I feel so alone in my 20s
Im 23 (f) am struggling with being alone.I have a boyfriend but no friends.
My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years and we had serious talks about an engagement at this time, but now that it’s here he’s saying “In a year or two ” and won’t explain why. We have a good relationship in my opinion. We don’t fight often and when we have we’re able to communicate openly. We live together and spend a lot of enjoyable time together yet, so I’m just not understanding if there is no “reason” why the push back. The only thing that comes to mind is that I had a great relationship with his family until we moved In Together and ever since then they’ve said I’m not the right girl and want nothing to do with me. He’s the oldest and holds a lot of responsibility. My boyfriend has been very clear about not agreeing with them and that this is what he wants to do. I’ve tried very hard to make amends with his mom and family, but they’d rather not. I’m not trying to rush a proposal, I could genuinely wait if I knew the timeline. It’s just the change with no explanation leaves me concerned.
Also, I have no friends. I lost a lot of friends after high school and during covid. When I graduated i no longer had any connections because I wasn’t able to attend regular school after my sophomore year due to the pandemic. and then I didn’t go to regular college so I haven’t been in many environments to create new friendships. I got my certifications, moved out at 16 and bought a home a few years later just a few towns over from where i grew up. I strive at work and often excel in my responsibilities and have moved up professionally quite fast for my age.i seem to be enjoyable and pleasant to be around and people like me at work so idk. I’ ve tried so hard through work, facebook groups, past connections and nothing seems to stick when making friends. I’ve joined different social groups, internet, and just going out alone. I genuinely consider myself a very open minded, kind, and social person. However for some reason I can’t seem to make any lasting friendships. I have a terrible relationship with my family and I’m just struggling to feel wanted in life. Idk If this is just my 20s, my personality, or my environment. Any advice on some self evaluation or how to connect with people?