u/Flat-Extreme8497

Mussoorie used to be my local getaway and chill zone before 2018. We would take a day round trip come back into cozy home in evenings, from forest and chilling breeze.

I have seen it getting worse and worst infront of my eyes. Mussoorie has started to feel like new Shimla, same kind of crowd and goons. I miss those days.

Edit 1: Landour used to be hideout, a chill zone just to sit walk around, just peace and sound of nature.
It has now become a parking spot. And dare you!! Try visiting on weekends. All you see SUVs of Punjab, Delhi, Haryana and too much crowd to handle. I feel like shouldn’t have come here, it only makes me feel sad

I feel I am on the way of awakening. Partially achieved it. But how do I know it and confirm it.
No I don’t meditate. But I connect to god in very worldly manner. Very basic talking to him. Sometimes get my answers from my innerself

So, I am 30F and single. Never been into relationships, though dated a few through apps. The last person I was with for 1.5 yrs told at the time of breakup that it was a situationship we were in and I never knew about it. Honestly I was invested and thought me and him are moving ahead.

I sometimes used expect very small gestures from him though that I would feel nice if done for me. But then complained because I thought that what’s the use of asking if no one feels like doing that for me. And this would hurt me.

But is it normal??

Never ever a single person till now did anything special for me, to make me feel special. I have never gotten flowers or small gifts or a surprise in my life!!

Never did anyone (whom I dated) ever made a call to me for wishing me birthday. And forget about making birthday special, even my friends never did that for me.

Though these things never bother me, but I realised I deserve at least this much. I’d like to do all this for a loved one.

So, I am 30F. The last person I was with for 1.5 yrs told at the time of breakup that it was a situationship we were in and I never knew about it. Honestly I was invested and thought me and him are moving ahead.

I sometimes used expect very small gestures from him though that I would feel nice if done for me. But then never complained because I thought that what’s the use of asking if he doesn’t feel like doing that for me. And this would hurt me.

But is it normal??

Never ever a single person I dated, till now did anything special for me, to make me feel special. I have never gotten flowers or small gifts or a surprise in my life!! Never did anyone (whom I dated) ever made a call to me for wishing me birthday.

Though these things never bother me, but I realised I deserve at least this much. I’d like to do all this for a loved one. And I am not settling for any less now.

The experience in past I had made it very clear for me that I am not investing anything with anyone who is irked by the idea of showing some love and appreciation sometimes.

Edit: I had Already posted to several relevant subs. This was initially deleted here, but then posted I guess. But anyways not deleting it here. As I get to know how deprived some men are that they think basics are Luxury.
And tells me why to avoid them and rather be single

Edit 2: Stop assuming that I haven’t put any efforts. I have precisely chosen the words for enough context, this is not a rant post. Neither welcome is the rant of loser men who hate women in general (you deal your problem bro).

Edit 3: No I am not poor 😂 or a little girl, not intimidated by men who are in a very sorry state to think that expressing yourself makes you weak!! No one on Reddit paying my bills, so why should be afraid to express !! 🤷🏻‍♀️

So, isn’t Dharma simple, save the vulnerable, justice for the victims, punitive action for the culprit according to his crime etc.
But in Mahabharata everyone has their own set of Dharam. A vachan is being give more importance than human lives. Greatest Dharma dharaks turning blind eye to exploitation of commons, women, vulnerable society.
When Yudhishthira himself wasn’t able to protect his wife (who was a vulnerable lady being exploited and tormented by goons in power), why does he till date considered Dharmaraj? Why could he pass the stairs of heaven when he didn’t follow his very primary and basic Kshatriya Dharma, protection of the vulnerable. Being selfish and saving his own vachan, whilst a woman is being exploited!!

That itself is the first and foremost statement of the God himself in Bhagvad!!

I am a female. have turned 30 now. I have been praying for good marriage and love in my life since I was 7 or 8 yrs old of probably even before that. I didn’t even know what marriage is at that time. And without questioning till date praying and asking the same thing at all big temples I have ever been. Now I know the meaning of it though.
But despite that I see everyone around me getting married and kids except for me.
It has now come to a point that I feel exhausted and kind of given up on even praying for it. I have accepted that probably it will never happen. So have stopped even thinking about it.
Moreover the embarrassment my family is facing due to me is an added pressure.

Apart from the kind of people I met on matrimony sites, dating apps have broken my enthusiasm to the level that I probably don’t want to marry now!

I don’t know what will happen but think about it often. Will I get a good married life as I prayed for? I often fear my fertile years are passing by so probably even if I get love and marriage, I probably won’t have kids which is also a hurtful thought

DOB: 26/12/1995
Place: Deoband (UP)
Time of birth - 3:45pm
(Female)