u/Federal-Stranger8209

I just get this feeling sometimes. Maybe once every few months? I get a kinda confused feeling. I've had dissacosiation before, it's similar but it feels less in my head. I get unable to focus, feel a little light headed and dizzy, I get a bit of a dull headache, I feel really floaty and it's hard to think. I'm just trying to get pointed into the right direction here, like a symptom or something that's like this would be appriciated.

Some printer info but I'm not sure how relevent it'll be:

It's an Ender 3 S1 (not pro or plus)

Running klipper

Just installed a new hotend capable of 300°C

Thermistor is bad. I tried to look for any thermistor that wasn't the NTC 100K 3950, as research presented many people with problems with this particular one. I couldn't find one. Plan B is to buy a bunch and hope that there's enough that at least one will not arrive cracked or broken and will allow accurate enough readings. Anyway, as to my question, with an innacurate thermistor (idk how inaccurate yet, just hoping at the moment that it's not unusably inaccurate) is there any tips as to be able to make due with it so I can keep printing? Klipper config stuff?

Edit: always manage to think of something I should've added right after posting. I think the only thing I've really done thus far is set my klipper config thermistor to read "Generic 3950". I know it's inaccurate cause temps jump around quite a bit. Probably around +/- 5°. I guess I'll try to do some testing to see.

I wish I liked myself. Didn't hold myself to an impossible standard that I don't hold anyone else to. More confident. Fuck. I wish I stood up for myself. I wish that I made an effort to fill my life with people who liked me for me, instead of people that I only pine for love and approval from. I wish I didn't have so much anxiety. I don't know why I had to be born being so fucking scared of the world. I wish my brain functioned at least slightly more similarly to an average person. I wish I could make friends as an adult. I wish I was more hopeful. I wish I could trust my own judgement. I don't even know what else to wish for.

There's been so many times I've said that despite every negative thing that's happened because I'm me that I still wanted to be me. There's times where I have loved being me. Being someone who's brain works a little funky, being someone who's ultimate goal is to leave the world a better place. I know somewhere inside what I really really really want is just a world where it's easier to be me.

I just want to matter. I want to stop having to fight to matter and just be worthie of living just for being a human being, like how I think everyone matters just on the basis that they're alive.

I feel like I can't have anything that's important to me. That me having feelings is just a burden to others.

I don't what else to say. I'm running out of the looking for direction for being sad and just getting directionlessly sad.

Last night I, for the first time in my life, shaved my mustache. Changed up my facial hair, it's mostly shaved. And today I gave myself a haircut. Also while doing so I randomly decided to use the clippers around my happy trail to define it. I am so refreshed and feel like I am new. This is also a new reddit account lol. I guess I just kinda regularly delete and make new ones. The last one was my longest running one and it felt like time to move on.