I hope I don't regret this career decision..
Hi M[29] and currently working as an engineer remotely for a foreign company.
Growing up, both my parents worked for the government sector. Di kami mayaman, pero life is comfortable and stable kasi they are both permanent employees sa government. Indoctrinated saaming magkakapatid na pag mag tratrabaho na kami, eh dapat sa gobyerno rin and I dont blame them. Naitaguyod nila kami magkakapatid eh kaya its the formula that worked for then.
So when I was passed the board exam, I really tried applying sa permanent government position. There were failed attempts, some nabagsak ko exam, some walang reply at all and di rin ako gumamit ng backer since di ako applicable sa field ng aprents ko. So for my first years being an emoloyee, I worked as an engineer sa private sector and started around 21k php as my first salary sa metro manila. Now in my 3rd company in 4 years, napa akyat ko ang salary ko to 50k+ thru job hopping and since remote siya, sa province na ako naka base.
Now kasi nga indoctrinated nga saamin ang mag work sa government because of stabilitiy, i dreamed talaga of working in the government din particulary this government agency na relevant sa field ko and luckily may office sila sa province ko. I have tried applying for years sa agency na to pero di ako pinapansin. Pressure pa dito is my brother nakapasok siya sa isang government and napakaganda ng career progression niya. almost 6 digits salary na siya as a permanent government employee! kaya dagdag din to sa pressure
Pero I tried applying last year and alas, napasa ko exam and napasa ko sng interview!! ang inapplyan ko is a senior role in this agency and napasa ko naman ang exams and qualified naman ako. but then nung initial interview, sinabi saakin na they wont offer me the senior positin (55K+++ php) and would offer me the entry level (35k++ php) instead. sa gobyerno mataas na yung 35k php na entry level gets ko.. pero im now esrning 50k plus ehh. on how my finances are setup its a downgrade talaga. right now, ang dami kong non negotiables na bayarin (ex. maintenance ng parents, bills sa bahay) and I cannot afford na hindi to bayaran. Kahit pa same province yung agency, medyo malayo siya saamin and medyo uncommutable yung place. the agency is 2 hrs away from us and walang direct way to commute dun kaya at the vey least, kailangan ko mag labas pa ng motor to get by.. (di pa gaano afford ang car kahit 2nd hand). Naisip ko the barrier to entry is too high.. Bababa ang income, pero tataas ng grabe ang expenses.
Right now, pag mag titipid talaga ako i will have about st least 18k in savings per month, net na yan pag naibawas ko na ang non negotiable gastos. But when i will accept the Government job, since i would have to rent, buy a motorcycle na huhulugan plus daily expenses, walang 5k ang maiipon ko kada buwan or at the very least max na yun na possible ipon IF mag titipid talaga ako.
Base sa numbers ehh napaka obvious ng answer, but I once dreamed of working talaga for this government agency. Pero the numbers speak for itself na ehh.. So i made the hard decision to decline the plantilla position... Iniyakan ko to ng sobra, pangarap ko to eh. pero sadyang hindi kakayanin ng bulsa ko and my long term goals. stable nga ako pero ang hirap ko naman? :(
The hardest part is my parents does not fail to remind me everyday since na "sinayang mo yung opportunity mo" "saan ka pupulutin sa wfh wfh na yan". na ang sakit saakin kasi parte sila ng decision ko. kung kukunin ko yun eh di ko mababayaran ang mga maintenance nila. lalo netong mid year bonus nila sa govt, ang daming pasaring na parinig saakin kasi wala daw akong ganun. nakakainis rin na parang minamaliit nila ako porke i work remotely, samantalang i make more than them right now? (except my brother)
I realpy hope na di ko pagsisihan tong decision ko, i don't know if masyado akong short term nag isip. pero I just did what's best for me right now :(