I can’t help but cry everytime I get reassurance
For as long as I could remember, whenever I made a mistake or was upset with something, and people (specifically people I respect or those of authority) would tell me “it’s okay” or “don’t worry about it” or just any sort of kind words of reassurance, I start bawling my eyes out. It’s not even the initial issue that is causing this reaction but rather the fact that they are comforting me. I have NO IDEA why this happens
Example: I had an academic advising appointment for college where I was stressed about picking courses. The advisor simply gave me the answer to my question and choices on how to proceed, and when I started to ask a follow up question I started tearing up
Another example: at a job interview, I answered one of the questions and used some terminology in the wrong context. He corrected me, and I apologized, and he said something along the lines of “it’s all good”. I started tearing up right then and there for NO REASON AT ALL. Then when I was working this job, I had been standing for too long and felt faint. I sat down, my boss gave me food and water, and when he asked me what happened and if this ever happened before, I STARTED BAWLING. MY. EYES. OUT. I wasn’t even upset about feeling faint, I was perfectly fine, but when he went to comfort me I was breaking down
Even when talking to professors about the most low stakes question ever, I can’t get through the conversation without my voice being wobbly and my eyes feeling wet. It’s gotten to the point where I avoid talking to people sometimes to avoid having this visceral reaction
Idk what’s wrong in my brain for this to happen but I know it’s not normal. I can’t keep doing this if I want to lead a successful life. I’m scared whenever I have to talk to anyone important, I’ll start bawling and idk how to stop it
I guess I’m hoping I’m not alone in this and I just wonder if one day it’ll get better (ironic flair, I know)