u/Flat_Gift2794

it started while i was on vacation and i was with some sort of relative idk how i’m related to him really, and I was staying with family, and for some reason i kept getting thoughts about his genitals and my hands started tingling and I kept trying to get myself to stop thinking about it but i couldn’t for some reason.

then i was watching a cartoon and it had a 14 year old girl in it and i kept thinking to mysel “am i attracted to her? am i sexually attracted to her?” but i don’t think i was but i couldn’t stop thinking about it so I wasn’t sure.

and now i’m scared of touching my niece or being around her because i don’t want to hurt her in case i really am a pedophile.

i also keep feeling tingling at my genitals, it doesnt exactly feel like arousal but im not sure if it is or isn’t, and it’s freaking me out.

and i keep occasionally getting the thought to imagine doing something like that to a child to test if i like it, and i get scared of even thinking about that cause it’s bad and gross and i feel disgusted, even if i can’t imagine it. if I do, i either just dissociate afterwards or feel sick. but i still get worried because why did i even do that?

I’m a minor, so I don’t get a say in whether or not she’s brought over to my parents’ house or not. Which, really I wouldn’t mind her staying the weekend every now and then, but my brother and his spouse drop their daughter off at my parents’ house EVERY weekend. I hate being around young children, so this has made me feel exhausted every weekend, and when paired with school, it made me feel like I could never have a break at all. I tried to talk about this with my family, and they made a compromise to only bring her on Saturday and not on Friday, but this was short lived and things went back to the way they were after a few weeks.

I recently went into homeschooling, so at least I’m not as exhausted during the week, but I recently came home from staying the week with more family members who had another young child who would scream and make loud obnoxious noises, and now my parents are keeping my niece over right after we’re back home.

Aside from me finding children annoying, I just don’t know how to spend time with them. I’m not very vocal, and my niece isn’t old enough to understand how to play with others.

I’m a little worried I might be causing mental issues later down the road for my niece too with my absence, could this actually cause them? I’m worried

It started when my friend would make jokes about the trans flag every time she would see the colors, and it quickly started to annoy me because my favorite colors are pink and blue, as well as her doing this to my own characters and at one point calling one of them trans. I eventually told her to stop, and she has, but it still bothers me and I don’t know why it’s like this but I’m starting to get annoyed by her just talking about being trans in general, even when not related to the previous situation.

I’ve tried to empathize and I understand why she does it, but for some reason I’m still bothered. I don’t know how to fix this, and I’d appreciate it a ton if someone helped me stop being like this.

so, for a few months now, my hair has been sticky and disgusting, and it doesn’t go away no matter how hard I scrub, how many times I shampoo, and I think clarifying shampoo might be making it worse, because every time I run my finger through, my finger has this sticky feeling afterwards and it’s way worse than before using it. after talking with my parents about this, they said it might be conditioner, because i’ve been using it every time I showered which is incredibly frequently. that, and i’ve been putting it on my scalp. so, i have to ask, does this buildup go away on its own after showering a few times like normal without conditioner?

I’m young, like, not even 18 yet, but I still graduated anyway. But even before I graduated, I couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that I’ll be “too old” for things. I’ll be “too old” for the game I grew up on, “too old” to go clubbing, ”too old” to do anything. i feel whiny crying over this because like. everyone has to grow old. but idk how to cope with this. I was starting to feel less terrified of it until people were having a conversation and said that it was bad to be playing roblox over the age of 20. i thought it was fine? now i’m scared all over again cause like. in a year i’ll be 18, then 19, then 20, then 21. idk how to stop thinking about it. i’ve tried by asking my friends if they wanted to call and play games together but it feels like i’m just putting a bandaid over it.