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OCD - A bizzarre phrase about transexuals I heard in has haunted me since 2013 and gave me chrnonic 24/7 Depersonalization and derealization
In 2013 my father's friend that was at lunch with us pronunced this phrase: "there are those men that feel women, they became what they ARE"
If he Would have pronunced "there are those men that feel women, they became what they FEEL THEY ARE" the phrase Would have been Ok instead...
Why the phrase as how It was pronunced got me obsessed?
- If you Say: the water become warm, for Logic It means that before that the water was not warm
- with the phrase about the trans: "there are those men that feel women, that became what they are" It means that before that, those men weren't who they are"..
This last piece of the phrase "before that, those men weren't what they are" my brain force the interpretation ARE= biologically are...So the phrase became like "those men weren't biologically Who they are biologically" so "those men (individuals with dick) werent biologically men...So the phrase sounds like "the individuals with dick arent biologically men". That It Is false, but you know the Classic OCD (what if, what if Is true, the phrase with reverse Logic sounds like that, so if It sounds like that, must be some true in It)....And the OCD continue with its voice (so if those that have dick arent men, those without dicks are men) so if Always thought that those with dicks are men, and I have a dick so I am a man, all that Is false, my inner self that has grown up with the concept that those with dicks are men Is a delusional self, I cant thrust myself, i cant trust my innervoice... With that thoughts in my head, with the thought in particular that my self can be delusional, my brain like a switch turned Dp/dr ON and since 2013 those dissociative symptoms staied chronic...
I Would like tò hear your thoughts about my obsession..Thanks