u/Flimsy_Protection473

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I am hoping to find a doctor or clinic that can help me manage alcohol withdrawal at home. I have been drinking, on average, 2-2.5 bottles of wine per day for the last six months as a way to deal with postpartum depression. After trying two different SSRIs and getting no where with my OB, I turned to wine and now it has become a dangerous and deadly habit. Reddit has pretty much told me that I’ll seize up and die if I don’t get medical help to detox but I am not able to go to the hospital or to a detox facility. I am terrified that I am going to die and that I will not be here for my children and I just really am hoping to find someone who is compassionate and willing to help me.

I’m located in Colorado. If anyone can make any recommendations of somewhere to go or someone to see, I would be eternally grateful. My kids are my entire world and I need to be here for them. I’m ready to be done for good but I just need a little bit of help.

TIA if you’re able to assist in any way.

36F, 185 lbs, non smoker, no rec drug use, prenatal vitamins and propranolol for high anxiety moment.

ETA: this is not an emergency and I am not in crisis mode. Just hoping to get a handle on it before it gets to that place.

I have a 2.5 y/o and a 13 m/o.. I struggled with postpartum anxiety after giving birth to my first and the second was a surprise (albeit, a welcomed one).

I thought I was in a much better headspace with baby number 2 but then at 3.5 weeks postpartum, he was hospitalized with croup and two days later, me, with postpartum preeclampsia.. I actually had no idea that you could get preeclampsia during the postpartum phase but apparently it can happen up to 12 weeks postpartum (the more you know!\*)

He spent 4 days in the hospital, as did I, with a one day overlap. After that, he struggled to breastfeed because he had to take a bottle for the time we were both in the hospital and really never went back.. I did pump the entire time that I was hospitalized so he got used to a bottle. He’s also a lazy boy.. But it broke me. I spent a lot of time trying to fix what I thought was broken (before determining that formula was the best option - shout out to ByHeart and Nara Organics for helping out with my anxiety 🫠).

My anxiety is uncontrollable and I don’t know what to do about it. I want to be a great mom but I feel like I’m failing at it. My husband is actually a great dad and an okay partner but doesn’t seem to be giving me what I need right now.

Lost a lot of friends (including a best friend of 22+ years) due to 2u2 babes and I guess just varying priorities/life stages and that’s been hard too but I guess is just normal. I have talked to my OB and been prescribed 2 different SSRIs which I didn’t do well on.

I’m a mess. I don’t even know what the purpose of writing this was other than to vent.

I am just sad.

I have a 2.5 y/o and a 13 m/o.. I struggled with postpartum anxiety after giving birth to my first and the second was a surprise (albeit, a welcomed one).

I thought I was in a much better headspace with baby number 2 but then at 3.5 weeks postpartum, he was hospitalized with croup and two days later, me, with postpartum preeclampsia.. I actually had no idea that you could get preeclampsia during the postpartum phase but apparently it can happen up to 12 weeks postpartum (the more you know!\*)

He spent 4 days in the hospital, as did I, with a one day overlap. After that, he struggled to breastfeed because he had to take a bottle for the time we were both in the hospital and really never went back.. I did pump the entire time that I was hospitalized so he got used to a bottle. He’s also a lazy boy.. But it broke me. I spent a lot of time trying to fix what I thought was broken (before determining that formula was the best option - shout out to ByHeart and Nara Organics for helping out with my anxiety 🫠).

My anxiety is uncontrollable and I don’t know what to do about it. I want to be a great mom but I feel like I’m failing at it. My husband is actually a great dad and an okay partner but doesn’t seem to be giving me what I need right now.

Lost a lot of friends (including a best friend of 22+ years) due to 2u2 babes and I guess just varying priorities/life stages and that’s been hard too but I guess is just normal. I have talked to my OB and been prescribed 2 different SSRIs which I didn’t do well on.

I’m a mess. I don’t even know what the purpose of writing this was other than to vent.

I am just sad.

I have a 2.5 y/o and a 13 m/o.. I struggled with postpartum anxiety after giving birth to my first and the second was a surprise (albeit, a welcomed one).

I thought I was in a much better headspace with baby number 2 but then at 3.5 weeks postpartum, he was hospitalized with croup and two days later, me, with postpartum preeclampsia.. I actually had no idea that you could get preeclampsia during the postpartum phase but apparently it can happen up to 12 weeks postpartum (the more you know!*)

He spent 4 days in the hospital, as did I, with a one day overlap. After that, he struggled to breastfeed because he had to take a bottle for the time we were both in the hospital and really never went back.. I did pump the entire time that I was hospitalized so he got used to a bottle. He’s also a lazy boy.. But it broke me. I spent a lot of time trying to fix what I thought was broken (before determining that formula was the best option - shout out to ByHeart and Nara Organics for helping out with my anxiety 🫠).

My anxiety is uncontrollable and I don’t know what to do about it. I want to be a great mom but I feel like I’m failing at it. My husband is actually a great dad and an okay partner but doesn’t seem to be giving me what I need right now.

Lost a lot of friends (including a best friend of 22+ years) due to 2u2 babes and I guess just varying priorities/life stages and that’s been hard too but I guess is just normal. I have talked to my OB and been prescribed 2 different SSRIs which I didn’t do well on.

I’m a mess. I don’t even know what the purpose of writing this was other than to vent.

I am just sad.