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Ever since I was young I always struggled with making friends. Either people dont approach me or I dont approach them that was just how it was. Not until I decided to change for the better and start approaching people to befriend. In this process I would choose the type of people that was kind of shy, meek, and overall not a very social type of person. My logic was that these types of people wont leave you for their other friend because they didnt have one in the beginning or just too shy to say no to me. Thats how I began making a bunch of friends like that. Im not an introverted type of person by all means, I like to have fun, I like to make jokes. And through that I believe I changed some of these people I made friends with.
Theyre not as shy anymore they express their opinion and isnt so depended on me. But as I was thinking about my entire life yesterday I realized none of the people I started being friends with cared about me. They took so much and never cared to give it back. And even during my childhood whenever I was in a bad situation (someone bullying me or I was arguing with someone) none of them stood up for me. I never genuinely had a friend standing up for me. They were all so passive. And would act like nothing happened after it.
I tried to be friends with different types of people in high scool. The social kind. Theyre also bad to me. Only talking when needed but just almost all the time talking with their other friend. Sure I dont care if you dont see me as your friend but its so confusing when she labels me as her friend during our alone moments. And the same thing not caring when someone treats me bad. I mean kf course depending on the situation its better to not step in but most of the time its me getting treated so bad in class by someone she sees as a friend. I thought about it multiple times, but in the end if I was in her shoes I would say something. Something! So my friend knows I got her back.
I really dont understand why are all of the people I make friends with like this. Two faced and a coward. Maybe its just me maybe I cant find loyal nice friends but at the end of the day I feel more lonely than ever. I've always treated my friends nicely and made them laugh when I can. I wasted my energy money and time to these people in hopes they would treat me the same. But it never came.