table to do things how do you manage this are there any other things you can do to just be ok with it.

Thank you for your time.

So idk if this is a trait of an ADHDer pi or introvert or just me, but there are times I've made too many mistakes since childhood and hurt some close friends and family and even lost some friends due to my lack of social cues and maybe common sense idk...

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1. I used to think criticisms are good as a child and when my friends ask me how their art was I used to tell all the mistakes Abt its appearance and things they could do to improve... Then one day my friend got angry with me and said that I'm not some hyped art curator to say those things and she's not my pupil that she has to listen to my words like that and a simple "it's good" would be more than enough.. not everyone wants ur guidance and corrections all time.

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2. I used to have a friend who used to visit my town with her parents just to meet me at an event once a year.. and I forgot her name I know I'm such a useless person and she knows everything about me in the 4 days we met in a span of 4 years.. once when she brought her siblings to introduce to me and they noticed that Idk her name .. she was hurt my apology just made it worse and she never came to meet me again and it happened when I was in school .. so no point of contact.

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3. Now from school I got used to compartmentalizing my life like school is for frnds and home is for family.. no calls nothing with friends after school coz I'm home that's it .. I just attend calls if I do get but NTG from my side and my parents are strict so no sleepovers and it's same in summer vacations too.. but my gang meets most of the times they invite me and I say no i can't.. that's it .. actually the thing I wanna say here is idk the obligations and things u do and need to do as a friend.. I just thought it's something like having company in college and school and no need to meet them or not needed to meet them after school .. coz y, u already see them daily and u don't see family in school so y do u see them at home .. actually I even forget that I have friends after I'm home, coz I'm just home no need to care for anything... Just free and live my life.

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4. I have mouth slips sometimes and I realise early sometimes and apologize but there are things i do accidentally and realise late 🫩 and it's already awkward to apologise and sometimes I just move past and sometimes it's totally messed up the flow of relationship and idk how to mend it coz there u need more than an apology to make it work and u need consistency too. So, idk what to do and they go from friends to acquaintances .. idk how to maintain relationships well in friendship coz never been in love . And it's just talk and idk anything past that what are the things u need to do and how do you get close or maintain consistency without being cringe or seem like one side trail depending on my own beliefs that we have vibe and they're okay with me ..

Idk if they're just being nice or genuine.

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5. I'm a person who repeats things like on a loop or a broken record sometimes and sometimes I don't think or understand what they're saying and I'm stuck that looks like I'm either rude or stupid.

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6. I overly care sometimes and I'm Crossing boundaries coz we're not that close for me to care even tho I care.

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7. I'm insensitive coz I care too much and wanna do so many things but don't wanna be seen like I'm pitying or overstepping my bounds.

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8. I forgot to call or follow no matter how imp or silly things.. I get guilty and avoid them for days and weeks ...

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PS. Sorry such a long post and there were too many but got disturbed and lost my flow and thoughts now I forgot.. and I do feel like I've repeated many things here but I feel like they're imp to get the context.. so🙂‍↕️🫠🫣

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