u/Finn__the_human_

My crush rejected me and I’m not okay

I’m working at starbucks, there is a little girl where I work, her sister same age as me came to our coffe few months ago…few days later little girl told me her sister got cheated, I didn’t wanted to send invite(she told me she was accepting online invites from literally everyone) I told one of my friend at bar about this and that piece of work directly told this to that little girl, as he told me little girl said “him? My sister wouldn’t look at him,” that was little harsh because I helped that girl alot at work, portected her from a pervert and helped lifting, I would’ve expect something like, “let them try, see if it’s works”

Then she bullsh!t me about not saying that stuff and I send a request to her sister, she didn’t answered, I took down the request few days ago

Well now case closed and I feel miserable,

Was I wrong not sending her request when she got cheated? I didn’t wanted to use her, I was doing what I believed was right

Since I joined the work I changed so much, I was 103kg, now I’m 82kg with a good diet, I wear nice clothes, still got good hair at age 25, as far as my friends says I’m handsome guy, I get over fear of my maniac family and got a tattoo, I’m a digital artist, I’m cycling at beach, I go to gym every 5 days,

I was raised by my oppressive toxic family, as you can guess that made me quiet guy, I went to army last year and came back, it changed me, near death ecperience changed me, I changed so much in a year than last 24 years, I got more brave, losing 21kg fat, getting a tattoo end my 2 credit cards wuit smokşng problem, got myself brand new laptob, I swear I’m not some junkie, and I go out now, talk with people like normal human being, having small chats, putting myself out there…getting rejection from that girl made me think, “am I not changing?” “Despite all I do I’m not gonna be enough?”

My life is ok, I play games I want I have a job that gives me paycheck and got friends to go to drink, gym and all, but I wake up every morning remembering that no one choosed me or thought I worth their time and it makes me feel lonely even more and more every day,

I swear I changed, but world doesn’t let me

I’m working at starbucks, there is a little girl where I work, her sister same age as me came to our coffe few months ago…few days later little girl told me her sister got cheated, I didn’t wanted to send invite(she told me she was accepting online invites from literally everyone) I told one of my friend at bar about this and that piece of work directly told this to that little girl, as he told me little girl said “him? My sister wouldn’t look at him,” that was little harsh because I helped that girl alot at work, portected her from a pervert and helped lifting, I would’ve expect something like, “let them try, see if it’s works”

Then she bullsh!t me about not saying that stuff and I send a request to her sister, she didn’t answered, I took down the request few days ago

Well now case closed and I feel miserable,

Was I wrong not sending her request when she got cheated? I didn’t wanted to use her, I was doing what I believed was right

Since I joined the work I changed so much, I was 103kg, now I’m 82kg with a good diet, I wear nice clothes, still got good hair at age 25, as far as my friends says I’m handsome guy, I get over fear of my maniac family and got a tattoo, I’m a digital artist, I’m cycling at beach, I go to gym every 5 days,

I was raised by my oppressive toxic family, as you can guess that made me quiet guy, I went to army last year and came back, it changed me, near death ecperience changed me, I changed so much in a year than last 24 years, I got more brave, losing 21kg fat, getting a tattoo end my 2 credit cards wuit smokşng problem, got myself brand new laptob, I swear I’m not some junkie, and I go out now, talk with people like normal human being, having small chats, putting myself out there…getting rejection from that girl made me think, “am I not changing?” “Despite all I do I’m not gonna be enough?”

My life is ok, I play games I want I have a job that gives me paycheck and got friends to go to drink, gym and all, but I wake up every morning remembering that no one choosed me or thought I worth their time and it makes me feel lonely even more and more every day,

I swear I changed, but world doesn’t let me

7 yıldır tanıştık, 4 sene sevgili kaldık ayrılalı aradan 3 yıl geçmiş, bugün birisi bana sana kimse bakmaz daha dedi, uzun ilişkiden çıkmışsın enkaz gibisin kimse o topun altına girmez dedi ve düşşnmeden edemiyorum son 6 aydaki flörtlerin olmamasının sebebi bumu?

Geçenlerdede başka birisi bir daha asla kimseyi sevemeyeceksin dedi

Bu insanların dedikleri doğrumu? Yoksa bi skim bildiği sanan ahmaklarmı?

Bir şey denedik ne yazıkki olmadı, oldurmak için herşeyi denedik ama olmadı, mazide bıraktım ilişkinin ortasında bir anda öğrenmesinler diyede açıkca söylüyorum ne kadar ilişkim olduğunu, ilk sordukları soru bu oluyo, şimdi bu lavukların dedikleri doğruysa, gerçekten aşk hayatım bittimi?

7 yıllık ilişkim 3 yıl önce bitti ve beni gerçekten kahretti 3 yıl kimseye yazmadım flörtleşmedim, geçtiğimiz son yılda askere gittim ve iş hayatına başladım artık yeni bir ilişkiye hazırım fakat şuana kadar ilişki denemeleri pek parlak değil, onlineda köpek çekmezsen kızlar siklemiyor, ortak arkadaş vesilesiyle biri ile flörtleştim ama devamı gelmedi, ve sonki denememde yine ortak arkadaştan istemiştim, senden olmaz o iş dedi bana ve aşırı koydu bu laf bi iki haftadır etkisinden çıkamadım, artık ortak arkadaşlarla denemeyi bıraktım, şuan sırf hu olayı unutmak için öylesine biriyle çıkıp gönül eğlendirmek istiyorum ama ne gerekiyor bilmiyorum fazla ciddiye aldığım için olabilirmi?

Gerçekten rastgele bi kafede birine yakaşıp konuşma başlatmak ile yarıyormu, 7 yıllık sevgilimle random bi şekilde onlineda tanışmıştık tamamen random, ve şuan öyle bi haldeyim ki bir daha sevilmeyeceğim bir daha kimseyi hulamayacağım gibi hissediyorum yaş olmuş 25 yarın 30 olucam yanlız olmak istemiyorum yanlız olmak iğrenç, ve milletin tek tavsiyesi, knk arama aramayınca geliyo, kolpa gibi geliyo kulağa ama gerçekten biri için çok çok denememe ramen olmadı, olmayacaksada harbi olmuyor, paradox

Yaş 25 saçlar gür, sarışınım, 180 boy, 83 kilo ortalama vucüdum var, diksiyonum çevremin söylediğine göre gür